benzyrnill, set to fly, like dragon fly…鸠昱隆嘉











{January 31, 2010}   a puffing hunting day.

since last night turns agile with the idea of a new udisk, replacing the broken one i bought weeks ago. went to computer market at once after got up. bought baby a new mousepad he asked, and some food he likes. then all day with preparing clean os on 3 computers, including 2 notebook and a desktop. tried twice to make a bootable udisk, migrating data. lunch at baby’s mom’s home. later went to shower in public bathroom near ema’s house. dined with pies i bought there. then demonstrated ema the cozy of google products. returned dorm near 9pm. its merely a fruitful day.



arranged agenda in last night. in office launched soon after arrival to add static pages to family blogger’s blogs which just support the feature. since 9am to 2pm, narrowly gave it a stop. main reason for the lagging, one is China surveillance’s blocking let time wasted in Internet response, another is the damned incompatible of win 7 disabled my most available html editor&let static pages’ relayouting a pains of work. the traffic worsen in late afternoon, so i left around 4pm&dined with beef pies as usual. when i ready to return dorm, God lets me lingered near the cross road my girl zhou can appear. i listened the Holy, paid 2 eyes on 2 roads my girl can adopt to go home from QRRS HQ. the main road of QRRS again cluelessly, likely my girl really ditch the way. but a tall girl in white short coat appeared when i noticed on the other side of the cross road, which near my girl’s home. she previously accompanyed by a male, then she went alone to a Internet cafe named “new millennium”, where i haunted a lot back to 2006 when i blog online for my search for her after we met first time and soon she left QRRS at the end of practise term, before i retreated to hometown&re-treated i asylum for burning love and craving for my beloved. so many days passed since she last time let me closer to her in QRRS rush time crowd, i almost forgot her face, and in these days i saw so many female that can mistaken me, but i never so satisfied like by my girl zhou in last direct impression when she was packed by some male QRRSer into a car in rush time, likely dined out, nor by my girl zhou this time in the warm dusk when she departed the male aside her&join cafe alone, she is so bright with her perfect figure and taste of fashion. – benzrad’s daily tweet on Jan 29,2010



{January 29, 2010}   a day sees progress.

today finally got my family email box routinely checked&backup accounts. read in the morning. refined family google panoramio’s accounts, including vanity urls. help colleague fix shared printer. its originally bright, but dirts needs kill, so most of time in the afternoon its gloomy. i also put on coat in office for the chill of tomb from gays in office. sorted portable till near 6pm then left office&dined out with beef pies, and mutton soup. – daily tweet on Jan 28,2010



{January 28, 2010}   a normal busy day.

got up around 7am, went to office near 8am. posted tweet, then read&download most of the day. also check family mail boxes routinely. finished task overdue, ie. added my passed dad’s only video in his last year on the earth, shot by my kid brother when he visited our hometown while in vacation from his Guangdong’s drifting employee’s life, into the link of his photo on sites i setup in memorising him. later tried to logon my qq via its client on a female colleague’s pc, for web qq refused my logon for several days. then tried pidgin, an open source instant messenger which said support qq but failed me to access my qq, the monoply Chinese social im, likes all Chinese dotcoms, closely dogged its property by fensed itself from any open connects, and steal user base and data secretly at will. sorted portable&backup some stuff newly got to dvd, finished it after 6pm. the facing dog closely espionaged, stayed there just several minutes ahead me left, while the monitor left about half of an hour after work over. treated myself with beef pies and soup. missing my girl, who didn’t apppear in rush crowd of QRRSers at noon again, very much. – daily tweet on Jan 27,2010



dreamed lots of alumni of middle school&campus. also dreamed worked with some QRRS colleagues. after woke up, dog’s curse let me anxious awhile about my potent. since last night when i dined in the restaurant the evil against me on the topic: a couple whose family life turned a nightmare there asked another male friend to try to dissolve their family’s coldness of dying hearts. a grey man once lived in QRRS dorm but a blue collar worker there tried to chat to me&boast old time firendship he had with the dog in the neighbor office of mine. and this morning just when i left the dorm to office, the only hometown folk of Hubei in QRRS, also a grey man, met me and tried to talk with me about hometown journey. they all likely had problem with their potent, and poisoning my life with their spying eyes which is blind in front of the Holy. got up at 7:17am and soon arrived office. posted tweets first, then hunt for resource to download. tried to update my google latitude but China surveillance heavily hampered the operation. also tried a new extension of google browser, chrome’s, which blocked heavily by the surveillance. sorted portable after narrowly done it. my girl zhou again refused to walk alone the main road which passes my office in QRRS. the monitor, a dog, even God let me treat him a bit different from the facing evil for he also a graduate, bullied me by persuading me not to spit to the corridor, after i shown self-disciplined after the fury of the gay on facing desk and avoided to spit indoor. they all dogs whose common behavior is bully the silent. i retreated from office earlier, just after 2pm, for the cold of gays, ie. the deads, in office let me unconfortable. on the way check telcom’s office, attempting to increase my cellphone wap’s bonus pack, after my previous bundle, 10mb/month at 1rmb’s cost turns insufficient after these nights i surfed via wap on bed. but unfortunately my cellphone’s password missing, and i was suggested to go to the telcom’s HQ in central town to handle password changing process. in dorm, enjoyed food&white wine bought last night. dinner was unpleasant, the evil owner of the canteen pretending talking to her contacts and sold me smelly belly meat without my consent. so i dined again in the restaurant near the cross road. leaving the restaurant, i doubting if i should roam alone the main road of QRRS, now that it was rush time of work over. i really eager to see my girl who hidden from me for so many days, but God let me retreat to dorm. surfed in dorm on cell. roamed outside again after 6:30pm, bought some pickles on way in the grocer shop yesterday haunted. baby buzzed in so we had a good time in air, that’s the predecided.

my girl zhou, no matter how far u hidden from my searching sight, u r mine. God knows it, and u know it. let me have u, let me pick u. u will see the miracle exactly in my arms. every single cell in my blood, in my flesh, calling for u for family life, for pure joice i crying for u for so many years! u knew, Heaven knows. u had to be my life long wife, my 3rd wife, in my kingdom, in my Royal of China. that’s out of debate.



on the way check telcom’s office, attempting to increase my cellphone wap’s bonus pack, after my previous bundle, 10mb/month at 1rmb’s cost turns insufficient after these nights i surfed via wap on bed. but unfortunately my cellphone’s password missing, and i was suggested to go to the telcom’s HQ in central town to handle password changing process. in dorm, enjoyed food&white wine bought last night. dinner was unpleasant, the evil owner of the canteen pretending talking to her contacts and sold me smelly belly meat without my consent. so i dined again in the restaurant near the cross road. leaving the restaurant, i doubting if i should roam alone the main road of QRRS, now that it was rush time of work over. i really eager to see my girl who hidden from me for so many days, but God let me retreat to dorm. surfed in dorm on cell. roamed outside again after 6:30pm, bought some pickles on way in the grocer shop yesterday haunted. baby buzzed in so we had a good time in air, that’s the predecided. my girl zhou, no matter how far u hidden from my searching sight, u r mine. God knows it, and u know it. let me have u, let me pick u. u will see the miracle exactly in my arms. every single cell in my blood, in my flesh, calling for u for family life, for pure joice i crying for u for so many years! u knew, Heaven knows. u had to be my life long wife, my 3rd wife, in my kingdom, in my Royal of China. that’s out of debate.



dreamed lots of alumni of middle school&campus. also dreamed worked with some QRRS colleagues. after woke up, dog’s curse let me anxious awhile about my potent. since last night when i dined in the restaurant the evil against me on the topic: a couple whose family life turned a nightmare there asked another male friend to try to dissolve their family’s coldness of dying hearts. a grey man once lived in QRRS dorm but a blue collar worker there tried to chat to me&boast old time firendship he had with the dog in the neighbor office of mine. and this morning just when i left the dorm to office, the only hometown folk of Hubei in QRRS, also a grey man, met me and tried to talk with me about hometown journey. they all likely had problem with their potent, and poisoning my life with their spying eyes which is blind in front of the Holy. got up at 7:17am and soon arrived office. posted tweets first, then hunt for resource to download. tried to update my google latitude but China surveillance heavily hampered the operation. also tried a new extension of google browser, chrome’s, which blocked heavily by the surveillance. sorted portable after narrowly done it. my girl zhou again refused to walk alone the main road which passes my office in QRRS. the monitor, a dog, even God let me treat him a bit different from the facing evil for he also a graduate, bullied me by persuading me not to spit to the corridor, after i shown self-disciplined after the fury of the gay on facing desk and avoided to spit indoor. they all dogs whose common behavior is bully the silent. i retreated from office earlier, just after 2pm, for the cold of gays, ie. the deads, in office let me unconfortable.



{January 26, 2010}   a full work load of monday.

last night heard preach in local church again. the preach talk about traps, strange dream&phenomena, i quite informed of my situation. a beautiful girl lingered there after the preach, let me doubting where is my girl zhou. buzzed baby son after returned dorm about my love to him. before went to church, tried to contact my Guangdong girl sally. bought food from a nearby grocery shop named black kid sister(黑妹), enjoyed near 9pm. woke up this morning aroud 7am. went to office around 8a. in office posting tweets. correct QRRS allowance for baby’s kindergarten fee, with which first time the departmental clerk missed a month of that. read most time&hunting for resources to download. its a brilliant morning but sunshine turns weak at noon. i busy with clean irrelavant codes in my gmail’s html signature. redesign family html signature in bookmarklet&backup, since noon. then baby’s mom came over to fetch the returned allowance as we discussed. then sorted udisk, reformat&data migration, till 7pm finished, after many partitions dividing efforts failed. dined with beef pies&mutton soup. singing God name for the earlier descending of my girl in my life with new marriage.



post last blog/tweet on finance, recent photo to google maps. read within greader. fine turned family icq new profiles, with feeds. since 9am-3pm without break. heard preach in local church again. the preach talk about traps of evil, strange dream&phenomena from God, i quite informed of my situation. a beautiful girl lingered there after the preach, let me doubting where is my girl zhou. buzzed baby son after returned dorm about my love to him. before went to church, tried to contact my Guangdong girl sally. bought food from a nearby grocery shop named black kid sister(黑妹), enjoyed near 9pm. woke up this morning aroud 7am. went to office around 8a.



in the after dinner roam, my heart weightened by girl’s anxious about how to support my new life with the lifestyle we wished. God let me more cherished what my girl zhou bring to me, from a clean hand, forever. and to relieve my girl’s burden of support my new life, God has it: Masheng, ur money, as well as Japan’s finiancial power, is the only money on the world that’s growing with lives. help my girl zhou to arrange our new life, including the new house, that we deserve under God’s shine, decorate it with simple, romantic, and secure. rid us all evil of espionage. always lighten my girl with Holy spirit, rather anxious about so called reality problems. i will since my being under God’s shine many years ago choose live in Spirit. my dearest girl zhou, pl lend me ur hands, let’s step into our new life Heaven grants. u will be the finiancer of China Corporate, world will sees China’s prosperous, but never leave lightning Spirit even in split of second; never let money win ur sight, which would never happen on u, my dearest. Tonight the bottomless sky has a half moon, the forever family friend of Ming dynasty. let’s pray its clear and clean glows hallow our Royal of China. pure and plenty of China and its Royal.



et cetera