August | 2010 | benzyrnill, set to fly, like dragon fly...鸠昱隆嘉

{August 31, 2010} peace in typhoon of violence in my shiny way.

a bright day.^recent days dogs tried to exert terrorism over my cloudless sky. prayer for Gog more frequently echos in my heart. the facing devil's abuse in fact an accurate plot in its least cost to defame me, out of work time&in drunk excuse. the next day after the show i left office 10 minutes earlier before work time over, as God lets, visiting telcom office to recharge my cellphone's prepay, also narrowly avoid the dog's second attempt to sell its dirt safely, now that machine dog, ie. China police or surveillance system promised keeping absent and worse, reward behind the curtain any humiliation&violence against me. another day passed. then in Sunday afternoon, the monitor, a gay now differentiate itself from its previous team, stayed in office to spy if i dare to join office out of work time, in face of possible abuse. i did as God lets, around 12pm&left near 5pm. the most sinful&repentless gay, the driver in facing office room, once colleague but not now, haunted my office far more frequent these days, monitor the well collectively money devised murder rolling forward. i see more and closer glory of Son shines over me.
in the afternoon, the gay on facing desk challenged me to a historical height. i just let it go&busy with my reading as God rules. its like its last day in office in a short period for its said to start its paid vacation, about 3 weeks. baby's mom, God lets me see clearer again her sin, complained my deficit&refused again to loan me to buy a new udisk to replace my wrecked one. she never risk to loan me more than 500rmb, even i bought the family a new acer notebook of 4600rmb&let her using it now. i also offered her 1900rmb to buy a e-bike but she lost it as i covered in previous blog. i treat her with baby countless dining out, wash out thousand bad debt in my financial book for exempt of what she claimed missing expense under my title. all these done with my salary of ￥1100/month for 7 years, or start from 3 month ago ￥1600/month, while she enjoy 2500rmb/month, and other gray income as a common phenomenon in nowadays China. but never she trust me more than 500rmb. she busy with tutoring every day at cost of her due housewife duty but never report her earnings nor spent a coin from it for family expense. God, never allows me to review if my mercy on her enough, she just don't deserve. let she contented with her money&burning brain for increase it, but just on the day of my glory, Son's fortune to cover&stem out solely my baby son, God of Universe, Hope of China, to the most ready&blessed young man in Royal of Holy. God, never on the earth there is a creature can stand a split of second between baby son&me, the trinity; never the shine of Holy can a human resist with bare eyes or blunt mind. God, dad, Masheng, this is my prayer, my will to shine the land belongs to me, people under my feet.
now its a bright morning. i was so enchanted by the sunrise that i shoot more photos for the moment. the sin on facing desk still lingering in office. last night later than 9:30pm i buzzed baby son, told him no matter his dad in or not in the world, he belongs to God&in the summon of God. no one in the universe can beat his dad, and the Son, his dad, forever accompany him, God. baby son apprehend it without a pause to let me don't bother with perished situation any more.

From drifting life perishable

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bright autumn morning sunshine in QRRS dorms.

panorama of QRRS dorms in autumn dusk.

{August 31, 2010} drifting life perishable.

in the afternoon, the gay on facing desk challenged me to a historical height. i just let it go&busy with my reading as God rules. its like its last day in office in a short period for its said to start its paid vacation, about 3 weeks. baby's mom, God lets me see clearer again her sin, complained my deficit&refused again to loan me to buy a new udisk to replace my wrecked one. she never risk to loan me more than 500rmb, even i bought the family a new acer notebook of 4600rmb&let her using it now. i also offered her 1900rmb to buy a e-bike but she lost it as i covered in previous blog. i treat her with baby countless dining out, wash out thousand bad debt in my financial book for exempt of what she claimed missing expense under my title. all these done with my salary of ￥1100/month for 7 years, or start from 3 month ago ￥1600/month, while she enjoy 2500rmb/month, and other gray income as a common phenomenon in nowadays China. but never she trust me more than 500rmb. she busy with tutoring every day at cost of her due housewife duty but never report her earnings nor spent a coin from it for family expense. God, never allows me to review if my mercy on her enough, she just don't deserve. let she contented with her money&burning brain for increase it, but just on the day of my glory, Son's fortune to cover&stem out solely my baby son, God of Universe, Hope of China, to the most ready&blessed young man in Royal of Holy. God, never on the earth there is a creature can stand a split of second between baby son&me, the trinity; never the shine of Holy can a human resist with bare eyes or blunt mind. God, dad, Masheng, this is my prayer, my will to shine the land belongs to me, people under my feet.

now its a bright morning. i was so enchanted by the sunrise that i shoot more photos for the moment. the sin on facing desk still lingering in office. last night later than 9:30pm i buzzed baby son, told him no matter his dad in or not in the world, he belongs to God&in the summon of God. no one in the universe can beat his dad, and the Son, his dad, forever accompany him, God. baby son apprehend it without a pause to let me don't bother with perished situation any more.

{August 24, 2010} lavish summer wading into memory.

Its a raining day this morning, exactly as Chinese lunar calendar indicting, Chushu, 处暑, summer heat is over. i walked barely in rain with my work suite, ie. notebook&camera, to join office, for every work day is meaningful for me, cultivation, accumulation, and harvest. last afternoon it also rained amid sunshine, its in fact a sun rain, i told baby its the most blessing weather. we had a longest time in years playing pc games together and succeeded most missions while his mom napped in another room. then we dined out. here r the moment we gathered&dined. baby naught a lot in the dinner, with his favorite food Guobaorou, flour coated pork. his mom these day frequently complained enough of him. after dinner, the rain stopped, we walked back, and i departed them on the ground near baby's mom's house.
after returned to QRRS dorms where i lingered for my new marriage, i directly join local church from bus stop, listened a nice preach by the male Priest, who elaborates more on bible, comparing his female pal who only recited poems or quotation from bible. the preach again discussed strong believing as my favorite. after the believers left, i expressed obligation to the Priest, we both felt blessed. on the garden of the dorm, i buzzed baby&his mom, who more and more felt at a loss in our once broken marriage. i buzzed twice to encourage baby lives in patience to see the bright days, for only with bitter or tasteless, we enjoy more the elation and sweat of bliss when it pours in. quite some girls in the dorms haunted outside around me. i can't say other but it all can't be more accomplished.
in the night, i roamed in dorm, reviewing my good time and ahead. sometimes i can't but sang loudly. i also drank a bit. God, u see how close the day of my wedding beset. my baby son badly need a new mother to cook him delicacy. i badly need a soul of girl accompanies&shares our love to u, the Mightiest. God, rid me of anxious, bring my girls to me, to my new Empire of China.
That's my another happy weekends.
Ps:delayed so long since last morning for the publish of photos via email, yet can't finish blogging before including the link of the album. read all time. later chatted with baby's mom, who prepared baby's profile photo for his music lesson. it turns sunny or cloudy since noon. God, saves the beautiful day with my works. save my Royal of China, the saint of my Empire of China.

From farewell to lavish summer

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benzrad, 朱子卓, in restaurant amid a sunrain, shot by warrenzh, 朱楚甲.

baby son posed for shot for an profile photo for his music class, after dined out.

{August 20, 2010} bright sunshine brings back glory of summer.

these 2 or 3 days mostly pale, but its dusk mostly in lovable breeze. i spent more time on the garden bench wondering my new life with my beloved girls. the bench had been a hot place, frequented by quite some QRRS dormers, some of them surely gays. last night i lingered outside latest, reviewing painful waiting for my absent girls, esp. girl zhou. returned to dorm, i talked with God, Masheng for quite some time. crackers outside echoes my thought and judge. i got view of men and women, God's setting to balance them. i saw my baby son, warrenzh, God of Universe, his way straight to fame and glory, all of saint. in the light of joy, i tried google picasa's new feature to make a movie from his avatars through our published album. i hope next gathering he will surprised by the movie.
its a brightest morning in this week. the office had to shelter sun-ray with curtains. i universally so glad to see the bright. God, my only complain is my girls' beautiful life's gliding with fading perfume, please let me join them sooner!
Ps: China censorship likely now underwent new blocking tool, like long time rumor, whitelist filter, reportedly on web quite some sites inaccessible now. i attempted to post photos via email from start of morning yet didn't publish them now even email sent for hours. God, u see my moment with Gospel.

20/8/2010

imply google album's binding with profile.^during reading got news of the new feature, binding picasaweb with google profiles. so launched since last afternoon. China surveillance broke amid twice, a sandstorm also blew lots of sand on my desk during the operation. this morning turns out a brilliant morning, i just finished operation over family google albums, even google analytics tracking code yet be saved, neither in chrome nor in firefox, likely China censorship still torn down the page elements between. God, saves my works.

19/8/2010

2 cloudy days.^yesterday mostly a pale day. read all time. dozed awhile amid heavy dirt from facing desk's evil. near end of work time, restored os for lagging. shot some photos for flowers in QRRS dorms garden&sunset, which turns hot redden near the end of day. slept earlier after washed vest. a blister grows on center of the sole of my foot, causing pains, but disappeared this morning, which again a cloudy&windy morning. God, redemption for too proud is ready, brings back my eyes-candy sooner. in this silent pale morning, i felt even lonelier, without my beloved girls.

18/8/2010

a day in heavy dirt.^last night in pubic lavatory of the dorm, i told a new QRRS graduate that every morning i woke up with fresh hope. this morning i first time join office later than 7:30am. read most of work time. baby's mom, emakingir, rarely logon her gmail in her summer vacation but did this morning, so i video chatted with her&our baby son. yesterday she mimic baby son's claim how he likes toast mutton stick, and suggested arranging next dine out. then i told her my last month salary suffered a loss of half of it, only earned ￥760. the reason i got today is the company deficit of orders&total stopped streamline last month. ema didn't complained the moment, but this time in video she quite quick sheered my suggestion to arrange dining out this week. God, Masheng, i put my Royal's life support on u, for i will reward u ten and hundred of that amount in my Empire of China. u know what i mean, Masheng, i only receive ur meal now and year ahead, let our baby son in happy time and free of anxiousness of needs.
the facing gay all time challenged when i busy. the sin barely stick out his ugly head to gawk at me for minutes when sin torn him apart on position in front of me, in order to show his failure&loss. there is not shame in his sinful life, but death-matching profaning. God times and times let me be my own&walk my road straight, for the hell for the evil never need a second to review. the office already clearly shows a stage of sins, mainly gays. i spent a year to 20 years there to manifest the difference between me and wrecked, the untouchable glory of Son from the falling&sinking flash of the dark&lifeless on this eccentric land, thousand miles from my beloved hometown, central China. the land belongs to me, while the once and current have to descend&earthed by dusts.
after dinner, a gay again occupied the garden bench, so i roamed outside. then rest on it till dusk turns deep. a neat girl reminded me of my girl zhou, who in a moment stands in my inner sight so cute&vivid, that i had to leave outdoors to hold it dear inward. its a nice day, God, u see. this morning dreamed of 2 girls loving me. but i didn't recognized their name on paper. met some Priests in dorm canteen, talked about my preferring more talks on bible rather than his/her own interpret, more holy revelation than preach or warn of wrong doing. the Priest didn't elaborate it as usual. its pale in sky, but turning bright outside of my office now.

17/8/2010

family blogger blogs' template improved.^a new work week, God sees how i cherish my timetable&right mood i was beset. read after posted daily tweet. find a nice web service, radiotime.com, to let me listening bible radio without player's niche. customized my account there. after noon launched correcting mistakes on some family blogs on google blog platform, blogger.com, then tried its new powerful template designer, improved most family blogs there with beautiful interface. backup stuff near 4pm, then baby's mom, emakingir arrived to send me some dates she bought, with baby son on her bike. baby son likes a beam enlighten my heart thirsty for joy&dry bright. help ema secure her qq account on road sending them to the grandma's house, where a rich meal including fish prepared, after did that on baby&my account in office previously. after seeing out them, a tall girl reminds me of my girl zhou passed me by, informs how i m fortunate and in God's bliss. after dinner rest on garden's bench for a long time, wondering life with my girl zhou. a gay silently sat parallel on a bench on the other side alone the aisle. shits find way to upset people in their joy. lectured before personal cleaning, with QRRS' new graduates. that caused me exhausted&got up this morning later than 7am. in dawn dreamed of alumni gathering&hot debate among us collegians. my 2rd elder sister also appeared in it. its a bright morning now.

16/8/2010

posted a blog including recent photos last Sunday. dreamed of exile.^late sleep till 10am. posted recent photos&a blog entry for my sorrow and missing of my baby son, who also missing me&want more outdoor plays&activities. posted recent photos&blog in office alone. the monitor joined before lunch time&left after an hour. buzzed baby's mom lately near 4pm&found they haunting Fu-Mart&KFC. encouraged ema upon her proactive bringing baby into actions, rather than staying home&watching animation online or TV. after dinner in dorm canteen, rest in sunshine on bench in dorms garden, till shadow cover my lap. continued bathing in sunset in my dorm which on 3rd floor&facing the sunset. bought fruits after roamed outside. enjoy a banana on bench in garden, watched a group of boys and girls playing badminton in front me. God, blesses my baby son, rid him of boring or missing of absent like his dad, me. enrich him every moment with fresh idea&meaningful activities.
after a month i will hopeful see my girls, like girl Zhou once in QRRS, and the girl i met on train returning to Qiqihar from my second hometown journey. its a bright day today, even in sunset i can see the milk clouds missing for days in mid sky.
in night roaming in dorm, reviewing my situation. baby&his mom showered when i buzzed in. i listening music till went to bed near 9:30pm. in dawn, dreamed QRRS, my once&long time employer, and campus, represented by the Zhou, a high rank in QRRS, and a tall male math teacher in my junior middle school, expressed that they want me to leave. i felt evils drove behind the scene. then my collage alumnus, a girl, told me i was narrowly chosen to stay to learn, when we studying physical and mathematical methods to describe close shape. its a bright morning, when i got up exactly 6am.

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bright sunset after a pale day.

early moon over QRRS front open space.