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{January 27, 2017}   with 2017 rejoiced.

Jan 27, 2017

last night woke up earlier then dwelling in dreams. first dreamt in zoo with dearest son, woz. 2 cheap girls recklessly open cage of tiger and let it at large. we rushed to evade and scattered. when I returned near zoo and found tiger caught woz and indecisively tore his clothes. in terror I scream for zoo manager’s help. when he in sight and running closer, I approached the tiger and woke up. I timely noted it on my mobile. then dreamt an OCR software’s advertisement on media. I was more or less familiar with pirate warez once, so I’m sure I will get a copy of the tool. I felt glad with it I can turn some Chinese textbook and its tests digitally for woz’s exercise. then all dreams about flying, with a delegation of school teachers likely in vacation tour. I can fly without any voyage, and use it to challenge barrage around me. this is a pale morning and eve of lunar new year. my returning train ticket still pending while brokerage already handed over. woz gained about ï¿¥2100 pocket money from his hometown relatives. I didn’t send out any gift money, including my newly married nephew. but I told him my startup and hard economy and promised will help him in future when my situation better. yesterday is the turning day of our vacation here, half elapsed. we made nice demonstration to country guys about steam online games to larger LED, chromecast mirror screen, English online videos. our poor dell notebook almost broke down after heavily load of video gaming, in frequent freeze now. I sincerely best wishes to my relatives here, hoping someday I can improve their lives. they already saw satisfactions in the decade when most nephews built their families. God dad, bring me sooner my Royal China to my larger family, for my future offspring. bring me Asoh Yukiko for glory of regal affair. grant us financial freedom to support my online startup.

Jan 25, 2017

first dreamt inspecting a girl secretary of Communist Youth league. she later in charge of a business owned by CCYL, then the business turns in property of girl her own. then dreamt being an India school boy. he studied diligently and guessed or cheated to know exam’s topic so scores highest. the topic likely about self-restrain, in Chinese in dream exactly “纲åä¼æ»¡”. his mom and sister celebrate his performance. his school dean who usually stern but now also welcomes him warmly. the boy gladly goes shopping with award, a check. this morning I woke up by the dream and made memo on my mobile. then I fell asleep again till my son got up. my elder sister asked us stay for celebrating lunar new year especially. my nephew came from my hometown village to invite our visit but I defied it for I felt vengeful against my brothers, esp my kid brother who made us harder when he had to aid me meanly. so I decisively evade him and his family, including the village, Zhudajiu where my 2 elder brothers didn’t extend helping hand during my credit debt crisis last year. among the relatives and rich meal I abrupt left to my younger elder sister’s house to blog. here my 2 nephews also hurry to downtown market. my dearest son, woz, aside me with his pc games. lunar new year holiday can be boring, for lunar harvest season doesn’t exist nowadays. I just too far from any celebration in my family affair, nor regal affair. with additional ï¿¥300 in this salary from QRRS, I equipped my family amazon prime another year, but nowhere to find fund to renew another 12 zhone domains esp. under woz’s title. God, dad, pl allow me finishing last todo annually in this month. let 2017 anxious free and firm business as seeds soiled. bring me sooner my Royal China to house my beloved, my children. bring Asoh Yukiko when we still breed. grant us financial independence and ability to see through adversity. thx dad.

Jan 21, 2017

dreamt siblings competition in economy. mafia tried to control state owned properties and bidding for merger. I was threatened not to bid but managed to, among my relatives influence. the flight toward hometown esp. smooth, all my unease evaporated after a night and a day’s on way. its my first time brought a luggage and I had to ask stewardess where to fetch it back. my son grows more confident in the journey with flight. our neighbor seat was likely a graduate girl, we made nice chats. we only had ï¿¥500 budget for on road cost, and it did cover, including taxi to my sister’s house in a town, our destiny. these days a nephew’s wedding in preparing, for the bride’s house too far, in neighbor province, so she will move to hotel in the county’s capital in advance. tomorrow will be the wedding ceremony holds locally. our returning voyage still pending, for the train ticket too scarce to buy. we paid Ctrip.com to hunt for us, and it monitored more than 500000 times and still going. the town’s business mostly cement, whose pollution quite severe. but today is second sunny day since our settlement and sunniest one so far. the 2 sons of my sister each has a car. their house newly furnished. I even already looking forward to return while my son still find funs here. all equipment we brought with us works well here, allowing woz to demonstrate online games with gamepads, mobile games chromecast to large LCD. hope he find friends here. God dad, we still have 12 domains to renew, pl grant us space to execute it. bring me sooner my Royal China to host our friends and relatives in glories. bring my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, for my family and children. thx, dad.

Jan 12, 2017

dreamt of my once campus alumnus, in surname Shi. he was one of 2 schoolmates helped me when I first settled in Qiqihar thousand miles from my hometown after graduation. in dream his house near mountain and open. at first I thought its scenery. then I anxious about safety. Shi first denied problem then gradually admitted it. his only elder sister then joined conversation, reviewed gunned robberies, as well as wild mountain predators, together their brutality hurt their family and young memories in feeble. then I review our old house also just under and inward 2 mountains’ junction and kept so well by my grand dad, warm, vivid and self-relies. in reality when I first settled in Qiqihar and visited Shi’s house, his house is a small slum among shabby northern China normal residential area. toilet was near mile away and backyard least spacey. but after nearly 2 decades, many slums turned into skyscrapers here and I don’t know where is Shi and his old family now. these weeks preparing hometown tour 3rd with woz, dearest son. I previously severe concerned if my credit debt deprives me of airline, but narrowly I got our flight ticket in a mid Monday night. my kid brother tried his best to sell poverty, claiming my sister can’t afford our flights but under my emphasis promised ï¿¥5000 from my sister arrived in 2 times remission my failing kid brother loathed to complete. we got a flight toward hometown while return voyage is train whose ticket paid but still in hunting by ctrip.com, a Chinese mainstream travel agency, due to PRC cheap policy said to protect the poor while in fact lots of brokers profit from the scarce of train ticket out from saturated market. my alipay also once strangely locked me out of payment, till called its support crew to fix it. recently I mostly unease if my payment method totally freezed but so far attests I at large with my assets. nevertheless, with remaining Chinese Yuan, I equipped myself another domain, billingzhu.com for my future new family member perceives in holy message. soon after I gained it from godaddy.com it strangely deleted from my account. after spent near half day desperately resuming it, I had to call godaddy support but found unknown deletion likely beyond my intentionality. and PRC tightens law against personal domain ownership esp of overseas, restricting ISP within its sovereign from support. God, reckless dictator in sinking PRC desperate clinging to my portal online. where is the barked tree tall enough for voice of holy bliss, voice of hope in destructive nation like China under CCP seizure? bring me sooner my Royal China to extinguish sickened tyrant in PRC falling day by day in fear and hatred. bring me sooner my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, and our happy journey to central China, our hometown, in gathering our relatives in lunar new year 2017. grant us free web and steady investment on our cyberspace startup. thx, dad God.

Dec 29, 2016

first dreamt Pony Ma, founder of tencent.com, lives our neighbor. when I leaving my house topless, he and his parents just returning home and caught astonished. I explained I was in active art performance after found myself fully naked. then dreamt among kids. I esp cared a little girl likely a Tibetan. then with my kid traveling in delegation of my once colleagues of QRRS cable TV station. my kid creative and rushes to package and seats for the bus when we leaving a mountain village, just like myself unsettled for tour coming. this week barely looking forward to new year end bonus from my once and long time employer, QRRS. last salary brought me ï¿¥3100, merely covered credit debt clearance monthly, 2000rmb. now I had several small bill to write off, inc tea subscription, treating neighbor kid for his lent us internet during our switching to fiber optic from PPPOE dialing, monthly cinema with woz, Taiwanese restaurant Formosa membership recharge, keep alive several debit accounts after annual fee charges, groupon showers, etc. I already had 2 local debtee with debt 1100rmb, and my web assets didn’t fully renew, esp small cost but largely rewards, like amazon prime, localphone rental. I almost can’t live without them. zhone’s 12 domains under woz, my dearest son’s title, also needs renewal which nearly costs $250. coming new year holiday also renders additional expense for dorm canteen then will out of service. I have to feed myself and treat my son in gatherings in the period. devil in dorm still pesters me, even more shamelessly and desperate. they frequently cut me offline when I enjoy passive listening or watching, ie. no my input on computer, trying to entangle me in cheap under espionage. they also deprive me off due caliber of web traffic capacity, results in badly lagging video and webpage loading loop at rate near 0 bps. they setup spare no effort to profane my solo and ruin my pleasure among cyberspace community but only reveal their ugly bloody mouth barking upon wrong tree. my dorm’s window wall leaked, loose with many ashes broken down. I invited dorm director, a young tall and beautiful woman, to inspect if it turns dangerous. but she brought 2 technicians and they claimed well around. I still don’t believe in. I want change to another dorm room well in shape and to evade the dark and poisonous souls sieged my current dorm, esp the spitting and cough pretending cow in facing neighbor. my current residential situation likely predefined before my move in, doomed to frustrate me and intimidate me into sad silence among criminal and sicken. they hated my brilliant website long enough. God, dad, bring me sooner my Royal China to vitalize my mission so far so joyful to discipline Chinese in new millennium for future gracious survival, for greater transformation of its people and culture sound and independent. bring my son and myself via airline to our hometown in 3rd journey out of anxiety. grant me independent finance to maintain our web investment and growth of presence online.
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Dec 20, 2016

dreamt detailedly about Japanese chore machine. there are 4 or 5 cabins, with different functions, like washing clothes, shower, put on clothes, sleeping, massage, etc. each item has checkout or deduction, financial log function. shower and put on clothes let me lingered a lot. clothing charges 198 Japanese Yen. I even can’t leave but trying more and more till penniless. they are all 360 rotatable, around human body inside. putting on clothes let you extending arms and shift your waist to slide into clothes with string direction. it even can be erotic. I later anxious if showering robot including smart toilet cover function. its a silent Tuesday morning. since Monday morning hoarfrost appeared on trees. salary day coming and I put on so much hopes. next month I will book airline and railway for our hometown tour, among rumors that during lunar spring festival holiday train ticket will be scarce. last Friday night my son, woz, Hope of China, ported a night in my dorm. recent credit debt crisis drove me away from caring his living, so many occasions I asked why he always put on his school uniform which is boring even in weekends, he didn’t reply. I thought his mom or the grandma would buy him more or less clothes in my hard time. but they never. in the night when we lately went to bed, I found my son slept with an old style cotton-padded trousers, likely the trousers too tight to take off, my anger roused thick. I know at the moment his sinful mother never bought him new clothes. I tried to pacify myself but can’t. so I got up and ordered 2 winter trousers and 2 pants for being stylish my son deserves. I asked my kid brother to pay instead of me, for my only reservoir in ABC bank didn’t bundle with mobile number and can’t spend online. so next morning I brought my son on way returning his mom’s house visit ABC bank and settled it. just when I preparing to pay via alipay, I found my order already paid, likely by my brother. so I additionally bought my son a pair of winter shoes on my own. I asked my son let me know next time when something needed. God, dad, what a misery my son was once! what a affirmative my role as a proud dad meaningful! dad God, never let that happen again, never deprive me from support my son’s living! bring me sooner my Royal China to sustain Chinese children, China wet and land! bring me sooner my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, to improve my son’s standard. in coming year end fulfill us with due joys and anxious free. grant us a flight tour for better means of travel and timespace.

Dec 12, 2016

dreamt of Jack Ma or alike. dreamt I was in relocation. then enrolled by a company like Alibaba.com. I found my colleagues in confidence to buy its stock shares at high price, near $21. then I felt the company boosting. then Ma came to interview us, while I busy with reading its finance report or company establishment. Ma had no place to sit down, for the only seat among my roommates occupied by me. after found that I calmly shift the stool to Ma. its a facing lake ground house, among other flat houses which now Alibaba’s warehouse and delivery center. there were lots of flies with silver coat clouding in air when I reading the document. Ma offers our department deduction rate 12.3.4.12%, which quite generous. he likes leisure and strategy, grow up from wealthy southeastern China. last weekend I brought my son, woz, Hope of China, going cinema. we watched Japanese animation “Your name”, which currently records largest box office revenue. its a touching story, reminds me of my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko. woz complained too soon after last month’s cinema. he upset by his internet unaccessible, for his mom attempting switch another ISP, replacing cable modem with fiber Optic cable while the telcom claimed currently no channel available and had to wait for next upgrade of capacity on its hardware. however, we managed to borrow neighbor’s internet to play his favorite game, “garden warfare 2”. his cold lasts 2 weeks and no recovery soon. his cough lets me anxious. I tried to hold him longer showered yesterday in hotter water even he complained burning, hoping the heat drives away more or less his cold. God, dad, in your bliss I didn’t visit hospital for more than a decade, share my fitness with my dearest son, bring him more exercises and sports trains. spare his sight from intensive android games. grant his proud dad to equip him a pair of new shoes before our hometown journey 3rd, and clothes update via his cousin’s online shop. God dad, bare us even in poverty and illness, unshakeable joy of hope and faith. bring me sooner my Royal China to uphold my Empire of China in 1109 years ahead, far more stable and concrete sovereign with neighbor Japan, and America. Grant us financial independence in coming salary. thx Dad.

Dec 8, 2016

recent unsettled matters leads me less blogging. this dawn dreamt my broken bromance with my Tibet artist friend, Bempa Chungdak. I saw in his domineer friend, another artist when we made friend in Tianjin where they studied art and craft design in Tianjin art college. in the bossy friend, Li, or my once department leader in QRRS, Sun, his house with his family, ie. his wife and only child. I waited Bempa spare his time for me, while he silently co-works with his partner, later shift to a workshop and closed the door behind. I saw their sculpture and other works, till they open the door again and returned to the lounge. Bempa still kept me muted, can’t left his pal away. so I bitterly left, knowing our bromance fades forever, likes what I have now in reality. these days coming lunar new year festival holiday enthusiasm haunted me a lot, I longing for 3rd flight with my son, woz, to our hometown. my 2 elder sisters both asked me to come in gathering to spend the largest festival among Chinese. and my youngest elder sister’s little son will hold wedding ceremony then. my sister promised offering us ¥5000 for flight and travel. my son likes air travel very much. but my credit debt will refrains us from modern and elegant voyage inc airline, according rumor on PRC’s finishing civil solicitous credit system, even the cost between airline and railway almost ignorable. my acide kid brother tentatively advised us to pick railway which is dirty, exhausting and slow, according his research there is a straight line between Qiqihar and Wuxue, our hometown. he had tried most means to hurt me, lower promised aid monthly, cheatingly evaded returning my credit cards he took away. there must be hidden iron curtain in his living sphere. even last month salary casually incresed to ¥5000, the department cashier woman attempted to coerce me into obedient and idiotly satisfied. I have more renewal online to pay while my only working credit card diluted its facility to zero. God, dad, improve me higher to see safety of my properties, shift me anxiousless from uncertainty of my unclaimed sovereign. dad God, bring me sooner my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, and my Royal China. bring us home and palace for settlement. grant us an enjoyable journey in woz’s winter vacation, and workable credit for spanning things network in our living standard.

Nov 26, 2016

first dreamt with my youngest elder sister, I saw my prelife and felt creepy. then my past dad appeared and let me clean my ear. with help of tool, I managed dug out a ball of earwax. then barely with finger I dragged 2 large slices of earwax out, each the size of main palm, like meat slice or vegetable ones. I felt glad and told my son’s mom, who also glad and our relation likely resume to its warm intimacy. I loathed to that backward and woke up, still felt left ear clearer and sharper actually. past week a bit messy for my web assets need renewal while sinking PRC desperate blocked it. thx God, my icbc credit debt right cleared and the credit card resumed to normal status, after 2 visits the largest bank in PRC to unlock strange freeze which defies several tries its clerks attempted on routine counter. still the credit quota is zero. I was suggested to deposit before paying with it, like a debit card. most needed USD account took another visit to the HQ to unlock, again with zero quota. I then tried to pay my USD shopping via paypal which can handle currency conversion automatically, but this time paypal strangely defied my logon. changed many times password I still can’t logon via vpn. so I buzzed its Beijing office and cordially resolved it. but again strangely paypal declined my payment to amazon, google, godaddy even my PRC account fund enough, and previously never fail. its just freak out. then I gave up and directly switch to alipay, largest e-payment tool in PRC, and succeeded. God, dad, unclear my future web portal will survive, but God, mercy in your fortitude of my publication based on free service like google blogspot, zoho sites, etc which is abundant. grant us 3rd flight tour to my hometown with woz, dearest son. bring me sooner my Royal China to sustain the prosperous of Asia under discipline. bring me year end bonus to enrich the celebration of new 2017.



{November 16, 2016}   sinful PRC blocking me financially.

Nov 16, 2016

first dreamt of taming lion. my once leader in QRRS, deputy CCP cadre Zhou Kaiming, or my once colleague in QRRS cable station, Sun Feng, demonstrated how to constantly padding lion’s body’s edge and hummed short syllable to pacify the large cat. then on my own I started to interactive with lion, including massage lion’s toes, even trying using Chinese needle to acupuncture to comfort it. it’s terrifying to let lion accept you, at least in dream I even in the end still felt intimidating. then dreamt with my classmates, which mixing my university and senior middle school alumni, in a march of experience. everybody has a role, like monitor, flagger, propagation, etc, while I was in charge of stamp, ie. official verification. we roamed times on the same road, for boring orthodox drives anyone away. when finally experiment lesson started in a classroom, I was chosen by the monitor to dissect something. I did but disgusted to wake up. this week I thrilled by coming unfreeze of my 2 icbc card, a debit salary card and a credit card. it turns out neither succeed. I visited icbc HQ twice but still in clouds who freezed my salary, now that icbc clerks all claimed they didn’t. its credit first time so said unlocked by the card department director and let me wait a day to use, which is a fake claim. after failed to shop online with it, I buzzed icbc hotline and told unfreeze a locked credit account takes application, so I immediately entrust him to apply for me. the agent did and asked me wait for another 3 or 5 days. but next day, Monday this week, icbc local branch called me to confirm fee of less than ï¿¥100 taken from me before resume my credit card, I admited at once. next day I tried again to shop with the credit, but after twice failures sadly found my credit quota decreased from original ï¿¥10000 to zero. I even didn’t know a credit card with 0 credit is of any usage. so I buzzed the HQ card department director, he advised to apply to icbc national HQ, while the latter refutes to its local branch. in the loophole I decided to visit the clearance center of icbc Qiqihar as the phone bank receptionist tipped, but the its office location outdated and removed. returned to local HQ, the card department director suggested me deposit in its credit before shopping via it, like using it as a debit, to win the bank over again for credit. I tried to argue with him my credibility, my cyberspace startup, but seemingly defying me credit is order from higher official and undebatable. so 2nd visit icbc Qiqihar HQ fruitless except at last the director let me buzz him next day for which freezes my salary now that ICBC didn’t. I know larger factor in PRC politburo intervenes my financial renewal of my web assets. they desperate deprive my source of basic living and business. God, dad, my throne against no one in its mightiness. grant us innocence against dirty manipulation against my Royal China’s regime. bring me sooner my girls, my offspring in our new family that lasts 1109 years ahead when China as an Empire reset. grant me resource to update my ownership over our web assets. grant us a joyful flight tour hometown in lunar new year.

Nov 12, 2016

dreamt lingering in Japan and fell in love with a Japanese girl. mostly dream scene in a room of a Japanese girl friend’s house. a little girl teaches me Japanese characters and gradually loves me. we also practice martial art. then in a sleep my penis persistently hardened and our love perceived by other Japanese boys there. they plotted to challenge me, while the girl and the little girl manage to avoid the death trap. I also dreamt rooted my smartphone via dirty cow deploit. this week busy with restore 3 os from backup against dubious intrusion and succeeded. days out and days in I endured to the day my icbc cards’ unlock. on Wednesday I first time visited icbc office to manage to unlock them, after found even credit debt cleared and automatic unlock didn’t happen. buzzed the phone bank reception desk, I was told there was a new transaction led me in debt of another $1.7 due to pay. I borrowed ï¿¥100 from dorm canteen operator and tried to clear the credit debt but failed on ATM. visited the branch office and even with help of crew I failed to unlock my salary debit card. I also was told unlocking credit card needs to be handle in local HQ. I waited and busy for 2 days. then I visited the headquater on noon yesterday. on counter debt was cleared but credit card department director told me unlock needs a day to work. and clerk granted all normal privilege on my salary card, but still failing transaction for status abnormal. I thought might be the credit debt still persistently preventing, so I returned in waiting. yesterday is shopping festival on taobao.com, Chinese largest online store. I didn’t buy anything for all pay method freezed. but I know shopping heals and makes one happier. I badly need to buy my son and my own a pair of backup electric toothbrush. my web asset renewal also due to fill. God dad, grant us credit to live in modern style. bring me my Royal China to unlock the dead trap in failing PRC and its dictative CCP. grant us 3rd flight tour in join lunar new year holiday in our hometown. grant me resource of self-relying in our publication.

Nov 7, 2016

dreamt first my passed mom help neighbor managing large herd of gooses. the gooses swept shallow water and ate lots of plants and bugs. the reward is cheerful, we can ate one or two without lose the farmer deposit base. then dreamt in open cinema with hometown folks. I brought camera and saw the possibility of being caught by regulation not allow to shoot. then before the ending, I dived into water below to bring somewhat command and my 2nd elder brother in charge of summon the folks to execute the order. last night 2nd snow in 2016 winter in Qiqihar cover the ground with thick quilt for early November. I ate rich breakfast and full with satisfaction. these weeks with online audio ebook, I learning and time elapses quick, results in less blogging. my son showed me his gaming skill ever improving when he epted made leaping progress in old game “family guy”. he more or less too idle and urges me new training or tasks for him, while I busy with preparing him live now channel on youtube as windows of American life to watch. long time waited game, “Lost planet 3” also downloaded and I tried awhile. his mom mocked me when I lingered there. but her Chinese brand Le smartTV, equipped showily by herself less than half year, wrecked and persuaded by support crew to give up normal usage but just as a monitor. so the messy poor woman consulted me how to connect the monitor to her notebook, which also mine shift to her free a year ago without any gratitude reward. I offered her a backup hdmi cable from amazon and urged her restore a functional smartTV against the product company’s evasion of responsibility, but I knew all my efforts less likely working: the cheap bitch dare to curse nobody but me, bundled her with our son. she wouldn’t bid even a different word in front of a stranger nor dominant presence, but obeys in humility. I told my son via message my analytics on his mom’s twist fantasy and insane taste, her cheap temper and behind frustration deep in her being worthless inc her career in state mandate education, while desperate longing for trading herself somewhere normally. God, dad, my life so long trapped within these unholy beasts including my son’s mom and her family. grant me and my son elegent soul mates in our world. bring me sooner my Royal China for healthy competition and wellbeing of humanity. bring me sooner the unity of Christian universe. grant us independent finance, empower me renew our web assets annually and maintain growth of our online publication.

Oct 31, 2016

dreamt confined by police in library. in winter now I usually close tight my window lest waste networked heat. but that results in late wake up in morning and missing dorm canteen breakfast. so I set alarm on my cellphone. as side effect, I usually felt sleepy after unnature woke up. this morning I at first busy with setup a migrated vision of agarten.in under domain dabbog.com, lagging internet soon drove me onto bed. In dream I brought my son, woz, haunted nowhere to find a place to dwell. then when we leaving I let woz waited me awhile I returned to library to pee. enter the hall, I found some people watching a bull head on the wall, like hunting trophy. at first I thought that’s my work, then found they were in fact unauthorized copies of my works and posted everywhere in the library, attract lots of audience. among people arrested under the bull head, one was a policeman, who listened my claim calmly but replied I wouldn’t allowed to leave in response of the demonstration. when I doubting how to inform my son in waiting about my dangerous situation, my 2nd elder sister in red clothes appeared in the library and didn’t recognize me. soon I found in the central area of the hall, my son settled there among reading crowd, including my sister. before detained or imprison I woke up from nap. past week I sometimes woke up earlier upon good news of coming unlock my salary card and ICBC credit card, now that with this month salary paid to ICBC, my credit debt to the PRC largest bank will clear. In bare waiting my kid brother’s aid to cope every month living cost, usual it will be ï¿¥700 since my brother latest visit, my younger brother buzzed in. he just brought his technician toured England. according him that cost ï¿¥30000. I then just settled site’s migration and with confidence persuaded my kid brother additional 300 helping me resolving running debts among local contacts, and bad need to replace shoes. he admitted in the session, a loan of ï¿¥1000. but later 2 days he didn’t remit me as promised. he is a man vulnerable of bitter feelings, and in the case he not evaded again. when I on bus fetching my son for monthly cinema with hard bargained loan from canteen operator woman, ï¿¥300, my brother buzzed in to check his damage on our schedule. he failed to persuade me gave up my redundant phone number. after the cinema, I check ATM and the promised aid right in its position. with it, my doubts cleared and much glad found discount area of Walmart has a nice shoes for me priced ï¿¥40. all the weekend turns brilliant with the aid and hope of affirmative. on Sunday morning I with my only ï¿¥20 bought hazelnut from street vendor near woz’s community after near a month I didn’t buy my son fruits as usual. the hazelnut rewards us in quality, large, crisp and delicious. at these moment in a sunny morning, God dad, I pray in holy my life out of uncertainty and hatred from sinful PRC dictation, stands peaceful, firm and hopeful. pray our happy gathering every occasion with adequate financial support. bring me sooner my Royal China for the prosperous China as well as eastern Asia, bring me new family with my girls and our offspring. grant me painless purchases and supportive credit and income base, esp my cyberspace startup. thx, dad God.



{October 19, 2016}   reason beneath prewar.

Oct 19, 2016

dreamt helping Japan in war. it’s a lengthy dream. at first Japan just in war and everywhere Japanese motivated and celebrated to join army. I happened to be in Japan and take part in their parties, from rooms to streets, learning their culture in ritual. then I applied to join their army and likely accepted. but it’s all in prewar, I just saw group of soldiers busy with their operations. later in a room for war donation, I gave all my money, ¥335. the staff recognized me and teased me on my donation, but I made him registered my share. the dream delayed me from breakfast, but it’s such a strange dream. yesterday I busied more than half day trying install google apps suite on my cheap Chinese smartphone yet failed. its bit boring to hack the gear. and I saw Chinese government blocked google service in one hand while buying from world wide to develop most hacking tool on the other hand to break through wall with malware, just aiming compromising its citizen’s security and private. I wouldn’t take the bait. the world is sad for the poor, even google itself increase their smartphone’s price, while its gapps suite so hard to install on Chinese product in conflict of their service. and dictation in PRC day by day risk common Chinese life and future to build war reservoir against mostly its civilian, then the US which responsible for world democracy and peace. in no way the tyrant in PRC will stop playing fire before forced to quit dangerous suicide, like spoiled son of bitch in north Korea in cult of wicked worship and dead totalitarian. God, dad, we suffered so much in welcome the world democracy, in Christian united world of just and independent. bring me sooner my Royal China to sustain progress China maintains since Ming Dynasty under my ancestor’s title, Zhu. bring me new family and offspring with my beloved girls, Asoh Yukiko, Lyu, TW. grant my son and me new flight journey, finace independent, and booming cyberspace startup, our portal online.

Oct 17, 2016

dreamt with Iron Man Elon Musk. he first introduced himself to me on a party. then I with him to his factory where I saw his rocket, which has 3 different speed empower to exceed gravity of air, earth, and sun. there are some pupils made advantage of his device and nail the window open and instant shift from one side of reality to another by climbing over the window. then saw Musk’s family, his ongoing projects including raising fund, his charm among people. this week a bit busy: I tried hard to install google apps on my cheap new smartphone. comparing India where every new smartphone should have google apps ready, I can safely assert PRC losing in coming decade by turning down its people qualified service like google and all free web and shift to its domestic poor copycat inherits sinful. PRC people lose so much in strangling with its top-down dictative enslavement. on weekend reuniting my son, woz, we proud of our time together. due to mounting surveillance over my son’s vpn, I had to spend more time just got his android applications updated from google play store. but anything elsewhere likely went smoothly. we felt triumph upon economic pinning down, dangerous circumstance around us, all by PRC dictation who more and more insanely fearful under our demonstration and turbulent PRC social unstable. we recently seldom play windows game, for downloading from steam or origin heavily lagged by China surveillance. we just cope with free web and security update. last Saturday heat system starts in service, and the dorm turns much better for dwelling. even in my solitude, dogs around in the dorm desperate entangles me. the gay in nearby room using his protend coughs as weapon and spit quite messily on corridor and disgusted me. the big dog also humiliates me with his ill surveillance: each night if I go to bed later, he will stay his door open and make alarm sounds on corridor to urge my sedative, like any of his business or concern. I pray God disappears the sin and free me from poisonous environment. God dad, bring me sooner my Royal China, bring me a tidy work and life space anxiousless. grant us free of wants, finance independence, borderless web. in coming season allow us to renew our web assets as scheduled. thx for this sunny morning, God dad.

Oct 10, 2016

dreamt of preparing my passport. this 2 weeks a bit astray: I much glad to enjoy our new gadgets and their functional. also reunited my son in celebration of PRC holiday. we went movie, visited my dorm. before his tour with his revengeful mom, I warned him about dangers in travel and hope he less with his mom’s desperate tour. the day before yesterday on way returning to my dorm, there was almost an accident: a motorist hit me and crashed my phablet in my notebook bag. thanks God, I was intact. then I ordered a replacement from taobao.com. this dawn I dreamt a lot about applying Unite State’s passport. It likely links to my elder sister’s recent call in which she let me know my nephew’s wedding near lunar new year and invited us free flight to join them. at first I gladly admitted, then found my dearest sister, 3rd elder sister, didn’t really invite us. what’s more, my younger brother likely covertly plotted framing us in humiliation for we are currently too poor. so I told my son we might rebuff it. Then holy spirit affirms me the hometown journey, our 3rd flight tour. in dream I first don’t know how to compose application, only puzzled in wording of causes. then gradually I see the categories of travel intention, like business information, visiting friend, tourism, etc. then saw in dream I chose BIX or something stands for business information exchange as my reason for the passport, and lots of uncertainty of the audit outcome. I pee once then dreamt again the applying process. in the end my senior middle school alumnus, Chao Lixin, who aided me get my first domain, be21zh.org, and a scholar in US since his Phd, and Wujiang, my Nankai Univ alumnus now a professor in US, dropped me a visit. the former kindly check my application and offer some tips, while the latter look through my form. I finally got insight the meaning of categories of travel causes, and saw large flow Chinese in PRC moving cross border. I saw what happening in American embassy in China and their handling of passport application. God, my life can be confined by mainland of PRC, but grant my son and my other offspring free migration among Christian united one world. bring woz to peaceful nation before PRC war bubble burst out. bring me sooner my Royal China to bring peace onto the eastern Asia. grant me financial independence and complete annual renewal of all my domain and hosting plan. grant woz his 4th flight to his grandpa’s hometown and merry union with his cousins there. thx, dad, in God’s mercy.

Sep 30, 2016

dreamt relocated within QRRS. in dawn dream I was assigned by my once and long time employer, QRRS, again and work for its labor union. I was called by the director, who told me my routine before read his newspaper. I then interviewed by some other leaders in the department. most of my job is dispatching newspaper, and at first I missed and the director asking my sending his desk. then I discussed him about digitalization of those subscribed newspaper for available for all staff at same time in additional searchable feature. later dreamt detailedly gaming, in which we drive and fly through all scenes of urgent flee before destroy all enemies blocking. coming PRC national day holiday I previously arranged my son going cinema with me, then shopping Walmart and finally ported a night in my dorm. but his mom, the cheap small woman, again will bring my son in tourism. the relentless bitch desperately compete with me by offering my son evil and destructive gift like travel. she never shared her tuition earnings while occupied the house all time and does no chores when we lived together. she didn’t earn much from her jobs so cheap but she never stop attempting won my son from me with her poisonous offer. Dad, God, my son in many cases stupidly trying annoying me after received his mom’s stupid gift like tourism by ignoring my message via digital gadgets I equipped him in last years. Dad God, free him from his mom’s stupid and stubborn like beast. he and his mom both do no hurt me by that mean behavior substantially but just make me sad. in my life blessed, I saw so many poor quality persons including my siblings, women around me. God dad, I just need a considerate partner so long, without cheating, without silent war, without psycho problem. why I so hard to win world in my wise and faith unbeatable? God, dad, bring me sooner my Royal China to family me. bring my girls, Asoh Yukiko, girl TW, girl LYU, to soothe my pains among embarrassing qualified poor people. grant me financial independence, warm me and embed me with firmer holy commitment. thx dad!



Sep 19, 2016

I was likely in tourism to Taipei. when we lined up in front of parliament hall, I bored and scratched pocket, then finger nails drag out a toll of large amount old era bills hidden. my neighbor schoolmates found at once and yelled. I evaded chase and made sure the amount is large. I or schoolmates commented: in communism anything you found will be confiscated, or seized by larger organization and only in lawful nation your findings belongs to u. then in the monitor and a girl schoolmate’s house in Taipei they invited me. her mother preparing meal for us. the monitor persuaded me honestly to check the ancient bill again and try to save in bank. when I heading to bank accordingly, the monitor and the girl trying to accompany me. its about 5am, after noted the dream I returned to bed. dreamt jogging on road near qrrs, my once and long time employer. met many foxes running around, they didn’t attack even fearsome. then more flying mouse, flying crane or flying pig or goose, with their baby under their belly in air. then in the girl schoolmate’s house I busy writing down my dream. her mother blamed me not helping her clean house. I told her blogging and shift away to write on a paper pens holder. this 2 weeks mostly fought GFW for my son’s access English web. his internet via vpn insanely blocked. I sometimes a full morning tried all means to penetrate the iron curtain, just aiming bring my son amazon prime video, among which lots of qualified kid English TV programs. I also prepared myself an alternative os for secure operation, android-x86. like in cold war I frequently felt insecure against government backed hacking in sinking PRC, world largest and last hooligan. this weeks mostly raining. the rain drop is the most in my 25 years in northeastern China. I enjoy the rhythm so much! also in the rain I picked my son to dine out while his mom arranged a boy schoolmate of my son visited their house. my son accompanied the boy schoolmate till saw him off. our shoes both sucked by water but fortunately its no cold. we ate fish but woz ate less. returned to dorm, I sensed my son’s lose in my unable to prepare him friendship, career, payment or reward like I prepared him tablet, cellphone or smart watch. I sensed his loneliness and uncertainty ahead, while I demanding upon his focus. next morning I resumed more or less courage, known that I can’t cover my son his life but God does. I sang in my workload to reinstall his dell notebook os. in dining out I told him I will do my best and likest as usual. he admitted. last day of lunar Mid-Autumn holiday he asked to dine in dicos, after near half year absence since our debt crisis. God dad, grant us financial independence. bring me sooner my Royal China to support my life and family. bring me my Empire peaceful for glory of the Son. free me from prison and notorious of debt trap. in the rainy Autumn shed more sunshine to warm my bed. thx, dad God.

Sep 3, 2016

dreamt of my relocation. last night the rain rhythm was one of the most beautiful moment in my life. this morning I felt sleepy and dreamt of in my hometown with my teenage friend, Fang, a professor now in my crisis of jobless. I saw myself rode a bike on mountainous road to visit Fang’s village, where he suggested I trying to find a job in City Huangshi, means yellow stone, where he once worked there. I said I would be a driver then seek promotion to office work, refuted his suggestion of straightly more elegant job he will help. my son and his mom arrived before my departure. my son is very smart and touchingly attached to me. we tried our best to farewell with hope of survive and larger grace. its unclear why there was no bitterness in dream with son’s mom. the rain lasted for more than 2 days, longest ever in my impression of Qiqihar where 25 years spent for holy commitment and glory before sticking out. this week I saw how beautiful a sound system can be. the new bluetooth speaker works independent with its own os, battery. I can rely it to entertain myself out of computer and online. harness my listening I will be less bored with too much reading online. in this aim, I bought a google chromecast audio yesterday for audio ebook and podcast in Chinese websites, during credit debt crisis which weighted my heart. I even envision I will listen some online university courses like accounting, economics, statistics, etc. God, dad, I never regret for what I spent in last 2 years by my credit card, every hardware substantially improve my living standard. grant us new gears update current times and meaningful for future we share with the world. bring me sooner my Royal China to update the broken infrastructure under evil communism administrative abusing absent Lordship in my ancestor’s title. bring me sooner my new family with my Queens and offspring. thx for the sunshine upon my visit my son 2 hours later.

Aug 31, 2016

a laughable dream. in dawn dream in my hometown while I busy with my stuff, my nephews, a dear and a farer relative, watching TV quiz program. then they won prize of ï¿¥70,000. that’s great but I’m not moved and continue my work. then the TV program producer woman from Shanghai visited with my passed mother’s companion. soon I got known their plan, they want reward me for my higher education background for promoting their program’s popularity, instead of the 2 kids. before I reply I woke up. last night I busy lately around 0pm till music library all settled for my new bluetooth speaker. I previously backup quite some music library but till got some new albums from domestic online shared space I felt satisfied. yesterday PRC broke down my vpn just before I setup the new gadget for google music. I contacted support crew of vpn but yet figure out what the problem was. that proves my doubt that GFW still have control upon my vpn as well as internet which among every level from root to endpoint in their manipulation. last week my son brought by his mom who hated and challenged me quite long, to tourism to far northeastern seashore now under Russian control. the small woman tentatively denied informing me their destiny, and let down my son’s mobile as usual. in the 7 days esp lately around Saturday, now that dorm canteen operator held their sister’s wedding ceremony and out of service, and I had only ï¿¥30 in pocket, I missed my son very much and unable to reach him in air. I felt the gap son’s mom tentative torn up between me and my son under her custody. I felt the despise my son shown influenced by his sinful mom. in the night I thought through if I live without my son’s visit and fight for new family on my own from scratch again, and felt quite ready. but next day after I buzzed my son as holy lets, after we reunited and known their tour in neighbor city across border, I forgive their bigot. I brought my son to cinema and dined out after that. God arranges a bonus from QRRS, my once and long time employer, ï¿¥500. I returned remnant of debt for buying woz sony sw2, recharge restaurant subscription of Formosa pie. the rest I shifted to son’s mom or the grandma for laundry for me, first time in half year since the credit crisis and unable to pay my support for son’s living cost. its as glad as usual weekend reunion except on Monday. returned to dorm I waiting for my dear sound entertainment gadget so hard. setup like a breeze, then amazing workable arrives. while google music unavailable in PRC at the moment, I listened music archives all day. isn’t it a wonderful world of innovative tools?
God dad, I’m so satisfied by your dome. bring me sooner my Royal China to deserve the ever fresh new world. rid me off debt and embrace the brave new world. grant me new family with my girls and steers my vested kingdom to new millennium to be more prosperous and peaceful.

Aug 23, 2016

dreamt of just graduated. in dawn dream I gathered with schoolmates before leaving for society. I commented after philosophy major we do understand better abstract noun and use it better. I again didn’t attend graduate exam and gave up applying my certificate of bachelor. after almost all other schoolmates left I stayed with my beloved girl to farewell the dean office. I holding my girl who will stay in Tianjin, where her hometown and work in petroleum industry, deeply and she accepted with tendering. I will make living with what I have except scholar proof. when the office administrator woman saw our way off, she told me anytime when I need my certificate, I can return to her and she will help. in dream my university schoolmates mingled with senior middle schoolmates. for example, Zhang Chongfu, my Nankai alumni who loaned me ï¿¥2000 back to about 2008 appears, but the girl accepts me as my girlfriend, likely my senoir middle schoolmate Luo Hui. its really touching for after so long we didn’t express love each other in campus but still she accepts me at once after I caress her, and we mean sincere in our first social occupation for living together and support each other. and our schoolmates, the faculties so kind. its a bright morning now. my son again brought by his relentless mother into tourism. the woman copy my way of life and to my son, enjoys current life without spares. previously she just deposit and grab any changes into her wallet. but now she desperate to spend off before our son’s future expenditure in growth. is it her conspiracy or suicide in hatred, I don’t know, but she lost base of trust and stability. my son visited my dorm last Friday. with borrowed ï¿¥300 we well treated. we tried order our dinner as planned for a long time and ate in dorm first time. my son played video game and watched video online while I busy with sorting my corporate email accounts and sharing them among zhone google apps users. next morning I continued the remnant of the task, after the night VPN unstable and I couldn’t synchronize my work online. before we left for KFC breakfast my son still played awhile video game and we enjoy his success through a checkpoint after hard battles against PLA. Sunday we did haircut, where I talked political VIPs among surprised other customers there. in his mom’s house I accompanied him till his mom returned near 6pm. we gamed, jogged outside in sunset and buy ice cream for his refrigerator. returned to dorm the developer of our bought app, reply messenger for sw2, replied us on twitter. so nice! dad God, this month my salary improves to ï¿¥2500, pl maintain the increasing and alleviate my credit debt step by step. bring me sooner my Royal China to cater to our land harvest. bring me closer to girls I longing so long. engage me with my cyber startup and my tender love with my girls.



{August 18, 2016}   best dream in decade.

Aug 18, 2016

dreamt in a tour returning home. met my Tibet artist friend Benba Chungdak. he collects painting job on street. then with him to campus where his dorm hided his paintings. then I saw my 2 wives, a Taiwan girl already with my son, and Asoh Yukiko who gracious as usual. they trifled a small bit upon my love among them, and I blamed my son’s mom’s improper grudge with Asoh. I’m so glad to see Asoh, who is so beautiful and cordial forever. they likely disputed with persimmon cakes and I brought the gift more for them. they waited for me too long together in the campus. my once mentor in Nankai Univ, a woman in family name Young, led me to where I saw my family. its such a proud and relief, esp my Queens still so beautiful, I caress Asoh and calmed down my son’s mom, so pleasant that I woke up at once. napped again found I carried 2 stone stamps to evaluate. the woman auditor identified my own product and another inherited. she priced the old one as ¥10,000 and encouraged me practize more on sculpture for true value. its so nice dreams that I would rather not to talk any other topics now. dad, God, I had lived without woman for nearly 10 years. grant me my beloved girls, esp Asoh Yukiko, girl TW, to complete my life long desire of beauty. bring me sooner my Royal China to maintain Majesty, Mighty for beauty. grant me finance independence and offspring prosperous.

Aug 14, 2016

dreamt first about imperial army of English, France, Germany. I was with british army which I reckon best disciplined and survived world monarchy crisis back to World War I. then dreamt with my cousin from his village. on way passing a cave I found a tortoise in its lair and caught it. I blamed escorts didn’t bring pincer with us. then in a factory I cooperated on crane with my once colleagues, a man and a woman, trying protect 2 objects while moving other subjects. after the practise I will publish a book. this morning I felt sleepy. last Friday I in holy affirmative visited my son who muted my instant message, against risk of being cursed by his insane mom, a small bitch. then found my son never implement our new router vpn app. I demonstrated him again. during the process, local cop buzzed in, saying ccb bank entreated the police station to urge me clear my credit debt, in the courtesy of neighborhood of their office buildings. returned to QRRS dorm, my 2nd elder sister called. she let me know my kid brother’s recent visit was trusted by my other sibling in hometown, and blamed him didn’t complete the voyage. I told her my kid brother’s wrong perception upon cheating bank, or escapage of debt, claiming PRC’s bank system all follows modern western bank’s practice, as corporate activity, no violence no cheating once common phenomenon in old Chinese dynasties. I told her and later my kid brother bank’s penalty acceleration will soon surplus my paying back speed with my poor salary, making my debt ever-increasing. then she suggested helping me to pay back once for all. I knew how poor they are but still hopeful upon resolving my credit crisis, as holy hints. yesterday I visited my son earlier than usual after persuading him install a reply message app on his smartwatch after he complained no way to reply directly on it. his mom soon brought him to go cinema after we just test out receiving social networks’ im while sending function yet problematic. God, help us get what we want. break barrage against our universal messaging service. grant me financial independence before it went worse. dad God, bring me sooner my Royal China to remove the sinking nightmare of PRC aimlessness but devastation. bring me new family and sound business in buffeting PRC prewar.

Aug 11, 2016

this week very busy with innovate our internet borderless access by install router app. I visited my son on Monday to settle it against the bitch, his mom’s curse. but she in fact absent. according my son his mom in a 3 days tour out. we indeed enjoy more broader freedom online. my son more or less agreed with me the endeavor after we called it a day and watched Amazon video together with his pad game. last Saturday I taught him a lesson when I found he didn’t respect my gift, his new Sony SmartWatch, and ditched aside. I blamed him wrong judge upon quality of people and thing. later we reconciled in cause of his naive. since left him I busy with fine tune my website template for 2 days, adding page break into all articles to make homepage more tidy with summaries, more compelling in versatile layout, esp columns. last night after fixed chrome missing flash plugin and doesn’t play video, after enjoyed the peace of watching my favorite TV drama, I deeply missing my son, doubting why he turned off so long, ignored my instant message. lately around 9:30pm I buzzed him but he likely slept. this morning I felt sleepy again after breakfast, I tried to immerse in reading and watching but failed. in nap I dreamt I cooking some delicacy in a niche with hotpot, the mood likely in my hometown and my old family, except I am the husband and father. I waited and waited while my son or my concerned more or less impatient. when I ready to open beer, I in urgency to poo but can’t help shit in my pant. I intended to replace my under clothes in toilet room by myself but at once woke up. God, dad, I do my best to improve our living environment. even it likely not in my son’s interest but I inspired to do it on my own. dad, what’s wrong in my son’s silence upon my efforts to equip him? Dad God, what’s my futile to bring about improvement in my son’s living standard? or is it just the sinful little woman’s curse and reckless blockage? grant me good stay with my son, in my means catering to him. bring me sooner my Royal China to fix the uncertainty in unity my son, Hope of China, God of Universe. bring us home and voyage with my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko. engage me with my cyberspace startup, and traffic meaningful to our web presence. thx, Father.

Aug 1, 2016

first dreamt my passed parents. then dreamt as secretary of chief scriptwriter of CCTV, PRC’s official TV station. we slept on a giant bed with lots of colleagues, like scene of Kanye West’s “Famous” MTV, reviewed lots of grand history, taiga drama, masterpiece episode, all kind of popular TV programs created from nothing, including the most important, annual lunar new year eve party show. we help or direct lots of famous theme commentary or documentary series, for we not only scholar but all familiared each other to team up. we can check in without ticket anytime. then my boss shitted some on bed and blamed me as scapegoat. all people on bed laughed and didn’t probe real trouble maker any more. last week we settled woz’s new Sony smart watch 2. he installed most on his own, but while he too busy to logon facebook, twitter, gmail account, I did instead when he is away for his lesson in my Friday visit with inform of his ongoing in setup. that’s more or less regret for I promised him he handle the new gadget himself, for the sake of technological savvy. the celebration ends with Japanese cuisine lunch he preferred, but he didn’t eat much, in fact quite few. and after shower later, he felt exhausted and ate less fruits, too. I also felt sorry mingling his new gear, so I picked video games in 2 weekends. my son joined me sooner, fought through soon in “Bioshock: infinite” till complete, and proud progress in “L.A Noir”. he needs more pals to play with, while I babbled too much for maintain Royal linkage. in the week bankcomm clearance crew, I mean male dog, lost patience and trying abuse me with my asylum record. the dog even buzzed my kid brother claiming my mental status unstable, but in fact it totally clueless and just aiming provoking my frustration or anger. God dad, release my son’s potential to self-rely, guide him meanings in normal life. bring me sooner my Royal China to integrate Chinese youth’s future commitment with Empire of China in 1109 years ahead. straighten holy road toward sanity and strength. grant us finance independence, my startup’s success as voice of Royal China and merit of democratic China.



{July 25, 2016}   new pray for site growth.

Jul 25, 2016

dreamt communist cadres’ secret entertainment. in my kid brother’s last visit, I led him visited QRRS stadium where once open now furnished lavishly and close to communist cadres, who mostly enjoy sports, party, so on at cost of state budget. I dreamt in a villa 2 mistress, young, beautiful, beast alike entertain their customers, cadres of state owned enterprise. then dreamt in the villa one of founders of PRC, Mao Zedong, enjoying talk with media. I asked after all condemns, triumphs after hard time against ruling party of China, nationalist party, if their is any thanks or obligation to the land and people himself belongs to. He likely prone to refute it before I wake up. these weeks especially busy with monetize my website, adding more amazon ads after max google ads display on my portal sites. I also tried to gain an virtual American debit card through payoneer, an international payment tool. I previously hope I can use it to collect my google adsense earnings and pay my web site cost without need google remits to domestic bank, which charged dearly and delayed heavily by lots of customs procedures. but unfortunately it support Amazon association ad system but incompatible with google’s. what a pity! this month I also inspired by my son, woz’s affection on his watch his mom bought him, cheap one and of poor quality. I felt time for my equipping him a smart watch. so I searched online store like amazon, taobao, and chose a Japanese product, Sony smartwatch 2. for my e-payment domestic as well as digital social web locked down in my credit crisis, I borrowed ¥500 from my acquaintance, a glasses vendor migrate from neighbor province of my hometown, Jiangxi Prov, central China. God, dad, grant us a durable and elegant product we bought discount. cheer up my son and myself with new purchase. this week I felt tired of monetizing my web publish, bless me normal altitude to build up my sites steadily. grant these sites web traffic ever increasing. bring me sooner my Royal China to sustain people’s enthusiasm once appeared in PRC revolution, which faked by sinful Atheism. renew eastern Asia with old dream of unity and glory.

Jul 18, 2016

dreamt I as a heir of catholic in latin America, raised by 2nd grand bishop. the highest rank bishop, or pope, more or less jealous and put me into attest. on way to my hometown, my girlfriend and me try the best to respect the pope and cared him individually, also trying settle my heir status. then in my hometown village zhudajiu, my 2nd brother summons his pals to assign agenda. before the outcome of competition I woke up. then dreamt install entertainment system for my son woz. his aunt, my 2nd elder sister, gossips about show business of Chinese politicians, saying the old ruling elite is official acting band, while recent politburo is secondary, for the old one literally does play and practise more. Yesterday we first time recharged our Formosa, a Taiwan restaurant franchise, membership with aid from my kid brother’s loan, since credit crisis. we ate a richer meal there before weekly shower. we also bought extra fruits. my son was soon brought by his mom to his music lesson, and I waited for more than 3 hours, updating his windows, tried video games, till found the sinful small woman tentatively delayed my son and detained him in downtown dining out, prevented us uniting. the bitch revengeful even in path of decease or dissolve. returned to dorm, near dusk, bankcomm clerk buzzed again, trying to launch a surveillance chat. the gay alike communication soon put aside by me and cut off after several minutes later not listening but found still held on air by the bank office. PRC surveillance tried hard to profane me with lame ducks, that’s well perceived tactics. they these days frequently evalue brutal violence against me as last resort to cohere me into silent dead landscape the dictator sickly addictive to. God, dad, baptize me before physical abuse, free me from trap of prison. bring me sooner my Royal China to sustain the national pride after my ancestor. bring my new family in new millennium ahead. boost my startup to self-rely.

Jul 15, 2016

Dreamt with my artist friend. His work, a fine paintings just awarded, a scene of shallow space with glitter highlights. I told him my impression of its success, he listened. Then I followed him walked through his life space, ie. school, dorm, etc. he searches for something in different locations, some quite disgustingly messy and dirty. 2 children of his school faculties played in one scene, on a large stone cave and adjacent platform. When I tried hard to climb down from the stone platform to leave with my artist friend, I woke up. These days monetizing my website comes to a end, all job done, even amazon ads quite some cases doesn’t show. I tried to reach help of amazon support but strange errors blocked my posting my problem on its discuss board. I quit with doubts that China surveillance interfered. This week can’t be better with tension relieved by kid brother’s financial help. In months I can again offered a blind man and a mid-aged farmer woman some changes for charity. I also renew subscription of snack on dorm gate vendor. I also renew subscription in a Taiwanese restaurant, Formosa Pie, for weekend reunion with my son. Its badly urgent for all groupon of dining out ran out. In a word, our weekends saved. Bankcomm clearance crew daily buzzed in but they more and more ran out of respect and patience. They abused their privilege to contact client and I will more shut off conversation with the hostile staff. I also tried to reach out on twitter and kickstarter ( https://www.kickstarter.com/projects/gotrus/746383975/share ) to celebrities like Warren Buffet, Musk Elon, Jeff bezos for help surviving my website under sinking PRC’s strangle and debt trap. God, dad, isn’t my business booming? Bring my Royal China to family my girls and offspring, support my new family with base of my website in coming decades. Dad, God, I see clearly space of development of my enterprise, or my Empire of China reset for 1109 years ahead.

Jul 13, 2016

since sinking PRC’s economic free fall in March has been more than a season, my salary card token over by credit administrative authority for near 2 months. I delayed support my son’s living cost and his university deposit plan, his mom’s laundry fee for my weekly shower. QRRS dorm canteen operator woman at first allowed loaning me 2nd month for boarding, but lately shown despise and impatience. bankcomm clearance crew buzzed in daily urging to pay back credit deficit. but these all went unnoticed in my heat to mobilize my website for gains. I informed my hometown relatives my unbalanced situation when my salary almost freezed, they forward helping need to my kid brother who operating a small workshop in southern China and with more running cashes. but my kid brother is a stubborn and arrogant young man. he reckons my financial problem cureless and untrustworthy. we exchanged some bitter words then cut off. till QRRS dorm canteen operator urged me to return their boarding loan for runing shortage, I can barely live under loans and peace. nearby acquaintance like the canteen operator poses a rather harsher threat for my living, for dog rampant northeastern China breeds lots of hate and violence. so I visited my once workplace, QRRS corporate culture department. the director got my mobile number after acknowledged my dangerous situation, promised informing me if his leader board, QRRS HQ, extends me a solution. but the call back never happens. I lives in silent begging meal several days in canteen who urged me 3 more times. then on Sunday Jul 10, 2016, my kid brother flash appeared on my door. he likely informed my son’s mom’s family, except me in his flight tour here. he brought a solution including pay back canteen loan ¥2900 immediately, pay my boarding remote from now on via his wechat, a Chinese mainstream social tool, connected with canteen operator, a debit card of his account shifting to me and cashable ¥1000/monthly. the resolution so charming all the afternoon I felt dizzy, after my kid brother asked my escort to visit my workplace and noded some of my colleagues or cadres of QRRS. he is surely ambitious with his pay power. next day I visited my son who just brought by his mom’s school delegation toured neighbor province resort. I withdrawn ¥500 from my brother’s card and treated my son his favorite Islamic beef after shower. returned to dorm, near dusk, my brother dropped my dorm and invited me to dine out with him. he is showy even in an alien city, which in my view reckless. and more we discussed our world view and political faith, more we dispute and repulsive each other. on taxi back his hotel, we hardly thankful even the healing resolution pack. after 2 moths’ delay, I don’t know if he realizes who is right when crisis aroused and proper loan in time I suggested presight, against stalemate bank penalty now mounts to near ¥900/month.
God, dad, I’m no doubt vested kingdom of China of 1109 years ahead under the Son, my title. but can’t our sibling share more common views on our ancestor’s land? God, dad I now saw promised salvage peacefully in position. isn’t it a cause for celebration in the summer? thx, dad, God, all these beautiful sunshine and breeze among tension and relief.
here photo of his last night dinner. for he arrogantly unfriended camera, his photo seemingly slightly ugly.
my kid brother's last night dinner in Qiqihar with a helping financial pack. for he arrogantly unfriended cameraman, his photo seemingly slightly ugly.
my kid brother’s last night dinner in Qiqihar with a helping financial pack. for he arrogantly despised cameraman, his photo seemingly slightly ugly. #God #AsohYukiko #dream #life #love



{July 8, 2016}   sure thing among debt.

Jul 8, 2016

dreamt to marry a minor tribe girl. the girl’s family likely lives in mountainous southwestern China. according to their custom, first daughter will never marry but as heiress of family and move to second daughter’s marriage as escort. I’m happy with the marriage and in the eve of wedding ceremony I talked with my brother-in-law near a campfire while eating. I let him not to allow fire wind licks my woollen shirt while I sat closely around the fire. then my past dad passed away, he unhappy my casual but insecure way near fire. he gazed me with anger then I woke up. my fiance is the second daughter of the family which has 3 daughters. and she is likely tall, thin and beautiful. yesterday bankcomm again buzzed in and talked detailedly about my family, my finance. she got my son’s mom’s, and my kid brother’s mobile number. the dorm canteen operator also inquired how is their loan of boarding and urged they in short of cash. in the night I busy with fix typo among my sites on my wiki page. after settled it time to bed. I surfed awhile then went to bed. on bed I deeply frustrated by urged by nearby acquaintance. the operator family long time has a different tradition or culture I reckon sinful from mine. they not only hurry me to pay back their loan but also attempted blocking my boarding there. without boarding and with my frozen salary by PRC’s credit administration, I will starve. the once workplace, QRRS, likely adopted a stance not to intervene. my financial crisis roots in poor salary which below ¥2000 decades. my living expense is the amount and bank commision now rises to near that amount again. God, dad, where is the way to survive the adversity the sinking PRC, the theft of my vested Empire of China, setup? how to fund my startup for China democracy and Royal of China? dad God, help me in the darkened nightmare and threatened living. bring me my Royal China, my always gospel, my crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, to shine over my troubled pool of finance. bring me peace in building up my kingdom of plenty and prosperous miles after miles. after all God, dad, I in faith of you and vow to follow the glorious path on the soverein in eastern Asia.

Jul 5, 2016

in dawn dream I with my son, woz, made a huge package each under PRC’s surveillance against adversity. woz’s even bigger than mine. last Friday the dorm canteen operator demanded me returning their loan of boarding for they in short of cash. I have no way but my work place to seek last help. so I visited my once department leader, now assistant manager of QRRS, and discussed my unbalanced situation. he asked for my mobile and promised informing me if his leader board has any solution extends to me. returned to dorm, bankcomm clerk woman buzzed in. I talked about my housing public fund which intact in accumulation so far. I suggested her to elaborate that source with my workplace leader. last Saturday afternoon I brought my son watched “Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles: Out of the Shadows (2016)” and we both satisfied. his mom tentatively arranged my son’s schedule too pushy to allow us dwelling more together. my son’s mobile, a nexus, very specifically target hacked, disabled vpn, google play store and revealed messenger. I also lost temper upon my son’s loose management over security. but God dad, isn’t they can’t afford their losing and barked louder now to upset us? the sinking PRC surveillance, the dog system, from start to end is a failure. they boast their triumph, times and times targeted my son’s computers, they in fact chasing its own tail like mad dog. God, dad, I was aging and hostile in my circumstance alerts me of hidden dangers or revenge of nobody. God, dad, I wouldn’t exit with regret. for glory of Son I will bring about, for Empire of China reset ahead of 1109 years, I will stride to explore till shiny holy paved. dad God, grant me freedom of financial independence. bring me my Royal China to tip turn the sinking PRC dictation , and freaky atheism worship now insaner and mortaler. let my cyber startup booms.

Jun 27, 2016

Dreamt of 2nd son of my 2nd brother sick, his brain grows out of skull. Then dreamt bank clearance clerk and cops visited my house, scan my documents, tool box, all stuff about my entrepreneur. My once workplace, QRRS cable TV branch, its most crews gathered likely with subpoena. Some of them suggested me handover my most recent and cherished tool box. I admit and suggested the searching clerk about the toolbox but found the toolbox missing. Then I out of rage and burst in angers. Its raining and likely in my hometown village, Zhudajiu. I also during the investigation doubting add a TOS, Term of Service onto my websites from template my site’s dynamic backend web app offers. My nephew appears again trying to calm me, with his illness. Last weekend bankcomm.com clearance clerk informed me 3 times before shift my case to its law enforcement department after I admit unable to pay after 3 months. They tried best to prevent it by persuading me to gather the amount, about ¥3000, to hand in time. But I really sick to beg my alumni, my relatives again after these 3 months my finance fell in trouble and lots of survival clinch bank devised. The bankcomm soon buzzed my relatives, including my 3rd elder sister then forward to kid brother, a foolish and mean man with his startup, and my son woz. I got the phone to my son on the bus to dine out after shower. I debated my situation with the clerk woman and still felt innocent and of integrity. My son dislikes my trouble and urged me leave him alone soon after we returned to his mom’s house, where we ate melon with newly handover fruit subscription barely from my kid brother’s just arrived loan, ¥300 in addition ¥100 cellphone recharge, with which woz’s glasses also replaced as planned years ago and his mom with her mom refused to loan 400rmb even guaranteed by woz’s lunar new year’s received gift money ¥900 from my old family hometown took over by the bitch at once after our 2nd flight tour to southern China in Feb 2016, and woz’s alipay leftover recent years I gifted him but frozen temporarily by PRC policy over my credit crisis, resulted in burst of anger and hate each sides. In dorm the possible encountering cops and law enforcement staff from bank haunted my mind while I started reading. Later I jogged as usual. This morning I napped all the morning, for last night my son, woz ported a night in my dorm and too small bed let me lack of sleep. Dad God, we have faith in your salvage after all. Grant me independent finance and focus in my cyberspace startup. Bring me sooner my Royal China to sustain the bright future of young Chinese, as well as due respect of adults in sinking PRC. Thx for the holy affirmative and sunny summer sky since yesterday.

Jun 25, 2016

dreamt of uncle passed in my teenage. Its a sunny morning, but in dawn dream I first time dreamt my dad’s youngest brother who deceased in his 40 or 50s’. my dad’s eldest brother, a long time admirer of my dad’s marriage and family together even we were poorer, also appeared in the village, ie outside of uncle’s house. they entrusted me to find their workplace, a factory. I tried to digitalize manually drawn map, and also google map and searched both for location of their work unit and their concerned persons. its a bit weird for I never dreamt my uncle before. but God, dad, I in holy didn’t believe in ghost. this morning my salary officially freezed. I have to live with bare hands. the canteen didn’t show refusal but reserved. I will have to borrow to pay mobile fee. my weekends reunion with my son will only support one meal in 2 days, and the only meal on Sunday will also endangered. meanwhile my world web access turns stable after 3 or more showily hackings from PRC dictative curtain. dad God, the credit crisis really draining me, buffet my mood of living happy. I took challenge, took investment, took entrepreneur in recent years, but I now eagerer to land safely and home. dad, God, bring me sooner my Royal China to guard my family and offspring, guarant Chinese to independent and China from totally collapse, like Mideastern Arab’s wasteland. grant me freedom of financial independence, grant my Empire glory of plenty to be creative and magnitude social factors coexist and supportive.



Jun 20, 2016

dreamt in our family’s cabin. we had a party, inc my niece and guest girls. then a guy spied us and joined our shuttercock game. we together beat the guy till he confessed his role. its late night, then we found in another room of the cabin, my niece lonely slept and fears darkness. then we sorry and visited her as companions. we competed with poems, including my nephews, for the peaceful night. yesterday I had good time with my son. since last week I warned him pedophobia he now loathed to hear my babbles, for my warn likely put his mightiness in constrain. but he is so selfless and soon accepted my companion again. I fed him with his favorite Chinese franchise restaurant, Seejoys dunplings, where I only have less than ¥50 in purse and constantly afraid of can’t pay our bill there. next day, Sunday we dined Japanese cuisine whose bill paid by our subscription digitally. after shower I escorted him all the afternoon now that his mom not at home, till the grandma prepared supper. I complained boring after we tried video games and waiting for downloading. then I massaged woz, whose neck and back under heavy usage in his frequent android gaming and my concern to keep its resilient. my son more or less enjoys it. after that I tried ice bag we recently ordered online for cooling our legacy game notebook and works perfect, we applied it on woz’s neck, head. later he wrote awhile his homework and I continued trying to sell the ice treatment. after returned to dorm, I busy restored my os which damaged by China surveillance, first time it tentatively disabled my vpn and forced me rebuilding it. the iron curtain previously constantly broke in but maintained my world web accessible. but they never gave up blocking my son browsing western video websites. God, dad, grant my son richer entertainment, esp overseas movies and TVs. forever win us broader access of world democracy and its media, esp google and twitter, etc, to ensure our source of sound news and judgement. help me cope my credit crisis with triumph, help my cyberspace startup succeeds.

Jun 18, 2016

yesterday dreamt snakes everywhere around me. this dawn dreamt borrow books from my 2nd elder brother and sister. then found in a month I will graduate and without job. so I go to Lhasa to work. but there my nephew, ie. first son of my 2nd elder sister and his son and other relatives electronic sucked and lots of panic, including some of evilous students I found from those paid my son’s mom to receive her tuition at her house when I visited son. at last I tried to rescue my relatives and entered the electrified room, consulted nearby kids about safe spots, jumped and trying to reach lever to cut down leaking power then woke up. this week a bit busy, upgrading my son’s intel nuc with new and larger ssd bought by my supportive credit card from PSBC even in credit crisis. China surveillance heavily attacked me when I prepare clean OS and backup on it. they desperate broke the minipc and blocked my son from enjoy American movies and videos through VPN I prepared. each time within a week after my clean built they ruin the encrypted tunnel, make youtube and amazon video inaccessible. and this month my once and long time employer, QRRS, likely busier with orders. my purse almost empty but now new salary would improve it and better. credit card issuer bank buzzed but now we are more polite, except PSBC didn’t call in so far, on air. and some of them threatened shift me to its law enforcement department but yet happened. but the dorm canteen operator who lent me boarding before my promised pay, turns complainful. last night a heavy rain loudly sang when I bought dine out groupon by PSBC credit online. its just so blessing, so I dropped my son a phone even I doubt if its too late around 9pm. but he is agile to pick the phone, as holy affirmed. this noon I will reunite him in champion of new availability of entertainment. God, dad, bring me sooner my Royal China to host my family. bring lifestyle we enjoyed so far. help me alleviate credit crisis in this month salary. grant us happy weekends every week.

Jun 10, 2016

dreamt in campus with my Nankai Univ alumni again in practice lesson. I lost track when team launched. on half way I met some kids, I rewarded some coins to a smart boy. when I caught up with the team, they were leaving. I confused why these physics lessons so hard to learn and discussed my problem with others, like ballistic track, pounding force, etc. some of my alumni told me and I gradually grasped it, for human have right to know what’s going on in their life. so science sometimes knows as curious as fun, doesn’t always mean to change courses, to fix something, but it tells truth even boring truth. I met lots of classmates including girls when I arrived the camp. on farewell party I suggested a toast and lots of biddings echo from my classmates then I woke up. a rain in dawn turns clear even in my dream. its a mid size rain, raindrops make happy rhythm like my hometown central China summer rains. last night I first intended to suffer starvation with the only noodle meal, for my only have 30rmb in purse. near 9pm, hunger let me blue, I tried to shift focus from it but failed. then I gave in and intended to watch and dine out my son today, for according PRC calendar the Sunday will be a workday. I will have to shower on Saturday rather than usual Sunday lest my son has no vacation to do it for schooling. then I relieved and ate a candy I prepared for my son’s visit. later hunger even urgent and I had to cost ¥5 for a street vendor snack nearby in the night. God, dad, when is we in no want? when our enjoyed lifestyle makes us heartedly settled? bring me sooner my Royal China to host my guests and under Holy glory of plenty we cheer up. grant me my cyber startup booming and credit as safe and likes a breeze.

Jun 9, 2016

lunar dragon boat day holiday slides in before my notice. this morning missed canteen breakfast among dreams and naps in early wakeup, or the dorm canteen already closed service in holiday like usual. in boring morning I felt all world pales out in others’ celebration, left me alone and lonely. I felt cold and napped in quilt for warmth. near noon I ate noodles in nearby restaurant after found canteen out of service. the sunshine is faultlessly bright, but it a bit too stinging for sunbath. I missed my son very much but decided follow Christian calendar to reunite him in weekends, ie day after yesterday, and for the sake of my poor wallet, which left no more than ¥30. this week my credit card issuer bank buzzed several times, and I promised CCB whose clearance clerk woman quite sincere that I will pay it first with this month salary. bankcomm confirmed my unable to pay in time more than 3 times, likely will adopt next phrase operation to secure its property. PSBC still helping me with its credit, allowing me to buy what I need, like SSD harddisk and other item online, but its clearance clerk man too coarse to handle, just cursed me times and times likely repulses me with disgusting or maltreatment. in the afternoon I napped again to avoid boringness, I dreamt my shared workplace visited by 2 pals of my colleague, likely one of my Nankai Univ alumnus now lives in Canada, or the youngest son of my uncle, who both tall and bigger build. they invited me to name their company and trying using office computer to find solution. I was a bit afraid them using my computer, so I tried in mess and harsh to logout my computer but can’t find keyboard in piles of paperworks prompt. then I suddenly shout out my answer, Tian’an in Chinese, totally safe or heavenly safe. my alumnus approached me to cheer up before I woke up. its sunny now outside. with classic music rather than podcast recently I listened more on google play I felt in right mood under bliss. God, dad, my income shortage now weights me down. I saw in decades my earnings from my blog and websites hardly supports lifestyle we enjoyed so far including my son since powered by credit card. dad, God, only your Mightiness covers our incomplete of life support. grant us freedom of financial independence. bring me sooner my Royal China to sustain the brilliant way ahead. boost my web presence and traffic that means. catalyze my cyberspace startup to success. dad, I’m so complacent with my web assets. secure them and let it deserve our effort to bring it out.

Jun 3, 2016

in dawn dream reviewed my passed mother helped my aunt’s last child with her 2nd husband preparing his wedding ceremony. I regarded the 2nd husband humiliated my dad and hostile toward my dad and our family’s success. but my mother always tried her best shown her hospitality to the man and my uncle who admired her. my mother likely hurt my dad much with her charm unselective and spare no expense. I was asked to join the wedding ceremony in my summer vacation and according customs carried bride’s gift to fiance’s family with other young relatives in our old family. on way a steep wet slope a heavy truck almost can’t brake itself and dangerously slip downward and almost brought me down. I narrowly escaped the truck with load of gifts and many years after I thought its a holy salvage. the marriage didn’t last 3 years and the wife left. my mother just can’t trust her husband and fought with all her resources in her interest. then dreamt I made 3 portable devices for data mobility. the design so effective that I intended to shift to my son. this week began with idling then gradually engaged. yahoo informed me to logon to keep account active. when logon it require verification from backup mailbox, ie. google account. in the process quite some of zhone google accounts suspended for suspicious activities, likely PRC backed hacking. I tried several means to report to google, which likely doesn’t support human individual handling, but machinary rules. but 3 days later, last night my accounts unlocked and I rearranged them as planned. its such champion like a breeze, I sang for the heroic giant public company. this week my credit card issuer bank buzzed 3 or more occasions, we agreed to shift my unable to pay back to next phrase, even I don’t know what will be. my youngest elder sister offered me ¥500 and I used it for weekend reuniting my son, ie. dining out, and my medicine. I also tried to reach out to my teenage friend, now works in college, but in vain. the teacher felt guilty upon his empty hand and tried to assign me in some agenda to whitewash remnant of his redemption. God, dad, life here runs deeper now. let’s enjoy peace of everyday. bring me sooner my Royal China to host my guests. bring me glory of Son. grant me independent finance in my startup. thx for the descending summer heat.



May 26, 2016

dreamt of students protest and negotiation. after woz 11 years birthday gathering, last night I slept deep. dreamt likely in Peking Univ I gathered support students and went strike against ruling authority. my passed mother likely there cooked for canteen and listening my appeal for student’s right which is vivid in dream but after breakfast untraceable. yesterday I finally told dorm canteen operator that my salary freezed by bank and I penniless. she admitted my loan for boarding. my support son’s living cost also cancelled, his mom already informed by me when she inquired how I will handle the loan crisis last Sunday, but even worse, I unable to hand over son’s educational plan deposit, 200rmb/monthly as promised. she refused joining celebration I prepared for woz’s 11 years birthday. locked herself in bedroom with her mother. I let my son waited for his mom return from her workplace is a waste. when kindles in position on cake by my son, we ran out of match, nor lighter. I previously intended asking son’s mom to live cast the party via twitter’s periscope but in reality I had to using woz’s nexus cellphone live stream on our own. its aweful clumsy but at least its our first live show. I quickly left my son after the reporting, in the air of contemptuous the evil woman casted upon us. in the night I published our video of the cake party, our monologue. its a chill summer, now its cloudy again in the morning. but its far from clueless. God, dad, bring us lifestyle we enjoy. grant me financial independence, esp supportive for my son’s teenage. bring me my Royal China and my new family to save the broken and sinking PRC in its shrink of deterioration. prepare me for greater event in my life.

May 25, 2016

first dreamt I have extra flesh loosely attached around edge of my feet. I carefully cut them off and my 2nd brother found worms in it. I watched it and saw 2 worms alive and my brother claim he saw more much smaller I didn’t see. then I thought now that I long time can’t gain my master degree in campus I should consider a job for living. I reckoned teaching English and perfect my language skill as mean. my niece asked me shift my tool, a picker to her, I admitted but loathed. then the ground floor of the building, an office of editors of a publish house, full with staff lately returned. when I retreated, I saw a guy on way and though him too poor, so I intended to offer him ¥5 in charity. but the guy shamelessly chased after me and impatiently peeking my purse and attempted using his picker like thief to take bill from it. I took too long to find ¥5 bill and enough by the harassment of the guy and canceled my offer. by a shallowly underground well, some woman murmured what a pity, seemingly I lost a chance to gain from my last kindness. I thought they know something I don’t know but too many possibilities or conspirations led me indecisive and woke up. previously in dawn dream I painted and let my artist friends, esp. Tibet artist Benba Chungdak, check it. he likely respects it. this month my salary reached a historic low at ¥1468, which even can’t cover our living expense, ie. my son and myself. I have anticipated it restored to normal, around 3000rmb, so hard. God, dad, what’s the hell ahead for falling with sinking PRC, poverty and beyond protection of social welfare or civil war’s cannon fodder? dad, God, what challenge I was set in? bring me sooner my Royal China for the salvage. bring me painless through adversity currectly emcompasses me. remove the crucifixion the Son reraised from. I with happiness with the Holy in the unprecedented glory.

May 20, 2016

dreamt of social motivation. in dawn dream I was in team to allocate social resources. I assign reward/award for every personel enrolled, encode frequent used amount into quantity unit, embed short code replacing frequently used long terms like compression in propaganda slogans, which includes Zhao Benshang’s northeastern Chinese folk ballad, 二人转. civil war’s fog topmost heavy in the dream, we do our best to prepare for it. my old family’s enemy, the second husband of my aunt and his offspring, one of them is our neighbor in hometown village Zhudajiu, tempted me comment on his youngest brother’s performance, I said he is kind and popular. my passed mother in dream then asked me about myself, I said anyone knows me respects me. the enemy agreed. my mother glad upon my reputation. the dream is very clear and I needn’t hurry to blog after I woke up. this week I mostly peacefully enjoy silence before change. I watched more movies online, esp love stories which remind me of my broken love in Nankai Univ with a tall Chinese girl collegian, and faultless escort of my crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, when she studies abroad with us. I also bathed more in noon sunshine now that summer weather gradually steps in. Qiqihar this summer peculiarly cold among world report of increased temperature most places on the earth. last night I watched a Japanese episode, life in additional time. first episode about a youth values vocation more important than family and died on site and regret for his family he even didn’t know still loving him. second about common family how hard to find a better commodity like a richer meal in routine life. the good wife risk her life to bring a beef meal for her family before her decrease on rush road for discount meat. that reminds me of my burden in my trying best to support my son a better life so far, lends us to credit deficit. but I don’t regret, and only Christian saves China and Japan. only YHWH blesses world of no shortage but plenty and glory in plenty. out of him poverty and chaos breeds like rats and murders like norm, esp. in Buddhism, confucianism and Islamism, in Asia and Africa. God, dad, thanks for the holy sign of rejoice. grant us a peaceful reunion this afternoon when I dine out my son grill mutton. dad, God, grant me more agile growth in my cyberspace existence. bring me my Royal China and its outline from distant view when I moulding Empire of China. fill my heart with love and brave. thx for the summer morning, God.

May 15, 2016

dreamt of summit. yesterday is exhausting for me after reunited with my son, woz, my most concerned. I told him my new source of confidence, new strategy to cope current hard finance. I brought him dine out with Islamic cuisine with which I again groupon and paid by my credit digitally, our favorite mean of dining out but forgiven this year for credit crisis and slump economy. my son less surprised but maintained acknowledged. I also tried to prepare his smart TV with more functions the android os powered. in dorm in the dawn I dreamt assigned to write speech for boss who will lecture on the summit. I managed separate headline and body of the speech, embed my family domains’ site each part, for more appearance of zhone cyberspace existence. when the summit gathered, the keynote didn’t take place, I only saw the labor union chairman of QRRS, a guy almost same period enrolled by the SOE and more or less acquaintance. I watched far from the hot circle of audience among the party and some QRRS staff playful with me nearby. we gradually retreated upstairs and I woke up lately. I don’t know why I felt so sleepy, but I now have more time to sleep while my whole business stable and in early stage which means more patience. I likely wouldn’t find myself another job to make a living, for I resolved to sit and dwelt with hardest situation in sinking PRC, my vested kingdom. I needn’t another option to flee from my people, my land which so fertile and sustaining. I have vocation and proud of it, which is not weak one nor too feeble prone to protection of peer stable source of feed. I don’t need a second occupation for sacrifice in my main concern, my kingdom and cyberspace startup. that’s my rebirth of confidence from void in wane of hardness these weeks. God, dad, save my nation from broken, save us from starving and scatter of exile. grant me regal life with my son, my girls I entreated so far online. bring me life style we enjoy so far, remove my debt burden step by step when beholding my enterprise online. dad, God, help me live healthy and resilient in my mid-age.

watchwoz 11 years birthday video online

or https://youtu.be/dSJNS8yCMb4

https://youtu.be/fQVEUagAaTM

https://www.periscope.tv/w/1gqxvARDdzqJB

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