benzyrnill, set to fly, like dragon fly…鸠昱隆嘉











this week most exciting thing is improved salary, even a mean restaurant female acquaintance guessed it’s due to heat subsidiary included. with it, I well reinforced my workspace with renewals, credit refills, etc. boosted by the saint aid, I video chatted with my hometown junior middle school classmates to express my gratitude, appreciation of their life so far. one of them, once always shown best of him with jokes now millionaire, with 3 growingup children. i also paid back quite some debter of mine. i treated myself & my son nice dinners. recently i turned more open & talkative among my frequent restaurants, speaked out my situation, esp my extraordinary aging body, my concern of state surveillance upon me years. I pray God it’s affordable to befriend them there. the new Japanese heating blanket soon let my leg stronger, ease my pains & resume my body’s flexibility in a sensible way. passed week also saw failing PRC surveillance hardly afford their failure to sink my web site, yesterday they using their old dirty skill to let my site down, even my web app is newest version. I restored it all the morning. God’s mercy, I afford it. dear God, in several days, I will have a itch killer, 2 larger udisks for portable storage, at hand, God dad, how i felt satisfying! in this golden morning, I will soon launch & shower. I see your promised, dad God, i saw your promise filled, esp my anxiety upon my workable road toward my destiny so far. dear God dad, let’s move on.



{October 16, 2020}   dream of my passed parents.

yesterday I managed to equip myself another heating blanket after found first one failed to save my wet bedcloth. dorm canteen & my 2nd elder sister helps. in the night I a bit hard to sleep for the great new gear of Japanese brand but finally slept & felt considerably warm & dry in dawn. in dawn dream, I was passing QRRS, the SWE i employed me for more than 2 decades, & passing crowd to my dorm, but it turns out my hometown home, my parents’ house, where my dad received me & told me my mom just passed by. in fact, my dad passed before my mom. when I tried to preceive what a emotion upon my lose of my mom, I abrupt informed my mom & dad’s memory pack categoried under ding & dang title, say /system/ding, or etc. the dream chased me to blog, so my rest of sleep ruined even I loathed to get up. dear God, last night my son & i enjoyed peace. he seemingly glad I ordered him Mcdonald deliver which was a bit late for I not sure if It blessful during my hard financial time. dear God dad, in this sunny morning, I left no regret upon my life. my site under attack again, likely PRC
surveillance blacklist my server ip & let it inaccessible. dear God, lessen my anxious upon it, let my new family more sensible.



{October 13, 2020}   heat the system.

it’s the first nigh in this coming winter that heat serving. I dreamed new era where all gear & content you consuming can rent & pick up again from breakup. I saw my son enter his university & I equip his new pad with his pals. the running database must very large, for any second u laid aside your music or video, when u served by the era, u can seamlessly enjoy your stream. the dream so lavish that I loathed to get up nor describe it. PRC surveillance hired zombie hacker again break my site, even I felt well armed with what I equipped. last night I hesitated if buzz my son, in final rush, I called & briefly express nightly bliss & exit. dear God, lessen my chore on my sites, let them stronger & automony. I saw it’s a sunny morning but now it’s pal. I will carry this merry mode for the day. thx, holy.



{October 12, 2020}   steady posting.

the chilly dorm let my fingers swollen again, but God’s mercy, my body just workable for daily life, even more time & pains covering chores, like put up, mopping floor, etc. recently I equipped myself 2 small laptop blankets, which effective warms up my knees. previously I bought a full size blanket for laptop, but holy message let me bought it which proving very helpful on bed against dorm chill. last night holy spirit lets me ordered my son a Mcdonald deliver & my son enjoys it even a bot late. this morning in warm quilts, I dreamed likely in a candidate campaign team. I using a tool likely offline downloader to multi-accounts management, simulating actual polling or voting. I dreamed other matters but forgot now them. dorm water supply down this moment, but God, I just got my warm keeping plastic bag filled, and tea prepared. when i got up it’s pal and smoggy, but now morning sunshine so golden. dear God, my websites recently under lots attacks but now it turns stronger and I will see the final laugh. I proud of them, so simply while viable. Holy just prepared me readier for it, like database backup. PRC surveillance hired zombie hackers just wasted their money & cheap youth. dear God, in this first clear memorized dream since my re-blogging, I will end it with prayer for my emerging 1109 years Empire of China as persistent leading successful Empires of Great British and Japan. God dad, home me after half life roaming in my forbidden city.



et cetera