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{June 29, 2012}   sunny days in games.

29/6/2012

dreamed of defeating urine problem in my hometown.^ dreamed in dawn I got heat in penis root in my hometown village, Zhudajiu, and have problem to release bladder. my sinful 2nd elder brother aside, also my cousin who long time a shameless bureaucracy. later my father, God in heaven now, appeared there near my uncle’s house where villages gossiping. I suddenly peed 3 times and the volume is large, the spraying speed is strong even with sharp siren. I woke up with peace. God, save my works online. let my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, witness his summer vacation tour with his mom safely and joyful. God, bring sooner my girls with my coming Royal China! in the hot and beautiful season now. Its wet and cool when i blogging, turning raining till I posted it. God, grant my blog more vivid memories including photos.

27/6/2012

dreamed of roaming in Nankai Univ and evading alumni.^ dreamed toddled among classes in its main building in Nankai campus. met some classmates, esp. a Huang who now a social science researcher in Hebei Prov. a lecture is live but I carefully avoid to sit in the spectrum nor listening or ran into familiars. a teacher of philosophy school, of my major, urged me to join but i continued to aimlessly search among classrooms on different floors. campus life always my nightmare since my trouble with the education system under PRC. napped again and dreamed visiting a cinema with my son, but we didn’t take part in watching.

15/6/2012

dreamed of primitives and their Gods. ^ last night lately around 10pm my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, buzzed in, just after finished his homeworks. when i visited him several hours ago after dinner, he miserably complained to me his pains upon heavy homeworks, with which his mom cold-bloodedly sticked to scorn and punish him. KFC, his favorite food i bought on way, even can’t let him happier. the sinful grandma also suggested my postponing my yearningly yelling my son as usual when i entered the house, first time to show her brewing envies burst. before went to bed in QRRS dorm, i roamed lately till dawn, reviewing Chinese painful education overshadows my son. this noon my sinful 2nd elder sister buzzed in to sniff foul in my life. the dirty woman tried again to shamelessly fix my broken first marriage, just for her incurable jealousness. i tried to contact my son if he is in vacation, but he yet refused my companion the moment. napped on bed, i dreamed of living among primitives in hard life in early history, and their belief in God or Gods. i saw living spirit from the beginning among human. its all time a sunny summer day.
God, u always kill the moment the offending. God, save me, your son on the earth, and my son from sinful blood link which drained in envies. God, bring my Royal China sooner!

19/6/2012

dreamed in guest of France court.^ dreamed of being close friend of Emperor of France. visit his or her dinner with another close friend on 2 seats facing the Emperor and his or her spouse alone table. God, bring me sooner my Royal China, esp my girls when our lives as young as early birds.

18/6/2012

dreamed of co-hosting a provincial Nankai alumni party.^ dreamed in sunny dawn holding a alumni party for all years students from Hubei Prov, my hometown in central China, in Naikai Univ, with 程超, my only county alumnus when i studied in Nankai Univ, Tianjin. we treated hometown folks with chestnuts. i spent some time washing myself before join the party where gossip and speech going hot and listening in crowd. its so bright outside now, with a new pc game harvested on my hard disk from over-night download. God, save our pleasure in entertainment softwares. save my Royal China from lapsing prime years in our lives bound together.

15/6/2012

dreamed of family party when dad was young.^ dearest dad, God in Heaven now, held a camp party at home for his children. I have my Tibet artist friend, 边巴琼达, who shows his stylish sculpture there. my elder brother and sister also invited their friends. dad in his middle ages. Its a pale morning now.

12/6/2012

benzrad’s comment on the day.

no strange, the ever revolting/revolving monster of PRC’s communist as shameless as sinks world with its zombie bots, the ghost/remnant of its massive murdering. only collapse stops the steam and dirts of it.

Solidot | 中国碳排放量比以前预计的高出20.路透社报导(中文),周日发表的对中国官方数据的研究显示,中国碳排放量可能比此前预想的高出近20%,暗示全球变暖的速度可能高於目前的预计水平。中国已经超过美国,成为全球第一大温室气体排放国,排放量约占全球四分之一。但是如何准确计算中国碳排放量始终是个挑战,因为中国官方能源消费数据的质量令人怀疑。

7/6/2012

prayer in surrounding darkness.^God, my son warrenzh 朱楚甲, u r so weak and enduring. save us from dirty and dark environment we were set in. let the monster in his mom’s family killed and disappear. God, bring me sooner my Royal China and shelter my son warrenzh, Hope of China, God of Universe, more readily.

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From 2012 on the way to rejoin

reason that's hot in summer.

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{June 6, 2012}   season in wanting.

6/6/2012

dreamed of being a young researcher in university.^ in dawn dream witness some young scientists in campus, with their couples and their social content. then dreamed a couple of Germany, also likely doing research. Its a sunny morning. God, bring me my Asoh Yukiko, with whom my university life becomes golden memories, sooner. save my son from any insanity from the dark environment he stems from.

3/6/2012

dreamed living with Asoh Yukiko in Japan.^ last night watched movie, "Beowulf" lately, and trying interpreting its message of life. in dawn dreamed again worms in my wound, on rim of my left foot. during powering pc and retrospect glimpse, i knew the dark taste of son’s mom, ie. lesbian. to escape the idea, i slept again. dreamed living with my Crowned Queen from Japan harmoniously. her mother welcome us with pure kind heart, like most Japanese women. she cooked for us and left her daughter with me then. we enjoyed the dinner, which is delicious likes my love with Yukiko. then we went outside to wash dishes under nature stream or pool on a hill. there were other Japanese there, but it doesn’t make less tender loving between Yukiko and me while we washing. It’s pale now but Asoh with me now. God, bring me my Royal China sooner, inc my Crowned Queen Asoh Yukiko, my girl Lv, my girl Zhou where I closely waiting years here for, my Taiwan girl who evades me since my body language telling her my persistent love with her and family with her. God, save my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, from the dark in his mother’s family, save Hope of China among rotten and riot.
napped after lunch, dreamed visiting ZhuDe’s home. the Father and Marshal of PRC, and his loving wife, treated me with delicacy they cooked. i felt anxious upon visiting my son in the dusk. his school rearranged schedule and set off next 2 days as weekends.

2/6/2012

dreamed of being a tribe in China.^ I was a tribal member or worked among them as a county community cadre. closely watched the wife, husband, elders, etc, and their roles in routine life, as well as their emotional interactive, inc love. felt the pure and harmony among the tribe.
yesterday is Int’ Children Day. I prepared to treat my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲 with KFC holiday pack. several days ago on his 7 years birthday, he asked a birthday pack but refuted by me for orders already proceeded and he seemingly frustrated. i borrowed ¥100 from QRRS canteen operator. It’s a bit embarrassed but i survived, for the Holy directs my behavior. when i arrived my son was brought to hospital to check his worsen eyesight for over-used, and i waited near an hour outside under a raining roof. i supposed his mom did that against me, for i already equipped son a new glasses, his 2nd one, days ago. i envisioned his mom’s sinful plot and cursed her twice via phone calls. my son enjoyed the KFC holiday pack greatly. we also enjoyed pc games, showers in public spa in the rest of the day. there were drizzles on the day, but its too blessing. God, brings my Royal China sooner! equips me adequate life to allow my son living gracefully!

25/5/2012

new moon in the month, and son’s birthday.^last night new moon in the month first time appeared. I visit son in dusk among rain prelude but in fact risk free for the brilliant day and bought him a new power rack to replace the one sometimes flashes during power on. in the night i reviewed my sorrow of not enough time accompany my son lately till 23:32, God shows me deep soul of solitude and creative mind in western culture, and counterpart of Chinese massive entangles or harass in relation. in the dawn dreamed chasing a girl with the presence of a kid, likely my son. my parent also appeared, for they were assigning heritor to share their large house. I got the deeper part of the main hall. i woke up till bright sunshine outside. God, bring my Royal China sooner.

23/5/2012

dreams. ^ dreamed in campus arranged beds in dorm. then dreamed competing with 2 sisters to be more friendly and open to my kid, likely my son. its a brilliant morning.

19/5/2012

dreamed of my passed university alumni.^ dreamed visiting my campus roommate, a Xiao, who committed suicide years ago, with companion of another alumni, Luofeng, who now a college teacher in Henan Prov., neighbor province of my hometown Hubei, central China. in dream Xiao survived hard life and lives with continue study, also our major, philosophy. our once major teacher in Nankai Univ also lives there in my dream. Its sunny now even sometimes clouds slide.

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visit son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, among threats from mafia and sinful PRC authority. Qiqihar recent cloudy and drizzling days, likes God brings my hometown, Zhudajiu 朱大九, Hubei Prov., central China, weather here now. I, benzrad 朱子卓, managed borrow ¥100 from a colleague in QRRS, my longtime and once employer, when i roaming around QRRS Dorms and ran across his way home, after my dorm canteen failed to loan me amid threats from local mafia. God, surely I’m the most affirmed testifier of ur Holy message, ur Holy road I striking to forge, China reset for 1109 years of an Empire ahead. God, bring me sooner my Royal China. God, u see.

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