bye old man!

these days in peace of enjoy time’s elapse companion. but last night I sincerely praying God’s mercy for my been shamed: the nearby restaurant of a couple in which the wife is tall shut door for me. the husband ruthlessly turned down door in front of me, the wife sit her table motionlessly, while I tring bringing just bought sunflower seeds for her to kill time. the night before yesterday the waitress in another restaurant tentatively persuaded me not to shift remnant of sticky bean bone to her after I shared some of them with them. they insecure while I have several restaurant option or emotional supports. last night I talked a lot with the latter restaurant waitress about my life, my future. the waitress in her 40s’ and previously a worker of QRRS where I still on their payroll. she lack the grace to see holy glory, so she more or less mean. I talked more about my obligation to God, she more thought about money where she worked for me and her boss. dear God, on the way back home, I felt more miserable in which I tried to show my admire & love for the tall woman but refuted. in the night i prepaid 41 cny for next meal and she sms back, only grant me a normal customer’s role. I bid bye and well wish for her & set free myself for new inspiration: tall, independent, smart girl. dear God dad, the snow really cluelessly. last night I can’t bear heat and removed blanket from cover after adopted it for a week. the night my right knee didn’t sore, so coldest winter might just passed by. God dad, I really looking forward this summer heat might restore my hands & legs’ sound status. dear God, no one saw your mercy as much as I did. before my life into ash, bring me new blood & grace. my debt to dorm canteen successfully cleared, and in your mercy, they graciously accepted my decision to cancel laundry contract. this month my salary again less than 3000 cny, dear God dad, I hardly afford wrote off new laundry bill with new contractor. help me God, u know how I enjoy my meals and how CCP hated that & viciously attempted to ruin it.