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{April 10, 2017}   1st sway with dearest son.

Apr 10, 2017

dreamt of the family of my cousin, ie. husband of my mother’s niece. I once liked his 2nd daughter who was tall and slender. but long time works in farm worn out her hands which drove me away from her in my senior middle school summer vacation and never return. I saw her new family in dream. her dad, a communist cadre in his village, a selfish impetus driver for many children even complied others to abide one child policy, invented or bought to connect his family with his offspring’s family, and his properties with wire. the wire likely controlled digitally. I saw just dial “home to farm” and the 2 place linked and can communicate online. I still felt warm with the girl and her sisters and her child. then dreamt I made experiment, in which I put pencil core into a tiny tube and heated to melt it. when I saw it changed into liquid, just when I ready to fill in something with it, the power down. at the mean time I urgent to urine. I pee indoor before others returning to caught me in sight. almost peed and with caution of fire, I woke up. last week my family acquired another 2 precious domains, zuo.center and woga.me. zuo.center is my first and likely last unconventional TLD. most of newly added TLDs are expensive, but .center renewal is $20. the same amount with .me, which I promoted most to my son woz, hoping he regards woga.me for his video game hobby as himself invented. I told my son I contented with 21 domains before my business getting bigger, and I didn’t regret risks I taken in the purchase even more or less I felt my greediness in the making of namespace, claim of meaning and naming. I hope in a market, its normal to profit from intelligent property. after 3 days intensive works, I prepared publication sites for the 2 domains, inc google sites, zoho sites, blogger blogs, tumblrs, etc. I show my son webpage editing and publishment skill, hoping he enjoy freedom of cyberspace as I did. yesterday I ate delicacies in gathering woz dining out. he ordered his favorite sausage in Taiwanese franchise restaurant, Formosa pies. I also fed him mango I sliced large portions by fork and fruit knife. sometimes I wonder if my main treat is just eating. but God’s know I barely fed each normal day. God, dad, bring me sooner my Royal China. bring me my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, for better life and warmth of homage. grant us a spacier salary this month for our planned expenditure. thx, dad, for coming canteen breakfast.

Apr 9, 2017

dreamt first shared dorm with an once QRRS colleague who is a photographer. he is a gay in dream and spying me. anything of him will convey gay sensation when I touch them. then dream in a TV cuisine competition. I was a candidate and my dish too slippery to stand vegetables in decorative arrangement. I was in hurry and failed many times. then once my boss, QRRS cable TV chief editorial who died in mid age, pointed out the cause emotionlessly. when I almost gave up my works, I woke up and in anxious of visiting my son weekend on time. last week is a strange week testifying relation of my son woz and me, his dad. on Monday which also in lunar Mourning holiday we booked cinema as usual together. that day had been shifted a day for all PRC people gathering 3 days holiday for escape and adjust a weekend for workday. the disgusting convenience chasing hobby humiliates meaning of week from the bible, unlike US holidays, shown worldly profane of Communism Chinese. when I went over in time to fetch my son to cinema, he was absent while his mom tutored some students there as usual. I waited half hour till time didn’t permit waiting. I buzzed the grandma who is really an old fox, stubborn and canning, evasive when I ordered her sent my son to cinema directly. my son already told me he will be totally free when we booked tickets together. so my son forgot his timetable or his sinful mom or grandma tentatively assigned my son’s occupation with his pointless art class away from our scheduled pastime. when I arrived cinema and buzzed the grandma again, she still trying selling my son to postpone the movie. my son wanted to talk to me, but my rages out of control and I yelled him to come over at once. when they arrived, I at once beat my son while the grandma repeated that I was insane. I beat my son before the movie and during movie, we didn’t exchange anything while our back seat trying closer to us to tease us, likely official surveillance. on way to lunch out, I beat my son again for disappointed and humilitation, for his unable to administrate his life on his own. I scorned and beat him during lunch. after returned to his mom’s house, I fetched my missed a day dirty clothes after shower and left without entering the house. after I settled in dorm, my kid brother who almost blacklisted my phone, called in. he was informed by my son’s mom or grandma that my violence can bring me into asylum again if I exert it again on my son. I laughed and told him that they can do anything as they will, I’m not feared. my brother claim I turning odd, and I shouldn’t push my son so hard to American for here in China I should abide with its situation. I replied there are two way to learn after America, one way sending out richer Chinese to US, another way is bring US to China. in coming most of the week, my son kept muted when I buzzed him and sms him. I shifted our new Chinese phone from fiber optic internet bundle to him at the end of lunch and he promised will keep mobile phone reachable like an adult. even in the week I urgent to add backup phone to our 2 godaddy accounts. after 3 days including failed contacted godaddy support, I got thing done with synced sms log via ifttt I previously setup on the phone. on Saturday I lingered on bed lately to avoid boring and hard choice if I visit my son as usual. then my son sent me sms of verification code his phone received and I asked to transfer to me but denied times. I replied immediately that things done and asked if shower on Sunday as planned or plan B. my son didn’t response me graciously. I soon decided to visit him. it’s noon. I visited dorm canteen to fetch my washed clothes there, and borrow another ¥200 for gathering my son in dinning out together. when I entered the house, my son’s mom blocked the door and questioned in what privilege I frequent there. I didn’t reply and evade her into visit my son in his bedroom where he practicing e-piano. after they left for music class his mom arranged, I sorted my son’s nexus in English podcast’s companion. after they returned I tried awhile video game then my son dined out with me. now I can say storm of separation dissolved with consent of my son’s once under performance. he should be more independent, out of childish custody. God, dad, Friday night drizzle blessed us. now shinny morning sunshine covers my concerns with triumph. bring me sooner my Royal China, my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko. bring our better life in reach. grant us financial independent to broaden our cyberspace investment. allow us buy stylish pants with mobile pockets, and a camera for my desktop computer. pl resume my visa card and its credit limit sooner. thx God dad for all these years’ affirmative.

Mar 30, 2017

dreamt with a slim guy who help doing scientific experiments like astronaut. I roamed with him in front of a lab where just gained fund to launch research. I saw my friend won the contract to execute experiment with his physic manipulation. last night I finally checked in my son’s google domains account and found my only working credit card defied by google for region of PRC. so recharging our gvoice accounts impossible. I had to through godaddy to claim my new domain, my only new unconventional TLD, zuo.center. just before that near dusk I talked to my son in air that I can’t help clinching those namespace I concocted, I want to buy him a domain he likes and cultivates like his own mirage garden. I suggested woga.me as google domains suggested to me and let him known I waiting for his response and impetus. in late night my kid brother sms back telling his paypal can’t remit me $60 I previously sent him ¥420 for conversion because paypal denies. I told him just sent my deposit back in alipay. I teased him I constantly putting money into business while he had been withdrawing money from his workshop to purchase real estate. I warned him someday my properties might surplus his. got back to bed, I can’t sleep but got up to check if he immediately sent my money back. after found the fund at its position, I launched to buy our 2 new domains on godaddy. its swift done. with these precious assets in hand, I felt surreal to acknowledge. I burned so many brains for them, identified their beauties in language correlation. I blamed myself in front of my son for my greediness but after all, Dad God, I’m so lucky to earn with my intelligence fast as finger tips. God dad, curb my passionate with domain and focus me on my enviable assets sustain and site building, ie. value mounting. bring me my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, and free me from greediness. thx dad, in this sober dawn and joyful after battle scene, I means salvage of settlement and peace of bliss.

Mar 29, 2017

last night I dreamt of a senior middle school student. he likely researched something and wrote quite something. I with my son then in front of their school informed another girl classmate of the hidden book of the boy. it likely a notebook of weapon or martial art, or fantasy novel. I also dreamt rechargeable batteries we bought dearly from taobao rather than amazon turns poor quality and totally out of usable. last night I went to bed earlier, for praying my kid brother remitting USD I entrusted him for conversion from ¥420 I badly squeezed from salary last week and sent him immediately. for he owning a mall workshop and possibly has USD corporate account. I will recharge our google voice with them, and hopefully if my brother raises his hand to some allowance, I will purchase my last domain, the only new unconventional LTD, .center. my heart beats for the domain inspires me after I found my blessed namespace with it. and I surely known how severely my economy dangerous. last night its warm as usual, but this morning it drizzles, sometimes with snowflakes flow around. this week I enjoyed so many meaningful videos, including movies online. my life so rich with borderless web. and started with this week, I aimless on my site building. I sometimes napped after breakfast and worked focused after 10am. every night I went to bed with thanksgiving. the dorm canteen more and more treats me graciously: my food in monthly boarding and lodging bundle turns richer and more delicious. my laundry deal with the working woman executes smoothly, as last week I paid her first time in time with my salary which near ¥3000. my credit debt to bankcomm lower to 7800CNY, hopefully I can renew my hosting plan with it after reset 4 months later. dad God, I really need a credit card to cope with trifle bills. grant me a credit card with foreign currency. bring me sooner my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, bring my son his real mother, and shelter our roof under starry sky with dreams and tears of spiritual inspirations. God, grant me tools I need for building new China Empire in new 21 Century. equip me financial independence to survive the coming brutal economic crisis in the world fallen.

Apr 10, 2017

dreamt of the family of my cousin, ie. husband of my mother’s niece. I once liked his 2nd daughter who was tall and slender. but long time works in farm worn out her hands which drove me away from her in my senior middle school summer vacation and never return. I saw her new family in dream. her dad, a communist cadre in his village, a selfish impetus driver for many children even complied others to abide one child policy, invented or bought to connect his family with his offspring’s family, and his properties with wire. the wire likely controlled digitally. I saw just dial “home to farm” and the 2 place linked and can communicate online. I still felt warm with the girl and her sisters and her child. then dreamt I made experiment, in which I put pencil core into a tiny tube and heated to melt it. when I saw it changed into liquid, just when I ready to fill in something with it, the power down. at the mean time I urgent to urine. I pee indoor before others returning to caught me in sight. almost peed and with caution of fire, I woke up. last week my family acquired another 2 precious domains, zuo.center and woga.me. zuo.center is my first and likely last unconventional TLD. most of newly added TLDs are expensive, but .center renewal is $20. the same amount with .me, which I promoted most to my son woz, hoping he regards woga.me for his video game hobby as himself invented. I told my son I contented with 21 domains before my business getting bigger, and I didn’t regret risks I taken in the purchase even more or less I felt my greediness in the making of namespace, claim of meaning and naming. I hope in a market, its normal to profit from intelligent property. after 3 days intensive works, I prepared publication sites for the 2 domains, inc google sites, zoho sites, blogger blogs, tumblrs, etc. I show my son webpage editing and publishment skill, hoping he enjoy freedom of cyberspace as I did. yesterday I ate delicacies in gathering woz dining out. he ordered his favorite sausage in Taiwanese franchise restaurant, Formosa pies. I also fed him mango I sliced large portions by fork and fruit knife. sometimes I wonder if my main treat is just eating. but God’s know I barely fed each normal day. God, dad, bring me sooner my Royal China. bring me my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, for better life and warmth of homage. grant us a spacier salary this month for our planned expenditure. thx, dad, for coming canteen breakfast.

Apr 9, 2017

dreamt first shared dorm with an once QRRS colleague who is a photographer. he is a gay in dream and spying me. anything of him will convey gay sensation when I touch them. then dream in a TV cuisine competition. I was a candidate and my dish too slippery to stand vegetables in decorative arrangement. I was in hurry and failed many times. then once my boss, QRRS cable TV chief editorial who died in mid age, pointed out the cause emotionlessly. when I almost gave up my works, I woke up and in anxious of visiting my son weekend on time. last week is a strange week testifying relation of my son woz and me, his dad. on Monday which also in lunar Mourning holiday we booked cinema as usual together. that day had been shifted a day for all PRC people gathering 3 days holiday for escape and adjust a weekend for workday. the disgusting convenience chasing hobby humiliates meaning of week from the bible, unlike US holidays, shown worldly profane of Communism Chinese. when I went over in time to fetch my son to cinema, he was absent while his mom tutored some students there as usual. I waited half hour till time didn’t permit waiting. I buzzed the grandma who is really an old fox, stubborn and canning, evasive when I ordered her sent my son to cinema directly. my son already told me he will be totally free when we booked tickets together. so my son forgot his timetable or his sinful mom or grandma tentatively assigned my son’s occupation with his pointless art class away from our scheduled pastime. when I arrived cinema and buzzed the grandma again, she still trying selling my son to postpone the movie. my son wanted to talk to me, but my rages out of control and I yelled him to come over at once. when they arrived, I at once beat my son while the grandma repeated that I was insane. I beat my son before the movie and during movie, we didn’t exchange anything while our back seat trying closer to us to tease us, likely official surveillance. on way to lunch out, I beat my son again for disappointed and humilitation, for his unable to administrate his life on his own. I scorned and beat him during lunch. after returned to his mom’s house, I fetched my missed a day dirty clothes after shower and left without entering the house. after I settled in dorm, my kid brother who almost blacklisted my phone, called in. he was informed by my son’s mom or grandma that my violence can bring me into asylum again if I exert it again on my son. I laughed and told him that they can do anything as they will, I’m not feared. my brother claim I turning odd, and I shouldn’t push my son so hard to American for here in China I should abide with its situation. I replied there are two way to learn after America, one way sending out richer Chinese to US, another way is bring US to China. in coming most of the week, my son kept muted when I buzzed him and sms him. I shifted our new Chinese phone from fiber optic internet bundle to him at the end of lunch and he promised will keep mobile phone reachable like an adult. even in the week I urgent to add backup phone to our 2 godaddy accounts. after 3 days including failed contacted godaddy support, I got thing done with synced sms log via ifttt I previously setup on the phone. on Saturday I lingered on bed lately to avoid boring and hard choice if I visit my son as usual. then my son sent me sms of verification code his phone received and I asked to transfer to me but denied times. I replied immediately that things done and asked if shower on Sunday as planned or plan B. my son didn’t response me graciously. I soon decided to visit him. it’s noon. I visited dorm canteen to fetch my washed clothes there, and borrow another ¥200 for gathering my son in dinning out together. when I entered the house, my son’s mom blocked the door and questioned in what privilege I frequent there. I didn’t reply and evade her into visit my son in his bedroom where he practicing e-piano. after they left for music class his mom arranged, I sorted my son’s nexus in English podcast’s companion. after they returned I tried awhile video game then my son dined out with me. now I can say storm of separation dissolved with consent of my son’s once under performance. he should be more independent, out of childish custody. God, dad, Friday night drizzle blessed us. now shinny morning sunshine covers my concerns with triumph. bring me sooner my Royal China, my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko. bring our better life in reach. grant us financial independent to broaden our cyberspace investment. allow us buy stylish pants with mobile pockets, and a camera for my desktop computer. pl resume my visa card and its credit limit sooner. thx God dad for all these years’ affirmative.

Mar 30, 2017

dreamt with a slim guy who help doing scientific experiments like astronaut. I roamed with him in front of a lab where just gained fund to launch research. I saw my friend won the contract to execute experiment with his physic manipulation. last night I finally checked in my son’s google domains account and found my only working credit card defied by google for region of PRC. so recharging our gvoice accounts impossible. I had to through godaddy to claim my new domain, my only new unconventional TLD, zuo.center. just before that near dusk I talked to my son in air that I can’t help clinching those namespace I concocted, I want to buy him a domain he likes and cultivates like his own mirage garden. I suggested woga.me as google domains suggested to me and let him known I waiting for his response and impetus. in late night my kid brother sms back telling his paypal can’t remit me $60 I previously sent him ¥420 for conversion because paypal denies. I told him just sent my deposit back in alipay. I teased him I constantly putting money into business while he had been withdrawing money from his workshop to purchase real estate. I warned him someday my properties might surplus his. got back to bed, I can’t sleep but got up to check if he immediately sent my money back. after found the fund at its position, I launched to buy our 2 new domains on godaddy. its swift done. with these precious assets in hand, I felt surreal to acknowledge. I burned so many brains for them, identified their beauties in language correlation. I blamed myself in front of my son for my greediness but after all, Dad God, I’m so lucky to earn with my intelligence fast as finger tips. God dad, curb my passionate with domain and focus me on my enviable assets sustain and site building, ie. value mounting. bring me my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, and free me from greediness. thx dad, in this sober dawn and joyful after battle scene, I means salvage of settlement and peace of bliss.

Mar 29, 2017

last night I dreamt of a senior middle school student. he likely researched something and wrote quite something. I with my son then in front of their school informed another girl classmate of the hidden book of the boy. it likely a notebook of weapon or martial art, or fantasy novel. I also dreamt rechargeable batteries we bought dearly from taobao rather than amazon turns poor quality and totally out of usable. last night I went to bed earlier, for praying my kid brother remitting USD I entrusted him for conversion from ¥420 I badly squeezed from salary last week and sent him immediately. for he owning a mall workshop and possibly has USD corporate account. I will recharge our google voice with them, and hopefully if my brother raises his hand to some allowance, I will purchase my last domain, the only new unconventional LTD, .center. my heart beats for the domain inspires me after I found my blessed namespace with it. and I surely known how severely my economy dangerous. last night its warm as usual, but this morning it drizzles, sometimes with snowflakes flow around. this week I enjoyed so many meaningful videos, including movies online. my life so rich with borderless web. and started with this week, I aimless on my site building. I sometimes napped after breakfast and worked focused after 10am. every night I went to bed with thanksgiving. the dorm canteen more and more treats me graciously: my food in monthly boarding and lodging bundle turns richer and more delicious. my laundry deal with the working woman executes smoothly, as last week I paid her first time in time with my salary which near ¥3000. my credit debt to bankcomm lower to 7800CNY, hopefully I can renew my hosting plan with it after reset 4 months later. dad God, I really need a credit card to cope with trifle bills. grant me a credit card with foreign currency. bring me sooner my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, bring my son his real mother, and shelter our roof under starry sky with dreams and tears of spiritual inspirations. God, grant me tools I need for building new China Empire in new 21 Century. equip me financial independence to survive the coming brutal economic crisis in the world fallen.

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Mar 18, 2017

at first dreamt of Emma Watson whose private photos leaked on web. I enjoy amazing sex with her. then dreamt I arrange my son woz to be trained by instrumental music under old traditional musician likely from QRRS art troupe which includes an old man and woman each. then in Mao’s era he or we sent to western China to re-educate. we passed through dangerous Yellow River which threaten its bank area. we arrived northwestern China and planted a tree from our hometown. then dreamt I trained my son or myself badminton. I long time easily mimic serving but response speed far from satisfying when dealing or rebound. in dream I wonder if I just lack boring but heavy exercises or real expertise coached. this week again especially busy. I setup google authenticator app for our frequent google accounts 2 step verification. for sms verification less convenient and less secure in which each time informs PRC surveillance my logon. GFW heavily blocked my operation first place, once lagged me more than half hour to load an authentication code page, forced me to retreat mid way for dinner. but next day I did it again without pains. yesterday dabbog.com backend web app updated by godaddy hosting automatically, but it broke and halt the site. when I tried to fix it, I again heavily blocked. loading loops, irresponsible webpage, etc. I left its breakdown open possible vulnerable well known and went jog after dinner. in the night after dinner, I fixed it with less human pests, while again my restored sites less accessible on my dorm internet, but web proxy testifies its soundness. my facing dorm room has new residents. a young guy frequently loose its door and shown himself on the deeper bed busy in the leaking light. I doubting if he welcome visitors or exchange of neighborhood, or just convenient to spy me. but my internet these days actually under harsher surveillance and intervenes amid. but this week not all sad, I sorted our google voice assets and prepared to make good use of them. I deploy more google or google apps accounts for maintain their gvoice in use. now salary will arrive days, God dad, grant me freedom to recharge our accounts for smooth operative. grant me financial freedom for coming laundry bill to woman in dorm canteen, ¥200. I also badly need trousers with mobile pocket for my son and my own. dad God, godaddy hosting plan soon needs renewal. and I usually penniless before year end bonus. get me out of the dangerous situation, dad God, bring my cyberspace startup with my other concerns peacefully onto faezrland, our vested land from my ancestor under Holy. bring it with bliss and breeze.

Mar 11, 2017

first dreamt in highly dense space, human crowd with dense snakes. those baby snakes in every atom of air, or liquid, like spray. that’s quite shockingly frightening. they didn’t bite but terrifying. then dreamt my son and his mom’s family. I likely returned from long journey and urged his mom to restore normal life. the woman and her mom recognized our previous marriage hopelessly sank. they arranged extraordinary a meal to farewell. when I prepare tea, I found many large strong black ants busy moving in the jar neck. its again such a shocking scene I almost lose clinch to the jar. they all likely concerns the first time handover of my laundry deal with dorm canteen woman. last week when I visited my son and brought him to shower in public shared bathroom, I found my dirty clothes a week there was not washed. the small woman several times threatened not to wash my clothes even I offered her monthly ¥150 many months but recently due to credit crisis I asked permission to indebted her. so this time I thought ripe to be more independent. I informed my son the new expense and he agreed. returned to dorm, I headed to dorm canteen where the woman in charge of preparing food materials right there for ordering. I discussed the possibility to pay her to wash my clothes. she first defied, with encouragement from the executive woman, she accept my proposal of increased ¥50 to ¥200/month. last Friday dusk, before I dined there, the executive woman fetched me the washed clothes, our first deal sealed, except my payment. for penniless, I asked the woman loan me ¥200 for visiting my son weekends. then she told me my recent months bill with canteen didn’t settle, for my kid brother promised to pay remote instead of me in his last year’s visit now evaded by him. I previously called him to pay my online shopping but my phone number likely blacklisted and redirected. so I never knew what’s going on with him. the woman said she sms my brother but never responded. I told her I visioned I lost my brother’s aid but I never equipped financially to save the situation, so I didn’t probe my due payment in canteen any more. the woman disliked my answer so I promised will call my brother in the night. on jogging after dinner, I buzzed my 3rd elder sister and hope she check our kid brother’s status, she accepted the task. when I went to toilet for toothbrush hours later, I saw the canteen worker woman washing there. I told her I will pay her as soon as I get my salary this month, ie. 2 weeks later. she replied no hurry cordially. God dad, I know it will be OK after all, but the situation now really draining. this week I also try web tutorial to setup selective vpn routing to escape PRC main sites’ discriminating foreign ips, but so far failed. in so many programs I benefited from online communities discussions, now I have to cope it on my own for solution. I tried to contact vpn support team but out of their service scope and denied help. I also contact godaddy PRC office girl last time helped me with discount, for unknown renewal price increase, evasive conversations sucks in grudge. this week makes me sad when I last night reviewed it, but also affirm my determination to sit with them, those deny of service, and breakthrough on my own. God dad, bring me sooner my Royal China to sustain my cultivation here, bring me my new family and hope of stepping out of adversity here. bring me learning ability in every stages in my life. bring me my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, to better my children’s life. in a few hours I will visit my son, in your mercy our joys will double.

Mar 2, 2017

dreamt of genius. dreamt my elder brothers, hometown folks, once leaders in QRRS, all turned old. I passed them who playing Majiang together and felt sad. then myself turns older and unbearable intelligent work. then a cheap soul like CCP cadre invents sculpturing on glass with color, replace paint on it manuscript or oil print. its merit is clear and vivid in 3D, but cost is material wasted once solid inscribed, not reusable. I wondered CCP administrative manner, reckless and environment unfriendly. then dream the inventor, a guy super genius: he needn’t backup hardware settings, like I backup system images and important data times and relentlessly, he talks directly to hardware binary likes operates software in GUI. later he talked directly to a goat, let it be friend with me and my son. the goat hears and got it. yesterday woz’s new trousers I ordered on taobao.com, for redeem my guilty in scorning him for no due respect of new broadband internet I installed him, arrived, for its deliverer, yto.com, well organized in its arena, really speedy. but what we demand, pocket for cellphone, not exists on the trousers, instead, a fake pocket without depth but just a zip for decoration. my son complained carrying smartphone in his jacket pocket can be clogging, and loathes to bring a new cheaper Chinese cellphone I prepared him all day long. returned to dorm, I tried to contact the taobao vendor. the site, taobao.com, quite discriminates its web service users, even punishing non client end app users, from geographic restriction to frequently failing web login or web im whose protocol solely supports itself. I switched 3 computers, from chromeos to android to windows, its im quits on all 3 platforms while previously it works sometimes. I lately find the vendor’s mobile phone and settled replacing with new one our required pocket satisfied. I really need a cellphone pocketed trousers prices ¥80, too, but we just can’t afford it now even its beneficence obvious and goodness predicts. in the night I watched a youtube documentary on world economic bubble burst emerging. that reminds my vision, Christian contrasts other poverty pestered world like PRC nowadays, or even total bankrupt wasteland, esp Islamic area, their competition lasts thousand years. government bailout grows larger and severer, esp Communist bureaucratic central predating system propagates its efficiency among fooled mouths decades smothering, but America has to cope with challenges from cheap human society’s crowd, the bubble of wastes, esp eastern Asia and Islamic states. its time to show who is the chosen. now time for Trump to discipline US and get rid of cheap mob’s siege. time for beautiful new One world of Christian, around Israel. time to manifest the world developmental power is not cheap human cattle’s clouds, nor cheap dictation in Communism, nor terrorist Muslim. only Christian the life of prosperous, the source of plenty, the due grace God grants. time to clean the planet with AI and robots, time to rid earth off cheap human beings and beast alike terrorist, both too rampant and waste of land and air. this is new mission for Trump, also mission of my Royal China of China Empire reset ahead then lasting 1109 years in democracy and capitalism. this is salvage and gospel of the Son.

Feb 28, 2017

At first I lingered gladly in tiny houses, likely with my 2nd elder sister, likely in Japan. then found one of my 3 smartphones missing. in panic I searched everywhere. then using its GPS location found the stealer address. the 2 phone number is mathematical linked: sim card 1 number is added to number 2 card. I really can’t afford losing them. then many details on exact secret on the phones and their numbers. just in panic I woke up and recognized in reality my phones all on my desk intact. back to dream I still felt the panic painful. yesterday is fruitful, I published monthly blog release. I watched amazon TV and close watch small woman unstable emotionally broke her husband career and her own life which is totally reckless and hopeless in ruins. I wondered bitch in my life, my son’s mom, desperate to hurt, means what for her destiny. the tiny dog steps by steps went insane. my son after a day didn’t enable his indoor WIFI, likely under his mad mother’s ban. last week I got a surprising gain from QRRS, my once and long time employer, ¥1000. I immediately renew woz’s 8 domains with it, left 3 expensive domains for next renewal will costs near ¥2000. God, dad, its a bit dearer since last year, but godaddy China office girl actually privileged me by contacting me and helping me finish the order with coupon unavailable public. dad God, please allow us owning our namespace as family heritage lasting millenniums. I want share them with my offspring! grant us financial freedom to pay the domain registrar. and please grant us to keep our amazon associate account. we had been ditched once for poor websites traffic. I had to mend all amazon ad code among my sites to link with our new trackID. that’s too boring and heavy load to sustain. grant us minimum interactive rate amazon requires to sustain our membership of its ad associate. dad God, remove us blockage the small bitch laid between my son and me. show my son, woz, the future world he pivots. bring me sooner my Royal China to extinguish hatred rage, rip us off the dirty family of my son’s mom and herself. put us in sanctuary of holy mercy, and sole independence under the dome without divided. thx for the peace in the morning, God.



{February 27, 2017}   ready for spring 2017.

Feb 27, 2017

dreamt 2 or 3 my privileged senior middle school alumni, Zhu Zehua, who’s technical subjects usually score quite high, and some others long time no see. we corporate and compete to produce rebellion weapons. we also compete intelligently. we passed my hometown dam, spring well with crowd among which we escape enemy’s hunting. this week a bit sad. gay in neighbor dorm room desperate stalks me. surveillances my usage of toilet and follows to shit and leave it unflushed. the sickened soul pretends coughing for quite some time and he should dies in illness. my son’s mom, the small bitch also tried her best to challenge me. they mimic my son’s monthly cinema day and invited her mom to go cinema the night before my gathering day with my son. all her knowledge is outdated and poor quality but still she day by day gathering pupils at her house for tuition. one of her girl friend whose father lent me camera when my son given birth at hospital found some old photos of my son in the hospital agrees to send me those precious photos but now hold back by the bitch, son’s mom, for a bargain. my son yesterday irritated me and I had to give him a lesson. we previously agreed that our new broadband was a bliss holy and we should make good usage. but on Sunday when I went to see him, he even didn’t power on broadband router in his house, but just reading paper book of rephrased Chinese classic, A Dream of RED Mansions. I went mad with his ignorance. I show brutal violent threat and scorned him for near half hour in cause of his failing VPN and system update. I didn’t mean hurts but remind him his work, his future indispensable with high tech including internet, while his mom and his grandma actually not equipped it, for their cheap work mainly related with primitive tools. my son show resolve when we went for lunch and shower, even after I bought him extra fruits. on way returning to my dorm, I pray God to let it the hard time for us to defeat, to slaughter our enemies by hand and will. I beg Holy rewards us thicker after the adversity and allow us to stick out of the dark curtain and smile. in the night I felt guilty upon my son, and boring and sad for shopping online. I bought my son a spring trousers with cellphone pocket. I also ordered myself one but run out of money. so I entreated my kid brother to pay. but the contemptible man enlist my phone number into his blacklist to evade confrontation with me. God, let me remember the revengeful shame sinful people insult us, the glorious One. bring me sooner my Royal China to sustain the eastern Asia. bring me sooner Asoh Yukiko, my Crowned Queen from Japan for peace among our heritage, our once more glory cover half pacific ocean. grant us memories of retaliation.

Feb 16, 2017

the day before yesterday I worked overnight. then yesterday I felt inspiration in ladies fulfilled my heart. I admire them so much, and sympathetic to their pleasure seeking and concerns while none of them lives in my life in past decade. in the night I dreamt first played with kids. then among a kindergarten, I with my men with shotguns played with kids crossword puzzle. we shoot to answer. then I likely a royal captain of firearm brigade, operated them in war field where fire distance matters. after wake up I wonder the small figure in dream is Napoleon, who relentless with war fire till saw his own failure and death after challenge Russian, the iced land. I saw relentless love attempts for his concerned, esp women in his life, in prescribed relief of embrace of death against doomed premature failure. I felt dizzy after morning alarm. even breakfast in canteen is satisfying, I still trying finding nap after settle here my workload. last afternoon bankcomm clearance crew buzzed in, show their interest to interview. there is nothing new in their probation. they impotently demanded me return at once my credit debt of ・10000 while It clearly out of possibility in my situation, in which recent 3 months steadily returning, ・2000 paid every salary day. in the mid after found their only aim is to intimidate me, I claimed they incapable to negotiate with me, for there is nothing valuable or granting policy in their holding card, so I arbitrarily quit the conversation. my work space just resumed, I enjoyed my favorite Chinese podcasts, and Amazon prime video in the rest of the day. God dad, last Monday after my ICBC monthly credit statement revealed ・700 left under account, I immediately renew zhone 19th domain, billingzhu.com for my 2nd son, to its longest life span, 5 years for ・511. dad God, there is only one thing unfinished in 2016 as annual, woz’s 12 domains renewal. grant us financial freedom to do the job. bring me sooner my Royal China to sustain my offspring. bring Asoh Yukiko, my Crowned Queen from Japan, to home my new family. bring 2017 new monument for ever growing mission to revitalize eastern Asia, for the grace and persistent commitment of Chinese and Japanese for thousand years forged in Ming Dynasty under my ancestor’s title, Zhu’s. thx dad God, for the snowing night yesterday and this morning so quiet in sober.

Feb 10, 2017

dreamt of complicated time space pair. after 2 busy days at dorm, heat gathered in central China gradually melt. my nose ran water a lot, and shit softly, too. last night I perceived erotic dream drove by full sperms, but in fact I didn’t wet last night. rather, in dream I got insight of time-space tangle. I saw a dynasty broke down and lots of strange behaviors, like soldier don’t know who to obey, court women don’t know how to survive in riot era. I saw my Nankai alumni went class while I drift wild. I saw when time dissolves, events in space can be floating around, losing their sequence. the result and the cause in different time location can’t be replaced, otherwise there will be forecast, in time travel paradox. these days hard economy again pestered me. I only gain a much shrinked ・3000 in 2016 as year end bonus from QRRS, my once and long time employer, comparing near ・7000 in 2015. a policy gain, aid for poor staff, ・1000 offered to me by labor union. I handed over to dorm canteen at once, and next day I had to borrow ・200 again for living expense. now I have debt ・1000 to local contacts, and my anual renewal of zhone domains yet complete. ・2000 will do the job like a breeze. then again every month I will fight for dinning out twice a week with my son woz for gathering, and my pills will add another ・100. in the 3rd hometown flight tour, I almost broke up with my kid brother who contempts me and cheats me into endless waiting his aid. now my salary, at its best around ・3000, barely afford our lifestyle including credit debt penalty. but, God, how I lucky in such failing economy maintaining such a small burden of investment! and watch the grand produce of my endeavour and willful. God, dad, I see so many affirmatives in holy message. please firmly attach me onto faith of Christian. bring me sooner my Royal China to fasten the falling treasure. bring me Asoh Yukiko to put together the Empire dream and stipulation. grant me financial independence to safeguard our startup so strong online.

Jan 31, 2017

the night before yesterday I gave my son a lesson, for he too open and vulnerable upon cheap offers. this night I felt blessed when we ready to sleep. I first dreamt in art college saw many students and computers running a software likely robohelp or tin?in. its a series tools including 3d modeling, illustration, and presentation. in dream I felt glad to fetch my pastime skill and sharpen them. I felt that would more or less let me more energetic. then in my hometown village, facing neighbor village there are 2 modern office malls where once rice field. many small companies rent space there and share introduction multimedia, project management or progress report online there. I still dwelling on the robohelp and thought about app as service, or the functions of presentation. I tried hard to sync our data or put our running data into the app. the detail of program very lengthy in dream, even cross the intervene of getting up to pee. 2 days ago I finally got informed that our train ticket booked, after more than 60000 times bidding online by our travel agency, ctrip.com. so last unease resolved and we really needn’t hurry, just as holy affirmed. my son once repulsive upon my teasing infant of my nephew’s, a 16 month old boy, after I told him why I glad to help infant with empowering them with full heart support, he forgave me and I thankful for his considerate. his willful pal, the grandson of my 2nd elder sister, also quit hijacking my son with all flattery. I also openly talked about fault of my 2nd elder sister whose family less attractive and colder in heart, with her husband and daughter-in-law. the daughter-in-law is a slim tall woman with adorable configure and I tried to help her when she loathe to chores. I hope they don’t pitfall like some of my relatives. after all, we are family from my passed grand father, God in heaven now. this is a sunny morning with clouds. hopeful it will more shiny later. God, dad, bring me sooner my Royal China to home my offspring, to guest my concerned. bring me financial independence to liberate some of my relatives trapped in wrong idea and habit. grant me adequate fund to renew our domains, the last task unfilled upon new year 2017.



{January 27, 2017}   with 2017 rejoiced.

Jan 27, 2017

last night woke up earlier then dwelling in dreams. first dreamt in zoo with dearest son, woz. 2 cheap girls recklessly open cage of tiger and let it at large. we rushed to evade and scattered. when I returned near zoo and found tiger caught woz and indecisively tore his clothes. in terror I scream for zoo manager’s help. when he in sight and running closer, I approached the tiger and woke up. I timely noted it on my mobile. then dreamt an OCR software’s advertisement on media. I was more or less familiar with pirate warez once, so I’m sure I will get a copy of the tool. I felt glad with it I can turn some Chinese textbook and its tests digitally for woz’s exercise. then all dreams about flying, with a delegation of school teachers likely in vacation tour. I can fly without any voyage, and use it to challenge barrage around me. this is a pale morning and eve of lunar new year. my returning train ticket still pending while brokerage already handed over. woz gained about ï¿¥2100 pocket money from his hometown relatives. I didn’t send out any gift money, including my newly married nephew. but I told him my startup and hard economy and promised will help him in future when my situation better. yesterday is the turning day of our vacation here, half elapsed. we made nice demonstration to country guys about steam online games to larger LED, chromecast mirror screen, English online videos. our poor dell notebook almost broke down after heavily load of video gaming, in frequent freeze now. I sincerely best wishes to my relatives here, hoping someday I can improve their lives. they already saw satisfactions in the decade when most nephews built their families. God dad, bring me sooner my Royal China to my larger family, for my future offspring. bring me Asoh Yukiko for glory of regal affair. grant us financial freedom to support my online startup.

Jan 25, 2017

first dreamt inspecting a girl secretary of Communist Youth league. she later in charge of a business owned by CCYL, then the business turns in property of girl her own. then dreamt being an India school boy. he studied diligently and guessed or cheated to know exam’s topic so scores highest. the topic likely about self-restrain, in Chinese in dream exactly “纲åä¼æ»¡”. his mom and sister celebrate his performance. his school dean who usually stern but now also welcomes him warmly. the boy gladly goes shopping with award, a check. this morning I woke up by the dream and made memo on my mobile. then I fell asleep again till my son got up. my elder sister asked us stay for celebrating lunar new year especially. my nephew came from my hometown village to invite our visit but I defied it for I felt vengeful against my brothers, esp my kid brother who made us harder when he had to aid me meanly. so I decisively evade him and his family, including the village, Zhudajiu where my 2 elder brothers didn’t extend helping hand during my credit debt crisis last year. among the relatives and rich meal I abrupt left to my younger elder sister’s house to blog. here my 2 nephews also hurry to downtown market. my dearest son, woz, aside me with his pc games. lunar new year holiday can be boring, for lunar harvest season doesn’t exist nowadays. I just too far from any celebration in my family affair, nor regal affair. with additional ï¿¥300 in this salary from QRRS, I equipped my family amazon prime another year, but nowhere to find fund to renew another 12 zhone domains esp. under woz’s title. God, dad, pl allow me finishing last todo annually in this month. let 2017 anxious free and firm business as seeds soiled. bring me sooner my Royal China to house my beloved, my children. bring Asoh Yukiko when we still breed. grant us financial independence and ability to see through adversity. thx dad.

Jan 21, 2017

dreamt siblings competition in economy. mafia tried to control state owned properties and bidding for merger. I was threatened not to bid but managed to, among my relatives influence. the flight toward hometown esp. smooth, all my unease evaporated after a night and a day’s on way. its my first time brought a luggage and I had to ask stewardess where to fetch it back. my son grows more confident in the journey with flight. our neighbor seat was likely a graduate girl, we made nice chats. we only had ï¿¥500 budget for on road cost, and it did cover, including taxi to my sister’s house in a town, our destiny. these days a nephew’s wedding in preparing, for the bride’s house too far, in neighbor province, so she will move to hotel in the county’s capital in advance. tomorrow will be the wedding ceremony holds locally. our returning voyage still pending, for the train ticket too scarce to buy. we paid Ctrip.com to hunt for us, and it monitored more than 500000 times and still going. the town’s business mostly cement, whose pollution quite severe. but today is second sunny day since our settlement and sunniest one so far. the 2 sons of my sister each has a car. their house newly furnished. I even already looking forward to return while my son still find funs here. all equipment we brought with us works well here, allowing woz to demonstrate online games with gamepads, mobile games chromecast to large LCD. hope he find friends here. God dad, we still have 12 domains to renew, pl grant us space to execute it. bring me sooner my Royal China to host our friends and relatives in glories. bring my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, for my family and children. thx, dad.

Jan 12, 2017

dreamt of my once campus alumnus, in surname Shi. he was one of 2 schoolmates helped me when I first settled in Qiqihar thousand miles from my hometown after graduation. in dream his house near mountain and open. at first I thought its scenery. then I anxious about safety. Shi first denied problem then gradually admitted it. his only elder sister then joined conversation, reviewed gunned robberies, as well as wild mountain predators, together their brutality hurt their family and young memories in feeble. then I review our old house also just under and inward 2 mountains’ junction and kept so well by my grand dad, warm, vivid and self-relies. in reality when I first settled in Qiqihar and visited Shi’s house, his house is a small slum among shabby northern China normal residential area. toilet was near mile away and backyard least spacey. but after nearly 2 decades, many slums turned into skyscrapers here and I don’t know where is Shi and his old family now. these weeks preparing hometown tour 3rd with woz, dearest son. I previously severe concerned if my credit debt deprives me of airline, but narrowly I got our flight ticket in a mid Monday night. my kid brother tried his best to sell poverty, claiming my sister can’t afford our flights but under my emphasis promised ï¿¥5000 from my sister arrived in 2 times remission my failing kid brother loathed to complete. we got a flight toward hometown while return voyage is train whose ticket paid but still in hunting by ctrip.com, a Chinese mainstream travel agency, due to PRC cheap policy said to protect the poor while in fact lots of brokers profit from the scarce of train ticket out from saturated market. my alipay also once strangely locked me out of payment, till called its support crew to fix it. recently I mostly unease if my payment method totally freezed but so far attests I at large with my assets. nevertheless, with remaining Chinese Yuan, I equipped myself another domain, billingzhu.com for my future new family member perceives in holy message. soon after I gained it from godaddy.com it strangely deleted from my account. after spent near half day desperately resuming it, I had to call godaddy support but found unknown deletion likely beyond my intentionality. and PRC tightens law against personal domain ownership esp of overseas, restricting ISP within its sovereign from support. God, reckless dictator in sinking PRC desperate clinging to my portal online. where is the barked tree tall enough for voice of holy bliss, voice of hope in destructive nation like China under CCP seizure? bring me sooner my Royal China to extinguish sickened tyrant in PRC falling day by day in fear and hatred. bring me sooner my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, and our happy journey to central China, our hometown, in gathering our relatives in lunar new year 2017. grant us free web and steady investment on our cyberspace startup. thx, dad God.

Dec 29, 2016

first dreamt Pony Ma, founder of tencent.com, lives our neighbor. when I leaving my house topless, he and his parents just returning home and caught astonished. I explained I was in active art performance after found myself fully naked. then dreamt among kids. I esp cared a little girl likely a Tibetan. then with my kid traveling in delegation of my once colleagues of QRRS cable TV station. my kid creative and rushes to package and seats for the bus when we leaving a mountain village, just like myself unsettled for tour coming. this week barely looking forward to new year end bonus from my once and long time employer, QRRS. last salary brought me ï¿¥3100, merely covered credit debt clearance monthly, 2000rmb. now I had several small bill to write off, inc tea subscription, treating neighbor kid for his lent us internet during our switching to fiber optic from PPPOE dialing, monthly cinema with woz, Taiwanese restaurant Formosa membership recharge, keep alive several debit accounts after annual fee charges, groupon showers, etc. I already had 2 local debtee with debt 1100rmb, and my web assets didn’t fully renew, esp small cost but largely rewards, like amazon prime, localphone rental. I almost can’t live without them. zhone’s 12 domains under woz, my dearest son’s title, also needs renewal which nearly costs $250. coming new year holiday also renders additional expense for dorm canteen then will out of service. I have to feed myself and treat my son in gatherings in the period. devil in dorm still pesters me, even more shamelessly and desperate. they frequently cut me offline when I enjoy passive listening or watching, ie. no my input on computer, trying to entangle me in cheap under espionage. they also deprive me off due caliber of web traffic capacity, results in badly lagging video and webpage loading loop at rate near 0 bps. they setup spare no effort to profane my solo and ruin my pleasure among cyberspace community but only reveal their ugly bloody mouth barking upon wrong tree. my dorm’s window wall leaked, loose with many ashes broken down. I invited dorm director, a young tall and beautiful woman, to inspect if it turns dangerous. but she brought 2 technicians and they claimed well around. I still don’t believe in. I want change to another dorm room well in shape and to evade the dark and poisonous souls sieged my current dorm, esp the spitting and cough pretending cow in facing neighbor. my current residential situation likely predefined before my move in, doomed to frustrate me and intimidate me into sad silence among criminal and sicken. they hated my brilliant website long enough. God, dad, bring me sooner my Royal China to vitalize my mission so far so joyful to discipline Chinese in new millennium for future gracious survival, for greater transformation of its people and culture sound and independent. bring my son and myself via airline to our hometown in 3rd journey out of anxiety. grant me independent finance to maintain our web investment and growth of presence online.
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Dec 20, 2016

dreamt detailedly about Japanese chore machine. there are 4 or 5 cabins, with different functions, like washing clothes, shower, put on clothes, sleeping, massage, etc. each item has checkout or deduction, financial log function. shower and put on clothes let me lingered a lot. clothing charges 198 Japanese Yen. I even can’t leave but trying more and more till penniless. they are all 360 rotatable, around human body inside. putting on clothes let you extending arms and shift your waist to slide into clothes with string direction. it even can be erotic. I later anxious if showering robot including smart toilet cover function. its a silent Tuesday morning. since Monday morning hoarfrost appeared on trees. salary day coming and I put on so much hopes. next month I will book airline and railway for our hometown tour, among rumors that during lunar spring festival holiday train ticket will be scarce. last Friday night my son, woz, Hope of China, ported a night in my dorm. recent credit debt crisis drove me away from caring his living, so many occasions I asked why he always put on his school uniform which is boring even in weekends, he didn’t reply. I thought his mom or the grandma would buy him more or less clothes in my hard time. but they never. in the night when we lately went to bed, I found my son slept with an old style cotton-padded trousers, likely the trousers too tight to take off, my anger roused thick. I know at the moment his sinful mother never bought him new clothes. I tried to pacify myself but can’t. so I got up and ordered 2 winter trousers and 2 pants for being stylish my son deserves. I asked my kid brother to pay instead of me, for my only reservoir in ABC bank didn’t bundle with mobile number and can’t spend online. so next morning I brought my son on way returning his mom’s house visit ABC bank and settled it. just when I preparing to pay via alipay, I found my order already paid, likely by my brother. so I additionally bought my son a pair of winter shoes on my own. I asked my son let me know next time when something needed. God, dad, what a misery my son was once! what a affirmative my role as a proud dad meaningful! dad God, never let that happen again, never deprive me from support my son’s living! bring me sooner my Royal China to sustain Chinese children, China wet and land! bring me sooner my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, to improve my son’s standard. in coming year end fulfill us with due joys and anxious free. grant us a flight tour for better means of travel and timespace.

Dec 12, 2016

dreamt of Jack Ma or alike. dreamt I was in relocation. then enrolled by a company like Alibaba.com. I found my colleagues in confidence to buy its stock shares at high price, near $21. then I felt the company boosting. then Ma came to interview us, while I busy with reading its finance report or company establishment. Ma had no place to sit down, for the only seat among my roommates occupied by me. after found that I calmly shift the stool to Ma. its a facing lake ground house, among other flat houses which now Alibaba’s warehouse and delivery center. there were lots of flies with silver coat clouding in air when I reading the document. Ma offers our department deduction rate 12.3.4.12%, which quite generous. he likes leisure and strategy, grow up from wealthy southeastern China. last weekend I brought my son, woz, Hope of China, going cinema. we watched Japanese animation “Your name”, which currently records largest box office revenue. its a touching story, reminds me of my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko. woz complained too soon after last month’s cinema. he upset by his internet unaccessible, for his mom attempting switch another ISP, replacing cable modem with fiber Optic cable while the telcom claimed currently no channel available and had to wait for next upgrade of capacity on its hardware. however, we managed to borrow neighbor’s internet to play his favorite game, “garden warfare 2”. his cold lasts 2 weeks and no recovery soon. his cough lets me anxious. I tried to hold him longer showered yesterday in hotter water even he complained burning, hoping the heat drives away more or less his cold. God, dad, in your bliss I didn’t visit hospital for more than a decade, share my fitness with my dearest son, bring him more exercises and sports trains. spare his sight from intensive android games. grant his proud dad to equip him a pair of new shoes before our hometown journey 3rd, and clothes update via his cousin’s online shop. God dad, bare us even in poverty and illness, unshakeable joy of hope and faith. bring me sooner my Royal China to uphold my Empire of China in 1109 years ahead, far more stable and concrete sovereign with neighbor Japan, and America. Grant us financial independence in coming salary. thx Dad.

Dec 8, 2016

recent unsettled matters leads me less blogging. this dawn dreamt my broken bromance with my Tibet artist friend, Bempa Chungdak. I saw in his domineer friend, another artist when we made friend in Tianjin where they studied art and craft design in Tianjin art college. in the bossy friend, Li, or my once department leader in QRRS, Sun, his house with his family, ie. his wife and only child. I waited Bempa spare his time for me, while he silently co-works with his partner, later shift to a workshop and closed the door behind. I saw their sculpture and other works, till they open the door again and returned to the lounge. Bempa still kept me muted, can’t left his pal away. so I bitterly left, knowing our bromance fades forever, likes what I have now in reality. these days coming lunar new year festival holiday enthusiasm haunted me a lot, I longing for 3rd flight with my son, woz, to our hometown. my 2 elder sisters both asked me to come in gathering to spend the largest festival among Chinese. and my youngest elder sister’s little son will hold wedding ceremony then. my sister promised offering us ¥5000 for flight and travel. my son likes air travel very much. but my credit debt will refrains us from modern and elegant voyage inc airline, according rumor on PRC’s finishing civil solicitous credit system, even the cost between airline and railway almost ignorable. my acide kid brother tentatively advised us to pick railway which is dirty, exhausting and slow, according his research there is a straight line between Qiqihar and Wuxue, our hometown. he had tried most means to hurt me, lower promised aid monthly, cheatingly evaded returning my credit cards he took away. there must be hidden iron curtain in his living sphere. even last month salary casually incresed to ¥5000, the department cashier woman attempted to coerce me into obedient and idiotly satisfied. I have more renewal online to pay while my only working credit card diluted its facility to zero. God, dad, improve me higher to see safety of my properties, shift me anxiousless from uncertainty of my unclaimed sovereign. dad God, bring me sooner my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, and my Royal China. bring us home and palace for settlement. grant us an enjoyable journey in woz’s winter vacation, and workable credit for spanning things network in our living standard.

Nov 26, 2016

first dreamt with my youngest elder sister, I saw my prelife and felt creepy. then my past dad appeared and let me clean my ear. with help of tool, I managed dug out a ball of earwax. then barely with finger I dragged 2 large slices of earwax out, each the size of main palm, like meat slice or vegetable ones. I felt glad and told my son’s mom, who also glad and our relation likely resume to its warm intimacy. I loathed to that backward and woke up, still felt left ear clearer and sharper actually. past week a bit messy for my web assets need renewal while sinking PRC desperate blocked it. thx God, my icbc credit debt right cleared and the credit card resumed to normal status, after 2 visits the largest bank in PRC to unlock strange freeze which defies several tries its clerks attempted on routine counter. still the credit quota is zero. I was suggested to deposit before paying with it, like a debit card. most needed USD account took another visit to the HQ to unlock, again with zero quota. I then tried to pay my USD shopping via paypal which can handle currency conversion automatically, but this time paypal strangely defied my logon. changed many times password I still can’t logon via vpn. so I buzzed its Beijing office and cordially resolved it. but again strangely paypal declined my payment to amazon, google, godaddy even my PRC account fund enough, and previously never fail. its just freak out. then I gave up and directly switch to alipay, largest e-payment tool in PRC, and succeeded. God, dad, unclear my future web portal will survive, but God, mercy in your fortitude of my publication based on free service like google blogspot, zoho sites, etc which is abundant. grant us 3rd flight tour to my hometown with woz, dearest son. bring me sooner my Royal China to sustain the prosperous of Asia under discipline. bring me year end bonus to enrich the celebration of new 2017.



{November 16, 2016}   sinful PRC blocking me financially.

Nov 16, 2016

first dreamt of taming lion. my once leader in QRRS, deputy CCP cadre Zhou Kaiming, or my once colleague in QRRS cable station, Sun Feng, demonstrated how to constantly padding lion’s body’s edge and hummed short syllable to pacify the large cat. then on my own I started to interactive with lion, including massage lion’s toes, even trying using Chinese needle to acupuncture to comfort it. it’s terrifying to let lion accept you, at least in dream I even in the end still felt intimidating. then dreamt with my classmates, which mixing my university and senior middle school alumni, in a march of experience. everybody has a role, like monitor, flagger, propagation, etc, while I was in charge of stamp, ie. official verification. we roamed times on the same road, for boring orthodox drives anyone away. when finally experiment lesson started in a classroom, I was chosen by the monitor to dissect something. I did but disgusted to wake up. this week I thrilled by coming unfreeze of my 2 icbc card, a debit salary card and a credit card. it turns out neither succeed. I visited icbc HQ twice but still in clouds who freezed my salary, now that icbc clerks all claimed they didn’t. its credit first time so said unlocked by the card department director and let me wait a day to use, which is a fake claim. after failed to shop online with it, I buzzed icbc hotline and told unfreeze a locked credit account takes application, so I immediately entrust him to apply for me. the agent did and asked me wait for another 3 or 5 days. but next day, Monday this week, icbc local branch called me to confirm fee of less than ï¿¥100 taken from me before resume my credit card, I admited at once. next day I tried again to shop with the credit, but after twice failures sadly found my credit quota decreased from original ï¿¥10000 to zero. I even didn’t know a credit card with 0 credit is of any usage. so I buzzed the HQ card department director, he advised to apply to icbc national HQ, while the latter refutes to its local branch. in the loophole I decided to visit the clearance center of icbc Qiqihar as the phone bank receptionist tipped, but the its office location outdated and removed. returned to local HQ, the card department director suggested me deposit in its credit before shopping via it, like using it as a debit, to win the bank over again for credit. I tried to argue with him my credibility, my cyberspace startup, but seemingly defying me credit is order from higher official and undebatable. so 2nd visit icbc Qiqihar HQ fruitless except at last the director let me buzz him next day for which freezes my salary now that ICBC didn’t. I know larger factor in PRC politburo intervenes my financial renewal of my web assets. they desperate deprive my source of basic living and business. God, dad, my throne against no one in its mightiness. grant us innocence against dirty manipulation against my Royal China’s regime. bring me sooner my girls, my offspring in our new family that lasts 1109 years ahead when China as an Empire reset. grant me resource to update my ownership over our web assets. grant us a joyful flight tour hometown in lunar new year.

Nov 12, 2016

dreamt lingering in Japan and fell in love with a Japanese girl. mostly dream scene in a room of a Japanese girl friend’s house. a little girl teaches me Japanese characters and gradually loves me. we also practice martial art. then in a sleep my penis persistently hardened and our love perceived by other Japanese boys there. they plotted to challenge me, while the girl and the little girl manage to avoid the death trap. I also dreamt rooted my smartphone via dirty cow deploit. this week busy with restore 3 os from backup against dubious intrusion and succeeded. days out and days in I endured to the day my icbc cards’ unlock. on Wednesday I first time visited icbc office to manage to unlock them, after found even credit debt cleared and automatic unlock didn’t happen. buzzed the phone bank reception desk, I was told there was a new transaction led me in debt of another $1.7 due to pay. I borrowed ï¿¥100 from dorm canteen operator and tried to clear the credit debt but failed on ATM. visited the branch office and even with help of crew I failed to unlock my salary debit card. I also was told unlocking credit card needs to be handle in local HQ. I waited and busy for 2 days. then I visited the headquater on noon yesterday. on counter debt was cleared but credit card department director told me unlock needs a day to work. and clerk granted all normal privilege on my salary card, but still failing transaction for status abnormal. I thought might be the credit debt still persistently preventing, so I returned in waiting. yesterday is shopping festival on taobao.com, Chinese largest online store. I didn’t buy anything for all pay method freezed. but I know shopping heals and makes one happier. I badly need to buy my son and my own a pair of backup electric toothbrush. my web asset renewal also due to fill. God dad, grant us credit to live in modern style. bring me my Royal China to unlock the dead trap in failing PRC and its dictative CCP. grant us 3rd flight tour in join lunar new year holiday in our hometown. grant me resource of self-relying in our publication.

Nov 7, 2016

dreamt first my passed mom help neighbor managing large herd of gooses. the gooses swept shallow water and ate lots of plants and bugs. the reward is cheerful, we can ate one or two without lose the farmer deposit base. then dreamt in open cinema with hometown folks. I brought camera and saw the possibility of being caught by regulation not allow to shoot. then before the ending, I dived into water below to bring somewhat command and my 2nd elder brother in charge of summon the folks to execute the order. last night 2nd snow in 2016 winter in Qiqihar cover the ground with thick quilt for early November. I ate rich breakfast and full with satisfaction. these weeks with online audio ebook, I learning and time elapses quick, results in less blogging. my son showed me his gaming skill ever improving when he epted made leaping progress in old game “family guy”. he more or less too idle and urges me new training or tasks for him, while I busy with preparing him live now channel on youtube as windows of American life to watch. long time waited game, “Lost planet 3” also downloaded and I tried awhile. his mom mocked me when I lingered there. but her Chinese brand Le smartTV, equipped showily by herself less than half year, wrecked and persuaded by support crew to give up normal usage but just as a monitor. so the messy poor woman consulted me how to connect the monitor to her notebook, which also mine shift to her free a year ago without any gratitude reward. I offered her a backup hdmi cable from amazon and urged her restore a functional smartTV against the product company’s evasion of responsibility, but I knew all my efforts less likely working: the cheap bitch dare to curse nobody but me, bundled her with our son. she wouldn’t bid even a different word in front of a stranger nor dominant presence, but obeys in humility. I told my son via message my analytics on his mom’s twist fantasy and insane taste, her cheap temper and behind frustration deep in her being worthless inc her career in state mandate education, while desperate longing for trading herself somewhere normally. God, dad, my life so long trapped within these unholy beasts including my son’s mom and her family. grant me and my son elegent soul mates in our world. bring me sooner my Royal China for healthy competition and wellbeing of humanity. bring me sooner the unity of Christian universe. grant us independent finance, empower me renew our web assets annually and maintain growth of our online publication.

Oct 31, 2016

dreamt confined by police in library. in winter now I usually close tight my window lest waste networked heat. but that results in late wake up in morning and missing dorm canteen breakfast. so I set alarm on my cellphone. as side effect, I usually felt sleepy after unnature woke up. this morning I at first busy with setup a migrated vision of agarten.in under domain dabbog.com, lagging internet soon drove me onto bed. In dream I brought my son, woz, haunted nowhere to find a place to dwell. then when we leaving I let woz waited me awhile I returned to library to pee. enter the hall, I found some people watching a bull head on the wall, like hunting trophy. at first I thought that’s my work, then found they were in fact unauthorized copies of my works and posted everywhere in the library, attract lots of audience. among people arrested under the bull head, one was a policeman, who listened my claim calmly but replied I wouldn’t allowed to leave in response of the demonstration. when I doubting how to inform my son in waiting about my dangerous situation, my 2nd elder sister in red clothes appeared in the library and didn’t recognize me. soon I found in the central area of the hall, my son settled there among reading crowd, including my sister. before detained or imprison I woke up from nap. past week I sometimes woke up earlier upon good news of coming unlock my salary card and ICBC credit card, now that with this month salary paid to ICBC, my credit debt to the PRC largest bank will clear. In bare waiting my kid brother’s aid to cope every month living cost, usual it will be ï¿¥700 since my brother latest visit, my younger brother buzzed in. he just brought his technician toured England. according him that cost ï¿¥30000. I then just settled site’s migration and with confidence persuaded my kid brother additional 300 helping me resolving running debts among local contacts, and bad need to replace shoes. he admitted in the session, a loan of ï¿¥1000. but later 2 days he didn’t remit me as promised. he is a man vulnerable of bitter feelings, and in the case he not evaded again. when I on bus fetching my son for monthly cinema with hard bargained loan from canteen operator woman, ï¿¥300, my brother buzzed in to check his damage on our schedule. he failed to persuade me gave up my redundant phone number. after the cinema, I check ATM and the promised aid right in its position. with it, my doubts cleared and much glad found discount area of Walmart has a nice shoes for me priced ï¿¥40. all the weekend turns brilliant with the aid and hope of affirmative. on Sunday morning I with my only ï¿¥20 bought hazelnut from street vendor near woz’s community after near a month I didn’t buy my son fruits as usual. the hazelnut rewards us in quality, large, crisp and delicious. at these moment in a sunny morning, God dad, I pray in holy my life out of uncertainty and hatred from sinful PRC dictation, stands peaceful, firm and hopeful. pray our happy gathering every occasion with adequate financial support. bring me sooner my Royal China for the prosperous China as well as eastern Asia, bring me new family with my girls and our offspring. grant me painless purchases and supportive credit and income base, esp my cyberspace startup. thx, dad God.



{October 19, 2016}   reason beneath prewar.

Oct 19, 2016

dreamt helping Japan in war. it’s a lengthy dream. at first Japan just in war and everywhere Japanese motivated and celebrated to join army. I happened to be in Japan and take part in their parties, from rooms to streets, learning their culture in ritual. then I applied to join their army and likely accepted. but it’s all in prewar, I just saw group of soldiers busy with their operations. later in a room for war donation, I gave all my money, ¥335. the staff recognized me and teased me on my donation, but I made him registered my share. the dream delayed me from breakfast, but it’s such a strange dream. yesterday I busied more than half day trying install google apps suite on my cheap Chinese smartphone yet failed. its bit boring to hack the gear. and I saw Chinese government blocked google service in one hand while buying from world wide to develop most hacking tool on the other hand to break through wall with malware, just aiming compromising its citizen’s security and private. I wouldn’t take the bait. the world is sad for the poor, even google itself increase their smartphone’s price, while its gapps suite so hard to install on Chinese product in conflict of their service. and dictation in PRC day by day risk common Chinese life and future to build war reservoir against mostly its civilian, then the US which responsible for world democracy and peace. in no way the tyrant in PRC will stop playing fire before forced to quit dangerous suicide, like spoiled son of bitch in north Korea in cult of wicked worship and dead totalitarian. God, dad, we suffered so much in welcome the world democracy, in Christian united world of just and independent. bring me sooner my Royal China to sustain progress China maintains since Ming Dynasty under my ancestor’s title, Zhu. bring me new family and offspring with my beloved girls, Asoh Yukiko, Lyu, TW. grant my son and me new flight journey, finace independent, and booming cyberspace startup, our portal online.

Oct 17, 2016

dreamt with Iron Man Elon Musk. he first introduced himself to me on a party. then I with him to his factory where I saw his rocket, which has 3 different speed empower to exceed gravity of air, earth, and sun. there are some pupils made advantage of his device and nail the window open and instant shift from one side of reality to another by climbing over the window. then saw Musk’s family, his ongoing projects including raising fund, his charm among people. this week a bit busy: I tried hard to install google apps on my cheap new smartphone. comparing India where every new smartphone should have google apps ready, I can safely assert PRC losing in coming decade by turning down its people qualified service like google and all free web and shift to its domestic poor copycat inherits sinful. PRC people lose so much in strangling with its top-down dictative enslavement. on weekend reuniting my son, woz, we proud of our time together. due to mounting surveillance over my son’s vpn, I had to spend more time just got his android applications updated from google play store. but anything elsewhere likely went smoothly. we felt triumph upon economic pinning down, dangerous circumstance around us, all by PRC dictation who more and more insanely fearful under our demonstration and turbulent PRC social unstable. we recently seldom play windows game, for downloading from steam or origin heavily lagged by China surveillance. we just cope with free web and security update. last Saturday heat system starts in service, and the dorm turns much better for dwelling. even in my solitude, dogs around in the dorm desperate entangles me. the gay in nearby room using his protend coughs as weapon and spit quite messily on corridor and disgusted me. the big dog also humiliates me with his ill surveillance: each night if I go to bed later, he will stay his door open and make alarm sounds on corridor to urge my sedative, like any of his business or concern. I pray God disappears the sin and free me from poisonous environment. God dad, bring me sooner my Royal China, bring me a tidy work and life space anxiousless. grant us free of wants, finance independence, borderless web. in coming season allow us to renew our web assets as scheduled. thx for this sunny morning, God dad.

Oct 10, 2016

dreamt of preparing my passport. this 2 weeks a bit astray: I much glad to enjoy our new gadgets and their functional. also reunited my son in celebration of PRC holiday. we went movie, visited my dorm. before his tour with his revengeful mom, I warned him about dangers in travel and hope he less with his mom’s desperate tour. the day before yesterday on way returning to my dorm, there was almost an accident: a motorist hit me and crashed my phablet in my notebook bag. thanks God, I was intact. then I ordered a replacement from taobao.com. this dawn I dreamt a lot about applying Unite State’s passport. It likely links to my elder sister’s recent call in which she let me know my nephew’s wedding near lunar new year and invited us free flight to join them. at first I gladly admitted, then found my dearest sister, 3rd elder sister, didn’t really invite us. what’s more, my younger brother likely covertly plotted framing us in humiliation for we are currently too poor. so I told my son we might rebuff it. Then holy spirit affirms me the hometown journey, our 3rd flight tour. in dream I first don’t know how to compose application, only puzzled in wording of causes. then gradually I see the categories of travel intention, like business information, visiting friend, tourism, etc. then saw in dream I chose BIX or something stands for business information exchange as my reason for the passport, and lots of uncertainty of the audit outcome. I pee once then dreamt again the applying process. in the end my senior middle school alumnus, Chao Lixin, who aided me get my first domain, be21zh.org, and a scholar in US since his Phd, and Wujiang, my Nankai Univ alumnus now a professor in US, dropped me a visit. the former kindly check my application and offer some tips, while the latter look through my form. I finally got insight the meaning of categories of travel causes, and saw large flow Chinese in PRC moving cross border. I saw what happening in American embassy in China and their handling of passport application. God, my life can be confined by mainland of PRC, but grant my son and my other offspring free migration among Christian united one world. bring woz to peaceful nation before PRC war bubble burst out. bring me sooner my Royal China to bring peace onto the eastern Asia. grant me financial independence and complete annual renewal of all my domain and hosting plan. grant woz his 4th flight to his grandpa’s hometown and merry union with his cousins there. thx, dad, in God’s mercy.

Sep 30, 2016

dreamt relocated within QRRS. in dawn dream I was assigned by my once and long time employer, QRRS, again and work for its labor union. I was called by the director, who told me my routine before read his newspaper. I then interviewed by some other leaders in the department. most of my job is dispatching newspaper, and at first I missed and the director asking my sending his desk. then I discussed him about digitalization of those subscribed newspaper for available for all staff at same time in additional searchable feature. later dreamt detailedly gaming, in which we drive and fly through all scenes of urgent flee before destroy all enemies blocking. coming PRC national day holiday I previously arranged my son going cinema with me, then shopping Walmart and finally ported a night in my dorm. but his mom, the cheap small woman, again will bring my son in tourism. the relentless bitch desperately compete with me by offering my son evil and destructive gift like travel. she never shared her tuition earnings while occupied the house all time and does no chores when we lived together. she didn’t earn much from her jobs so cheap but she never stop attempting won my son from me with her poisonous offer. Dad, God, my son in many cases stupidly trying annoying me after received his mom’s stupid gift like tourism by ignoring my message via digital gadgets I equipped him in last years. Dad God, free him from his mom’s stupid and stubborn like beast. he and his mom both do no hurt me by that mean behavior substantially but just make me sad. in my life blessed, I saw so many poor quality persons including my siblings, women around me. God dad, I just need a considerate partner so long, without cheating, without silent war, without psycho problem. why I so hard to win world in my wise and faith unbeatable? God, dad, bring me sooner my Royal China to family me. bring my girls, Asoh Yukiko, girl TW, girl LYU, to soothe my pains among embarrassing qualified poor people. grant me financial independence, warm me and embed me with firmer holy commitment. thx dad!



Sep 19, 2016

I was likely in tourism to Taipei. when we lined up in front of parliament hall, I bored and scratched pocket, then finger nails drag out a toll of large amount old era bills hidden. my neighbor schoolmates found at once and yelled. I evaded chase and made sure the amount is large. I or schoolmates commented: in communism anything you found will be confiscated, or seized by larger organization and only in lawful nation your findings belongs to u. then in the monitor and a girl schoolmate’s house in Taipei they invited me. her mother preparing meal for us. the monitor persuaded me honestly to check the ancient bill again and try to save in bank. when I heading to bank accordingly, the monitor and the girl trying to accompany me. its about 5am, after noted the dream I returned to bed. dreamt jogging on road near qrrs, my once and long time employer. met many foxes running around, they didn’t attack even fearsome. then more flying mouse, flying crane or flying pig or goose, with their baby under their belly in air. then in the girl schoolmate’s house I busy writing down my dream. her mother blamed me not helping her clean house. I told her blogging and shift away to write on a paper pens holder. this 2 weeks mostly fought GFW for my son’s access English web. his internet via vpn insanely blocked. I sometimes a full morning tried all means to penetrate the iron curtain, just aiming bring my son amazon prime video, among which lots of qualified kid English TV programs. I also prepared myself an alternative os for secure operation, android-x86. like in cold war I frequently felt insecure against government backed hacking in sinking PRC, world largest and last hooligan. this weeks mostly raining. the rain drop is the most in my 25 years in northeastern China. I enjoy the rhythm so much! also in the rain I picked my son to dine out while his mom arranged a boy schoolmate of my son visited their house. my son accompanied the boy schoolmate till saw him off. our shoes both sucked by water but fortunately its no cold. we ate fish but woz ate less. returned to dorm, I sensed my son’s lose in my unable to prepare him friendship, career, payment or reward like I prepared him tablet, cellphone or smart watch. I sensed his loneliness and uncertainty ahead, while I demanding upon his focus. next morning I resumed more or less courage, known that I can’t cover my son his life but God does. I sang in my workload to reinstall his dell notebook os. in dining out I told him I will do my best and likest as usual. he admitted. last day of lunar Mid-Autumn holiday he asked to dine in dicos, after near half year absence since our debt crisis. God dad, grant us financial independence. bring me sooner my Royal China to support my life and family. bring me my Empire peaceful for glory of the Son. free me from prison and notorious of debt trap. in the rainy Autumn shed more sunshine to warm my bed. thx, dad God.

Sep 3, 2016

dreamt of my relocation. last night the rain rhythm was one of the most beautiful moment in my life. this morning I felt sleepy and dreamt of in my hometown with my teenage friend, Fang, a professor now in my crisis of jobless. I saw myself rode a bike on mountainous road to visit Fang’s village, where he suggested I trying to find a job in City Huangshi, means yellow stone, where he once worked there. I said I would be a driver then seek promotion to office work, refuted his suggestion of straightly more elegant job he will help. my son and his mom arrived before my departure. my son is very smart and touchingly attached to me. we tried our best to farewell with hope of survive and larger grace. its unclear why there was no bitterness in dream with son’s mom. the rain lasted for more than 2 days, longest ever in my impression of Qiqihar where 25 years spent for holy commitment and glory before sticking out. this week I saw how beautiful a sound system can be. the new bluetooth speaker works independent with its own os, battery. I can rely it to entertain myself out of computer and online. harness my listening I will be less bored with too much reading online. in this aim, I bought a google chromecast audio yesterday for audio ebook and podcast in Chinese websites, during credit debt crisis which weighted my heart. I even envision I will listen some online university courses like accounting, economics, statistics, etc. God, dad, I never regret for what I spent in last 2 years by my credit card, every hardware substantially improve my living standard. grant us new gears update current times and meaningful for future we share with the world. bring me sooner my Royal China to update the broken infrastructure under evil communism administrative abusing absent Lordship in my ancestor’s title. bring me sooner my new family with my Queens and offspring. thx for the sunshine upon my visit my son 2 hours later.

Aug 31, 2016

a laughable dream. in dawn dream in my hometown while I busy with my stuff, my nephews, a dear and a farer relative, watching TV quiz program. then they won prize of ï¿¥70,000. that’s great but I’m not moved and continue my work. then the TV program producer woman from Shanghai visited with my passed mother’s companion. soon I got known their plan, they want reward me for my higher education background for promoting their program’s popularity, instead of the 2 kids. before I reply I woke up. last night I busy lately around 0pm till music library all settled for my new bluetooth speaker. I previously backup quite some music library but till got some new albums from domestic online shared space I felt satisfied. yesterday PRC broke down my vpn just before I setup the new gadget for google music. I contacted support crew of vpn but yet figure out what the problem was. that proves my doubt that GFW still have control upon my vpn as well as internet which among every level from root to endpoint in their manipulation. last week my son brought by his mom who hated and challenged me quite long, to tourism to far northeastern seashore now under Russian control. the small woman tentatively denied informing me their destiny, and let down my son’s mobile as usual. in the 7 days esp lately around Saturday, now that dorm canteen operator held their sister’s wedding ceremony and out of service, and I had only ï¿¥30 in pocket, I missed my son very much and unable to reach him in air. I felt the gap son’s mom tentative torn up between me and my son under her custody. I felt the despise my son shown influenced by his sinful mom. in the night I thought through if I live without my son’s visit and fight for new family on my own from scratch again, and felt quite ready. but next day after I buzzed my son as holy lets, after we reunited and known their tour in neighbor city across border, I forgive their bigot. I brought my son to cinema and dined out after that. God arranges a bonus from QRRS, my once and long time employer, ï¿¥500. I returned remnant of debt for buying woz sony sw2, recharge restaurant subscription of Formosa pie. the rest I shifted to son’s mom or the grandma for laundry for me, first time in half year since the credit crisis and unable to pay my support for son’s living cost. its as glad as usual weekend reunion except on Monday. returned to dorm I waiting for my dear sound entertainment gadget so hard. setup like a breeze, then amazing workable arrives. while google music unavailable in PRC at the moment, I listened music archives all day. isn’t it a wonderful world of innovative tools?
God dad, I’m so satisfied by your dome. bring me sooner my Royal China to deserve the ever fresh new world. rid me off debt and embrace the brave new world. grant me new family with my girls and steers my vested kingdom to new millennium to be more prosperous and peaceful.

Aug 23, 2016

dreamt of just graduated. in dawn dream I gathered with schoolmates before leaving for society. I commented after philosophy major we do understand better abstract noun and use it better. I again didn’t attend graduate exam and gave up applying my certificate of bachelor. after almost all other schoolmates left I stayed with my beloved girl to farewell the dean office. I holding my girl who will stay in Tianjin, where her hometown and work in petroleum industry, deeply and she accepted with tendering. I will make living with what I have except scholar proof. when the office administrator woman saw our way off, she told me anytime when I need my certificate, I can return to her and she will help. in dream my university schoolmates mingled with senior middle schoolmates. for example, Zhang Chongfu, my Nankai alumni who loaned me ï¿¥2000 back to about 2008 appears, but the girl accepts me as my girlfriend, likely my senoir middle schoolmate Luo Hui. its really touching for after so long we didn’t express love each other in campus but still she accepts me at once after I caress her, and we mean sincere in our first social occupation for living together and support each other. and our schoolmates, the faculties so kind. its a bright morning now. my son again brought by his relentless mother into tourism. the woman copy my way of life and to my son, enjoys current life without spares. previously she just deposit and grab any changes into her wallet. but now she desperate to spend off before our son’s future expenditure in growth. is it her conspiracy or suicide in hatred, I don’t know, but she lost base of trust and stability. my son visited my dorm last Friday. with borrowed ï¿¥300 we well treated. we tried order our dinner as planned for a long time and ate in dorm first time. my son played video game and watched video online while I busy with sorting my corporate email accounts and sharing them among zhone google apps users. next morning I continued the remnant of the task, after the night VPN unstable and I couldn’t synchronize my work online. before we left for KFC breakfast my son still played awhile video game and we enjoy his success through a checkpoint after hard battles against PLA. Sunday we did haircut, where I talked political VIPs among surprised other customers there. in his mom’s house I accompanied him till his mom returned near 6pm. we gamed, jogged outside in sunset and buy ice cream for his refrigerator. returned to dorm the developer of our bought app, reply messenger for sw2, replied us on twitter. so nice! dad God, this month my salary improves to ï¿¥2500, pl maintain the increasing and alleviate my credit debt step by step. bring me sooner my Royal China to cater to our land harvest. bring me closer to girls I longing so long. engage me with my cyber startup and my tender love with my girls.



{August 18, 2016}   best dream in decade.

Aug 18, 2016

dreamt in a tour returning home. met my Tibet artist friend Benba Chungdak. he collects painting job on street. then with him to campus where his dorm hided his paintings. then I saw my 2 wives, a Taiwan girl already with my son, and Asoh Yukiko who gracious as usual. they trifled a small bit upon my love among them, and I blamed my son’s mom’s improper grudge with Asoh. I’m so glad to see Asoh, who is so beautiful and cordial forever. they likely disputed with persimmon cakes and I brought the gift more for them. they waited for me too long together in the campus. my once mentor in Nankai Univ, a woman in family name Young, led me to where I saw my family. its such a proud and relief, esp my Queens still so beautiful, I caress Asoh and calmed down my son’s mom, so pleasant that I woke up at once. napped again found I carried 2 stone stamps to evaluate. the woman auditor identified my own product and another inherited. she priced the old one as ¥10,000 and encouraged me practize more on sculpture for true value. its so nice dreams that I would rather not to talk any other topics now. dad, God, I had lived without woman for nearly 10 years. grant me my beloved girls, esp Asoh Yukiko, girl TW, to complete my life long desire of beauty. bring me sooner my Royal China to maintain Majesty, Mighty for beauty. grant me finance independence and offspring prosperous.

Aug 14, 2016

dreamt first about imperial army of English, France, Germany. I was with british army which I reckon best disciplined and survived world monarchy crisis back to World War I. then dreamt with my cousin from his village. on way passing a cave I found a tortoise in its lair and caught it. I blamed escorts didn’t bring pincer with us. then in a factory I cooperated on crane with my once colleagues, a man and a woman, trying protect 2 objects while moving other subjects. after the practise I will publish a book. this morning I felt sleepy. last Friday I in holy affirmative visited my son who muted my instant message, against risk of being cursed by his insane mom, a small bitch. then found my son never implement our new router vpn app. I demonstrated him again. during the process, local cop buzzed in, saying ccb bank entreated the police station to urge me clear my credit debt, in the courtesy of neighborhood of their office buildings. returned to QRRS dorm, my 2nd elder sister called. she let me know my kid brother’s recent visit was trusted by my other sibling in hometown, and blamed him didn’t complete the voyage. I told her my kid brother’s wrong perception upon cheating bank, or escapage of debt, claiming PRC’s bank system all follows modern western bank’s practice, as corporate activity, no violence no cheating once common phenomenon in old Chinese dynasties. I told her and later my kid brother bank’s penalty acceleration will soon surplus my paying back speed with my poor salary, making my debt ever-increasing. then she suggested helping me to pay back once for all. I knew how poor they are but still hopeful upon resolving my credit crisis, as holy hints. yesterday I visited my son earlier than usual after persuading him install a reply message app on his smartwatch after he complained no way to reply directly on it. his mom soon brought him to go cinema after we just test out receiving social networks’ im while sending function yet problematic. God, help us get what we want. break barrage against our universal messaging service. grant me financial independence before it went worse. dad God, bring me sooner my Royal China to remove the sinking nightmare of PRC aimlessness but devastation. bring me new family and sound business in buffeting PRC prewar.

Aug 11, 2016

this week very busy with innovate our internet borderless access by install router app. I visited my son on Monday to settle it against the bitch, his mom’s curse. but she in fact absent. according my son his mom in a 3 days tour out. we indeed enjoy more broader freedom online. my son more or less agreed with me the endeavor after we called it a day and watched Amazon video together with his pad game. last Saturday I taught him a lesson when I found he didn’t respect my gift, his new Sony SmartWatch, and ditched aside. I blamed him wrong judge upon quality of people and thing. later we reconciled in cause of his naive. since left him I busy with fine tune my website template for 2 days, adding page break into all articles to make homepage more tidy with summaries, more compelling in versatile layout, esp columns. last night after fixed chrome missing flash plugin and doesn’t play video, after enjoyed the peace of watching my favorite TV drama, I deeply missing my son, doubting why he turned off so long, ignored my instant message. lately around 9:30pm I buzzed him but he likely slept. this morning I felt sleepy again after breakfast, I tried to immerse in reading and watching but failed. in nap I dreamt I cooking some delicacy in a niche with hotpot, the mood likely in my hometown and my old family, except I am the husband and father. I waited and waited while my son or my concerned more or less impatient. when I ready to open beer, I in urgency to poo but can’t help shit in my pant. I intended to replace my under clothes in toilet room by myself but at once woke up. God, dad, I do my best to improve our living environment. even it likely not in my son’s interest but I inspired to do it on my own. dad, what’s wrong in my son’s silence upon my efforts to equip him? Dad God, what’s my futile to bring about improvement in my son’s living standard? or is it just the sinful little woman’s curse and reckless blockage? grant me good stay with my son, in my means catering to him. bring me sooner my Royal China to fix the uncertainty in unity my son, Hope of China, God of Universe. bring us home and voyage with my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko. engage me with my cyberspace startup, and traffic meaningful to our web presence. thx, Father.

Aug 1, 2016

first dreamt my passed parents. then dreamt as secretary of chief scriptwriter of CCTV, PRC’s official TV station. we slept on a giant bed with lots of colleagues, like scene of Kanye West’s “Famous” MTV, reviewed lots of grand history, taiga drama, masterpiece episode, all kind of popular TV programs created from nothing, including the most important, annual lunar new year eve party show. we help or direct lots of famous theme commentary or documentary series, for we not only scholar but all familiared each other to team up. we can check in without ticket anytime. then my boss shitted some on bed and blamed me as scapegoat. all people on bed laughed and didn’t probe real trouble maker any more. last week we settled woz’s new Sony smart watch 2. he installed most on his own, but while he too busy to logon facebook, twitter, gmail account, I did instead when he is away for his lesson in my Friday visit with inform of his ongoing in setup. that’s more or less regret for I promised him he handle the new gadget himself, for the sake of technological savvy. the celebration ends with Japanese cuisine lunch he preferred, but he didn’t eat much, in fact quite few. and after shower later, he felt exhausted and ate less fruits, too. I also felt sorry mingling his new gear, so I picked video games in 2 weekends. my son joined me sooner, fought through soon in “Bioshock: infinite” till complete, and proud progress in “L.A Noir”. he needs more pals to play with, while I babbled too much for maintain Royal linkage. in the week bankcomm clearance crew, I mean male dog, lost patience and trying abuse me with my asylum record. the dog even buzzed my kid brother claiming my mental status unstable, but in fact it totally clueless and just aiming provoking my frustration or anger. God dad, release my son’s potential to self-rely, guide him meanings in normal life. bring me sooner my Royal China to integrate Chinese youth’s future commitment with Empire of China in 1109 years ahead. straighten holy road toward sanity and strength. grant us finance independence, my startup’s success as voice of Royal China and merit of democratic China.



{July 25, 2016}   new pray for site growth.

Jul 25, 2016

dreamt communist cadres’ secret entertainment. in my kid brother’s last visit, I led him visited QRRS stadium where once open now furnished lavishly and close to communist cadres, who mostly enjoy sports, party, so on at cost of state budget. I dreamt in a villa 2 mistress, young, beautiful, beast alike entertain their customers, cadres of state owned enterprise. then dreamt in the villa one of founders of PRC, Mao Zedong, enjoying talk with media. I asked after all condemns, triumphs after hard time against ruling party of China, nationalist party, if their is any thanks or obligation to the land and people himself belongs to. He likely prone to refute it before I wake up. these weeks especially busy with monetize my website, adding more amazon ads after max google ads display on my portal sites. I also tried to gain an virtual American debit card through payoneer, an international payment tool. I previously hope I can use it to collect my google adsense earnings and pay my web site cost without need google remits to domestic bank, which charged dearly and delayed heavily by lots of customs procedures. but unfortunately it support Amazon association ad system but incompatible with google’s. what a pity! this month I also inspired by my son, woz’s affection on his watch his mom bought him, cheap one and of poor quality. I felt time for my equipping him a smart watch. so I searched online store like amazon, taobao, and chose a Japanese product, Sony smartwatch 2. for my e-payment domestic as well as digital social web locked down in my credit crisis, I borrowed ¥500 from my acquaintance, a glasses vendor migrate from neighbor province of my hometown, Jiangxi Prov, central China. God, dad, grant us a durable and elegant product we bought discount. cheer up my son and myself with new purchase. this week I felt tired of monetizing my web publish, bless me normal altitude to build up my sites steadily. grant these sites web traffic ever increasing. bring me sooner my Royal China to sustain people’s enthusiasm once appeared in PRC revolution, which faked by sinful Atheism. renew eastern Asia with old dream of unity and glory.

Jul 18, 2016

dreamt I as a heir of catholic in latin America, raised by 2nd grand bishop. the highest rank bishop, or pope, more or less jealous and put me into attest. on way to my hometown, my girlfriend and me try the best to respect the pope and cared him individually, also trying settle my heir status. then in my hometown village zhudajiu, my 2nd brother summons his pals to assign agenda. before the outcome of competition I woke up. then dreamt install entertainment system for my son woz. his aunt, my 2nd elder sister, gossips about show business of Chinese politicians, saying the old ruling elite is official acting band, while recent politburo is secondary, for the old one literally does play and practise more. Yesterday we first time recharged our Formosa, a Taiwan restaurant franchise, membership with aid from my kid brother’s loan, since credit crisis. we ate a richer meal there before weekly shower. we also bought extra fruits. my son was soon brought by his mom to his music lesson, and I waited for more than 3 hours, updating his windows, tried video games, till found the sinful small woman tentatively delayed my son and detained him in downtown dining out, prevented us uniting. the bitch revengeful even in path of decease or dissolve. returned to dorm, near dusk, bankcomm clerk buzzed again, trying to launch a surveillance chat. the gay alike communication soon put aside by me and cut off after several minutes later not listening but found still held on air by the bank office. PRC surveillance tried hard to profane me with lame ducks, that’s well perceived tactics. they these days frequently evalue brutal violence against me as last resort to cohere me into silent dead landscape the dictator sickly addictive to. God, dad, baptize me before physical abuse, free me from trap of prison. bring me sooner my Royal China to sustain the national pride after my ancestor. bring my new family in new millennium ahead. boost my startup to self-rely.

Jul 15, 2016

Dreamt with my artist friend. His work, a fine paintings just awarded, a scene of shallow space with glitter highlights. I told him my impression of its success, he listened. Then I followed him walked through his life space, ie. school, dorm, etc. he searches for something in different locations, some quite disgustingly messy and dirty. 2 children of his school faculties played in one scene, on a large stone cave and adjacent platform. When I tried hard to climb down from the stone platform to leave with my artist friend, I woke up. These days monetizing my website comes to a end, all job done, even amazon ads quite some cases doesn’t show. I tried to reach help of amazon support but strange errors blocked my posting my problem on its discuss board. I quit with doubts that China surveillance interfered. This week can’t be better with tension relieved by kid brother’s financial help. In months I can again offered a blind man and a mid-aged farmer woman some changes for charity. I also renew subscription of snack on dorm gate vendor. I also renew subscription in a Taiwanese restaurant, Formosa Pie, for weekend reunion with my son. Its badly urgent for all groupon of dining out ran out. In a word, our weekends saved. Bankcomm clearance crew daily buzzed in but they more and more ran out of respect and patience. They abused their privilege to contact client and I will more shut off conversation with the hostile staff. I also tried to reach out on twitter and kickstarter ( https://www.kickstarter.com/projects/gotrus/746383975/share ) to celebrities like Warren Buffet, Musk Elon, Jeff bezos for help surviving my website under sinking PRC’s strangle and debt trap. God, dad, isn’t my business booming? Bring my Royal China to family my girls and offspring, support my new family with base of my website in coming decades. Dad, God, I see clearly space of development of my enterprise, or my Empire of China reset for 1109 years ahead.

Jul 13, 2016

since sinking PRC’s economic free fall in March has been more than a season, my salary card token over by credit administrative authority for near 2 months. I delayed support my son’s living cost and his university deposit plan, his mom’s laundry fee for my weekly shower. QRRS dorm canteen operator woman at first allowed loaning me 2nd month for boarding, but lately shown despise and impatience. bankcomm clearance crew buzzed in daily urging to pay back credit deficit. but these all went unnoticed in my heat to mobilize my website for gains. I informed my hometown relatives my unbalanced situation when my salary almost freezed, they forward helping need to my kid brother who operating a small workshop in southern China and with more running cashes. but my kid brother is a stubborn and arrogant young man. he reckons my financial problem cureless and untrustworthy. we exchanged some bitter words then cut off. till QRRS dorm canteen operator urged me to return their boarding loan for runing shortage, I can barely live under loans and peace. nearby acquaintance like the canteen operator poses a rather harsher threat for my living, for dog rampant northeastern China breeds lots of hate and violence. so I visited my once workplace, QRRS corporate culture department. the director got my mobile number after acknowledged my dangerous situation, promised informing me if his leader board, QRRS HQ, extends me a solution. but the call back never happens. I lives in silent begging meal several days in canteen who urged me 3 more times. then on Sunday Jul 10, 2016, my kid brother flash appeared on my door. he likely informed my son’s mom’s family, except me in his flight tour here. he brought a solution including pay back canteen loan ¥2900 immediately, pay my boarding remote from now on via his wechat, a Chinese mainstream social tool, connected with canteen operator, a debit card of his account shifting to me and cashable ¥1000/monthly. the resolution so charming all the afternoon I felt dizzy, after my kid brother asked my escort to visit my workplace and noded some of my colleagues or cadres of QRRS. he is surely ambitious with his pay power. next day I visited my son who just brought by his mom’s school delegation toured neighbor province resort. I withdrawn ¥500 from my brother’s card and treated my son his favorite Islamic beef after shower. returned to dorm, near dusk, my brother dropped my dorm and invited me to dine out with him. he is showy even in an alien city, which in my view reckless. and more we discussed our world view and political faith, more we dispute and repulsive each other. on taxi back his hotel, we hardly thankful even the healing resolution pack. after 2 moths’ delay, I don’t know if he realizes who is right when crisis aroused and proper loan in time I suggested presight, against stalemate bank penalty now mounts to near ¥900/month.
God, dad, I’m no doubt vested kingdom of China of 1109 years ahead under the Son, my title. but can’t our sibling share more common views on our ancestor’s land? God, dad I now saw promised salvage peacefully in position. isn’t it a cause for celebration in the summer? thx, dad, God, all these beautiful sunshine and breeze among tension and relief.
here photo of his last night dinner. for he arrogantly unfriended camera, his photo seemingly slightly ugly.
my kid brother's last night dinner in Qiqihar with a helping financial pack. for he arrogantly unfriended cameraman, his photo seemingly slightly ugly.
my kid brother’s last night dinner in Qiqihar with a helping financial pack. for he arrogantly despised cameraman, his photo seemingly slightly ugly. #God #AsohYukiko #dream #life #love



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