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{December 26, 2011}   season that brings hopes.


last monday before 2012. ^yesterday Christmas gathering’s happiness exceeded my expectation. i previously hope inviting 3 guests, the grandma, 2 pals of warrenzh’s, to dine on the eve. but baby’s mom, tentatively shows her privilege of inviting the 2 students in her school, namely a boy in Liu surname, a girl in Tian’s, refuted and rearranged on noon of the Sunday. the pinching budget also drove me unease: i looking hard forward to equip my son a kindle touch and promised him the benefit of the gadget, while i already due to clear 2 debts amounts to ¥4000 for my family 5 domains holding and my sister’s loans for my latest hometown journey back to 2010 spring. the morning i felt sleepy while waiting for the toast buffet lunch. when i arrived the buffet via bus, my son in good complexion cheered me up at once. i ate a lot toasted meat, for in my recent canteen meals, meat was scarce. near the end, the girl, a Tian’s, left for her tutorial. on bus back to son’s mom’s house, i babbled a lot about new stage of PRC confronted by homeless farmers who can lead the downturn or revolution long due and more and more heartedly welcomed by most open mind-eyes among Chinese worldwide, as well as western watchers. warrenzh, my dearest son, played pc game with me in the afternoon, till i felt boring. in the night when i surfing in QRRS dorm, he buzzed awhile in to praise the grand event of gathering in Xmas. there is only holy spirit can describe my feeling to his grand insight and Heavenly love, and laughs like gold ring. God, u see how i prepared myself for my new family with my beloved girls. God, bring us together sooner in brilliant wedding. and facilitate baby son’s reading with a kindle touch! God, let us sing in ur name for glory above the cold and starvation threat in world, esp. China ahead.

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dreamed of being target of capture for zoo, or caged. nightmare after Xmas lunch dining out.^Xmas is perfect with son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, dined in Qiqihar Golden Hans buffet. son buzzed in lately for celebrating the wonderful gathering. in dawn dreamed of traced&fought with a couples of post Doctor degree holder and their professor, who want to capture me and target me as experimental object/subject. the plot ran a long time before executed in daytime in my dream.


a working Xmas before dining out with son. an early wake up after anxious dream in xmas 2011. ^thx God, google new ui descends to me this dawn. dreamed again of my life out of shape, till found life has to be drifting among the earth and humble. God, bless my son his seasonal gift, u know!


God shows me his way in darkness. shines over profaning attempts nearby. ^God, dad, in ur title and holy anger, i contacted our old family members. thx, God, show us the right way.


a free day away from heavily jammed Internet. dreamed of wartime.^dreamed commanding warship in a lake, combated with knives and other weapons. dreamed of once colleagues in QRRS, a Jiang and a Bai in family name. got up&filed additional small nail. most of the day sunshine, if any, is pale. dozed in afternoon, dreamed my ancestor, founder of Ming Dynasty, fought his way in forging his Empire of China.


dreamed living with son and my wife, in Royal China. dreamed of son and new family. ^warrenzh, my dearest son, and my 2nd wife, Asoh Yukiko, crowned Queen of Royal China, appeared in my dream about academy. found clear full moon covering my bed in dawn with its saint milky light falls. dreamed of my endeavor to survive my loving family among mob&rat race. God shows me closer change in my life&fate shiny.


dream of living with my girls and their family historical settings. dreamed of historical disturbance between my Queens of Royal China, my girls’ family background.^these days more dreams in dawn, likely preparing myself for coming new family with my beloved. dreamed of living with my girls. their family friends and foes in our blood linkage, esp Jews’ and Islamic. God, bring me sooner my new family, Royal of China, under ur blesses.


dream of new budding life of mine. ^first time dreamed of raising my infant baby son, till see the rewardingly smartness in baby’s social intelligence. Its next day of lunar Large Snow Day. God, see me my new family with my girls praying for me, for Royal China.

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farewell and new hope for meeting my girl Zhou nearby.^ this month i grew with my son, in pc games as well as in emotional difficulties. my dearest son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, sites’ owner of and, visited my QRRS dorm last Friday night, among cheers of my improved salary, which amount to ¥2500. his growing teeth in rotating period and sometimes funny when laughing with bare gum. his mom still hurt me when greedy upon my salary with which i promised totally cover our son’s living and i wouldn’t use a penny on my own after my new family forges. her dirty family, including the grandma recent months frequently appeared to lend hands to clean house, laundry or even bath my son. i wouldn’t allow any insane persons approaching my brilliant son as usual, so sinful betrayal by baby’s mother over her duty to care my son, like bathing him, really annoy me. after the occasion i witness my son bathed by the grandma, i urged my son to have shower in public bathroom, which he dislikes very much, with me, he changed his mind and agreed. direct parenthood means much in my family, since my grand father’s influence, and in holy spirit. God, u see it.
next week will sees memory days for my parents. my mother passed on Dec 1, 2010, which my father, God in Heaven now, left the earth on Dec 18, 2008. in these days, i got to know forgiving common people’s sins against my Royal of China, under Holy shrine. i knew God’s setting to enrich my experience here on the ground, including of course the darker particles against void. in these days, China surveillance broke my stable fast lunch supply, and i now enjoy QRRS in factory canteen. i looking forward more chances to meet up my 3rd wife, girl Zhou, who ignite my burning seeking cry in cyberspace since 2006 and includes this blog. Asoh Yukiko, my Crowned Queen of Royal China from Japan, u attending the transition and gathering the moment that will catalyze our fate ahead predetermined, from ur catering in the years. God, bring my girls in our limelight. bring my son his seasonal gift u promised. dad, u see.


dreamed of crusade.yesterday i had good time with my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, owner of and, with his favorite KFC food i borrowed from QRRS Dorms canteen to buy. my workday’s lunch supplier went bankrupt, among sinful China surveillance which against me and my allies. in the dawn i dreamed of close combat with cold weapon, with my team against several enemies. God shows me again his gift on me when i pray in the dream, empowered me with people and followers. Its a bright morning now, save and gospels just arriving.
God, bring my girls sooner into my coming new marriages. save my Royal China, save my beloved. present my baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, God of Universe, a dell game desktop in year end, as u promised. thx u, dear Father.


dreamed of worms in flesh again.^got up around 4am to release bladder, then powered notebook to d/l, even later after got up found damned China surveillance broke sessions&hanged all d/l. dreamed of my son, warrenzh, Hope of China, God of Universe, owner of sites and my kid brother these years lingered in Guangdong, southern China, likely also appeared in my dawn dream. dreamed a hand itches, with a knife thrust the palm and turned the inside flesh out, found worms swarmed in the flesh&eating. Its not first time I dreamed of worms biting living flesh under skin, and quite disgusting scene but healing by exposing and eliminating the sick part of body. Its a golden sunny morning now, and also today lunar Winter beginning day, or 立冬. God, bring my new family with my girls in the celebrating year end, when joy seeking hearts clogging social meeting places everywhere, including the cyberspace on Internet.

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