benzyrnill, set to fly, like dragon fly…鸠昱隆嘉











read alone most day. mother don’t prepared lunch for me for busy with caring grandson of elder brother, who busy with harvest rapeseed. most time in music. when i launched radio software aiming to listen bible radio, pc infected by virus. powered down notebook&haunted outside. some ugly villagers in front plaza talking about bullet&crime. i watched stream. mother holding her grand-grandson talked to me. closer to watch a house with spacious yards and trees and pond in front of the village. mediated aside the fish pond, on the rebellion&new riches among villagers, power of money&sin of imprudence&arrogant upon the Son. cared the grandson-in-law when sky turned dark&mother returned to collect drying clothes against rain. dinned lately delayed by mother. comment on web. chatted with baby&his mom online. baby ate cake&ice porridge. i buy the bill on my online finance.



{May 31, 2010}   sleepy morning.

first time in hometown didn’t got up midnight to make water. woke up by urine but mother already calling to breakfast. read&let download in front yard when it still in shadow of dad’s house in sunshine. baby’s mom, emakingir, called&chatted online when she worked in office. i help her import contacts of box.net’s secret upload emails. dozed again awhile in music. power down some time, when i sorted stuff newly got from web. read again after power supply resumed. so nice a day, with sunshine not so burning.



last night felt dirt around before sleep. this morning felt sleepy after got up. activated family box.net accounts’ uploading emails&backup. treated visiting village girls with games. dozed again when they gaming, in dad’s old house, where is cool while hot sunshines outside. created personal folder for family web store accounts. so glad to see sunshine resumed. dozed some time after noon. chickens woke me up to surf, till those girls, even more, visited. let them listening a song they likes. them gamed on my notebook near 5pm&left. hunted for resource to d/l. when mother cooking, i haunted outside in dusk. after returned home, doubting my age&my girls, as well as my new life in new marriages. buzzed baby’s mom, emakingir, about baby’s coming lunar birthday.



mother cooked 糍粑, very delicious. just got recent photos backup to my flickr account. sang&got sunburn in recent sunshine among clouds. hopefully soon i will get my new portable hard disk. haunted the village front plaza, chatted with the state grid worker for quite some time, till saw the girl students teamed to wander. followed them&let one of them using my camera as she asked to shot photos for her pals&me. visit the fish pond. chatted with baby&his mom longest online, while they busy with pc game. read all night.



{May 29, 2010}   mother cooked 糍粑

mother cooked 糍粑, very delicious. just got recent photos backup to my flickr account. sang&got sunburn in recent sunshine among clouds. hopefully soon i will get my new portable hard disk.



2 groups of village kids visited dad’s house when i still on bed. got up&treated a kid girl and boy with animation online. read&listening bible radio alone. then some girl students visited, shown them google search for their name. they played pc games later. mother a bit unease, but they played enough before left. i let download&now surfing. sunshine likely will commence at noon. a nice day.



{May 28, 2010}   a blessing rainning day.

prepared&posted a blog entry to include recent photos, done till after lunch. read. secured family gmail accounts by verifying&adding associated alternative emails. sorted stuff newly from web&backup. lately afternoon listening bible radio&touched by holy message. sister finally buzzed in&told me her arrangement to lent me to buy a portable hard disk. a great relief. haunted outside after dinner, chatted with the state grid worker in the village, and some other villagers, about culture and countryside life. visited elder brother’s house&cared his grandson awhile while he is absent. mother&visiting eldest brother again challenged me in my room when i lean on bed watching TV. baby said playing pc game with his mom, who let me chat online next morning. God sees how i reinforced in the radio’s gospel.



this is a serene morning, after a raining night. its lunar Apr 15, so lots of crackers in dawn by villagers memorising their ancestors. i was deeply concerning the portable hard disk God grants me previously. i asked for lean from my youngest elder sister, she promised but so far didn't inform me when i can get it. sinful eldest brother approached me by the excuse of talking his daughter in college in Wuhan, and sat on my stool and profaned quite some moments. i sang for joys after published recent photos. God, dad, Masheng, when is my new marriage that brings me harmony never seen?


below is recent tweets&comments by benzrad, 朱子卓.

26/5/2010

baby’s birthday ignored by his mom.^read most day. dozed at noon but woke up by 2 visiting old women in the village. shown them online album for one of them shot by me previously. arranged downloading after dinner then haunted outside. shot some photos in front plaza. chatted with an villager once worked in the county city. baby’s mom, emakingir, tentatively ignored baby’s birthday today, abiding her mother’s freaky picking baby’s birthday annually by comparing lunar calendar with Gregorian calendar. shits!

sick and sin of mother.^read all day. mother fetched the granddaughter-in-law of my elder brother, a Hu, who is about 2 years old and likely lack of affection, to home to care, for elder brother family busy with field harvest. cared download. at noon got the idea that equipped myself with a portable harddisk. buzzed my youngest elder sister&got her promise of lend me the money. mother complained of sick of too many shits, bought some medicine late afternoon. i haunted outside after dinner, chatted with a worker of state grid but lives in the village. mother again surveillance me&urged me to return home early when i in chat. in night her sick view of personal affection or love shown itself, which quite sinful as God informed me already, to me. God, dad, i never waste a second on the dark in my mother’s soul, i linger here for u, for my new life with my girls, esp. girl zhou, my 3rd wife, and my second wife, Masheng, never let me fail in peace on ur lovable land, Zhudajiu village.

Benzrad's comment on May 26,2010
so acute the point!!!
by dabbog@gmail.com (benzrad zhu朱子卓)

China mainland nowadays no doubting falling into its last struggle against breaking apart. the dictation elite squad long time preparing for their exit, tried best to grasp more treasures with their corpses in tomb covered by earth. darkness by the evils already scattered by the original potential of Chinese, esp. the heavily handicapped Chinese peasants. China, never belongs to republic nor communist.

in reference to: http://www.oschina.net/news/9353?from=rss 
(view on Google Sidewiki)

27/5/2010
haircut.^sleepy morning. haircut after breakfast, bu the visiting barber's razor let my upper lid bleeding. it drizzled in the morning. hope i can get my portable hardisk sooner.

raining day.^read all time. second time told mother God grants me no anxiousness with living (yesterday told her God grants the new portable harddisk.), to assure her to rip her usual doubts. she sinfully left dad's house at once in doubts, i also re-download a radio software to reconnect to bible radio. sleepy when i rest on long bench while listening preach in air, however, i managed on notebook, &finished following a talk program from the radio. God, Masheng, let me get my portable harddisk tomorrow in a sunny day, let me talk to baby&his mom, &fix her chrome sooner. Masheng, u asked for assignment, i know, pl bring my girl zhou, as well as my other girls under my Royal of China, join me in new marriage ahead in most blessed time or moment. 

raining night with remote support for baby's mom.^bathed to clean cut hairs. watched awhile TV till mother retreated from my room. help baby's mom, emakingir, to fix her frequently crashed chrome by equipping it with a new extension to backup/restore sessions, all done online. also tried new way to video chat, now that gtalk heavily lagging&echoes. told my coming new portable hard disk. it rains harder in night. i really love it.

benzrad's comment on May 27,2010


富士康昨晚12跳,传闻第13跳也已发生

llp azxj – 老郭的鞠躬太牛了,每次一结束就跳,求你别鞠躬了,好好反思解决根本问题吧 11:58 am

benzrad zhu – young Chinese expressing deep desperation with their lives, in the face of deaf&dumbfound Chinese authority nowadays. 1:41 pm


From Hometown Journey Ⅱ
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for picasaweb&flickr blocked within China mainland, the shit&dog dominated sinful land, here some digest of photos hosted domestically.

The front door of village hall, migrated from village's heritage.

a retired worker once lived in county city for a bus company, now lives in the village with his 2 sons&their families.

a oleander tree in blossom.

Posted via email from benzyrnill, set to fly, like dragon fly…鸠昱隆嘉



bathed to clean cut hairs. watched awhile TV till mother retreated from my room. help baby’s mom, emakingir, to fix her frequently crashed chrome by equipping it with a new extention to backup/restore sessions, all done online. also tried new way to video chat, now that gtalk heavily lagging&echoes. told my coming new portable hard disk. it rains harder in night. i really love it.



{May 27, 2010}   raining day.

read all time. second time told mother God grants me no anxiousnesswith living (yesterday told her God grants the new portable harddisk.), she sinfully left dad’s house in doubts, i also re-download a radio software to reconnect to bible radio. sleep when i rest on long bench while listening, however, i managed on notebook finished following a talk program from the radio. God, Masheng, let me get my portable harddisk tomorrow in a sunny day, let me talk to baby&his mom, &fix her chrome sooner. Masheng, u asked for assignment, i know, pl bring my girl zhou, as well as my other girls under my Royal of China, join me in new marriage ahead.



et cetera