painful love

this morning I first time loathed to get up & back to quilt twice. i dreamed my quilt like a checker, when chill, its board is cotton or wood, when hot its marble or something. recently I naturally drove to display more of my merits to women around and sometimes I guess it hurts, for they mostly too old to have a new life. I also felt painful when saw failing mangers among restaurant or supermarket i haunted. incompetent persons, esp on key position usually decides the future of the business while I saw too much PRC traditional culture disabling the good development of a business. I also tried to cheer up dorm administrative team by offering 2 woman tin canned coffee, which a bit leading consuming in nowadays China. the accountant woman, still capable of birth, likely amazed by my living standard & her body language told me she want more of it. my son’s mom also kindly told me my son now has night class lately until 9:50 pm, and she drove to fetch him. for her tiny figure, her endevor is quite gracious & I was touched. next Saturday my son will visit my dorm after the stormy emotional dispute my son with me upon his carelessly handling intelligent gears I equipped him. dear God, It’s a hipshot post, for my web site again ruined by PRC surveillance hired zombie hacker & i just restored it. dear dad God, let the kindle burning till dark dictation in China extinguaged & google re-enter China and my Empire of China of 1109 years life shines in holy sunshine.