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{December 19, 2008}   God shown me the way
last night i busy with adding my adsense onto warren&be21zh’s google
knol till 10:20pm. on bed i again a bit sleeplessly. in the mud almost
unconsciously, when i focus reviewing my kid brother, God, my dad, u
again clearest show my ur way. u clearest shown me all the truth i
peeked, and incomparable conformed me i was the gifted, the chosen,
the Son. God, i know i don’t miss anything i own, or i need, and don’t
miss any holy message i want to know.
God, i now in a circumstance where most common people or evils don’t
in belief, or even constantly profaned the spirit in me. i fight any
time and any way, i look forward to full integrate with u, in one
spirit, in the utmost determination. but, God, i don’t complain, i
here just a process to experience the suffering and the business of my
ancestor with glory.

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its so nice to have an adsense account, and right now i own one! after
3 or 4 round of exchanging email about verifying my ownership over my
domain against China surveillance blocking my domain, i finally got my
google adsense account near the end of work time. nothing can compare
with the feeling of complement at the moment i received the email and
swiftily activating it. i worked in office till 7pm to finish first
setting on my google blogger’s blogs, and my google knol. later when i
attempted to add adsense to more sites of mine, the Internet within
lan down, and i had to left. after dinner and accompanying baby
playing some pc games, i launched again, trying to add ads to my
wordpress blogs, but China surveillance heavily blocking, resulting
lagging returning pages. my homepage at registrar, http://be21zh.org/ ,
and on google page creator, http://www.be21zh.org/ , all inaccessible
now, even via proxies i tried a lot. dog really hurt, maybe.
with the adsense account, i felt i was a real content provider. i now
live with cyberspace and will on cyberspace. i love google’s service
so much, its just too beautiful.
today is the second years since my grand dad, my God, left me,
exactly. i prayed for the adsense account in afternoon when i wrote a
blog for my dad’s memorial day, and i at once got it. dad, i never
demand u offer all what i want, but u never fail me.
its a wonderful day, since last night i felt sleeplessly. i got all i
want, except the kingdom of my dad in view. i never miss anything i
owns. i will pick u, surely, my best beloved.

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these days i busy with site building as usual. last night i felt a bit
sleeplessly for i too anxious about coming google adsense account.
this morning i continued to fine touch my homepage on google page
creator, adding google friend connect and modifying layout, correcting
forms’ errs. dog in China surveillance blocked my domain since
yesterday, for they hate and terrified by our sight over the world. i
determined to get my adsense account, expanding our means to
penetrating the world of our sight and message for the bright and in
Chinese, Ming Dynasty. i had waited for the messaging method for
months.
this noon, after our grandson’s mother left at her house, i checked my
cellphone and found its ur memorial day. grand Dad, i didn’t attend ur
funeral ceremony, but God let me pick ur land, and ur kingdom from
outside of 2 thousand miles, in this northeastern corner of China. i
do enjoy the task u left me, and engaged with it all my life. dad,
where can i find u again? those golder years when u attending my
growth? dad, i cared my baby like attending u, i took the world onto
him just like u attending me aside forever, rid the need of
phisically. dad, my God, i forever attending u, forever listen to u,
that’s my vow in front of God last year when i in crisis. God, u know,
and u forever know.

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i enjoyed the service of http://linkbun.ch/ since a year ago. i liked
it so much. i had a all my cyberspace presence link bunch at
http://linkbun.ch/0im , and my google readers’ feeds at
http://linkun.cn/0il , and recent my google calendar at
http://linkbun.ch/3gui . today i tried my best to trim my alumni links
on qq.com, which restrict alumni description within 50 letters. so i
resort to linkbun.ch again. now its the precious anser from the golden
service, at http://linkbun.ch/5tyd .so nice it can be. i longing for
more usage of the service.
so u can click on http://linkbun.ch/5tyd and direct to my alumni at
qq.com. my their description page i said
"天下主家,河山易岁,祖统移信,天子天尊。http://linkbun.ch/5tyd ". that’s it. that’s my
holy message for my visitors all over the world.

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{December 16, 2008}   a day of trifle
i finished most awaiting feeds in my google reader. dog in the office
biting all time, including within the whole building. i dozed in the
morning for about 2 hours, till the girl colleague interrupted me for
help fixing her problematic pc. last night baby&ema attempted seperate
me from enjoying family life, esp. my parentship. i also sensed ema in
need of me, while i wondering my beloved. in the dawn i dreamed of in
the camp of Bush, the leaving American President, and played with his
children, including his daughters and sons(?). we played in the
forest, and in his house with his wife received me. baby didn’t join
his kindergarten all day, for he claiming he don’t want to spread his
coldness to his classmates. i also let pc runing in the moring,
downloading and catalog vector clips i got yesterday. pc now much
stabler than before it was upgraded. in fact it now seldom hangs or
reboots irregularly. i enjoyed it quite much, even my baby now
deprived me most of time in front of it when i at home. he even
demands leaving his game open when he left. however what i owned is
meanable, comparing my peers, for example, today i saw one of my peer
in the company offering me salary driving a car, he is a deputy
dirctor of sale department, i surely should have more capable office
to make full use of my time as well as my life.

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this weekends i slept a lot, unlike when ema engaged with tutoring in
past weekends. baby bored and asked his mother to take him to skate
ground about 300 meters near ema’s house. i queued a lot to download
and the lagging speed bored me into sleep. waiting for download
finishing really frustrating, i even lost interests on other matters,
such as my sites building. this afternoon i managed having myself
haircut and showered. its not a bad journey, even in the past
sometimes it let me at guard in public bathroom. i bought baby some
food he likes, like candy and ice cream. and i decided to afford them
with my own purse, including personal cares like shower and haircut.
baby now sleeping, before i left to bathroom. he got haircut and
bathed at home. these weekends he started to learn skating. last night
his mother asked my opinion on if buying him a pair of skate shoes and
i rebuffed it. he likely didn’t complain me.
its a bright day today. even i slept a lot indoor, i stil felt blessed
by the sunshine out of the window. my boardband likely heavily
deteriored by China surveillance, rendering usual download speed of
two digit kb, while quite some time ago i experienced 3 digit kb
speed. i gaveup 0day stuff for about a month, but some games’
trainer/patch i badly needed let me picked it again. p2p downloading
already deteriored, rendered it as nothing workable. i likes warez,
but i don’t think it time to give up it.
that’s my recent life. these days lots of pragmatic views flashed into
my mind. i know God leaving me more time to experience the reality
common people encounter. in faith or not, just a time sooner or later.

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{December 12, 2008}   fine tuned family plaxo accounts
today is busy day. in the morning i finished reading most feeds. in the
afternoon i launched fine tuning family plaxo accounts, including adding
sites’ link, changing avatar/logo, detailed contact methods, shared groups
among family members, also created a new group, China Democracy at
http://chinad.plaxogroups.com/ .all family plaxo account bundled with google
accounts, ie., with google account logon, plaxo accounts directly
accessible. that’s the real charm of openid, oropen socail as google
suggested. i also added my family cyberspace presence in links spreadsheet,
benink, to my local bookmarks, i intended to make greater usage of the
spreadsheet at
http://spreadsheets.google.com/pub
, which is very powerful to list my web sites.
its a nice day, also very chill. baby still occupied pc most of the night.
ema recently wouldn’t tutor students at home in free time, after last
weekend she was caputered by the administration stuff when she tutoring,
which banned by the administration. we will enjoy a peaceful weekends next
days.

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today is a busy day. i got the news that Ch(i)na surveillance unblock
google’s feedburn service now, and google friends connection now available
public. both let me in wilder joice. the all the morning busy with adding
google friends connection to my blogger blogs. last week i had already added
friends connection onto my domain, be21zh.org, but this morning i got known
that it can be added to blog on blogger.com easily, needn’t to upload files
as requested if u adding to independent domain. after 12pm i lunched at
home. in the afternoon continued the 2 tasks. near the end of work time, i
finished.now all my family’s blogs on blogger.com equipped with google
friends connection, let visitors easily adding comments, or even join the
site to make friend with us as the site owner. task of claiming my public
publishment feeds with google feedburner.com also smoothly, i almost added
all my family publish channels’ rss to my family feedburner accounts. even i
yet clear how i can benefit from feedburner.com, but i m sure its a due
action, for feeds so handy and popular.
its late now, i had to leave pc to go to bed.

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last 3 day almost means hell for me. i saw lots of omens about mafia and the
insane in China authority exerting sufferings onto my beloved, in which
situation i encountered several times when i was in panic and dumb and each
time broke my heart and forced me into asylum. however now with even strong
link with God, i know that’s *illusion cult persons manipulated*. God never
fails me, and never fails the appeal of his beloved and all plight just a
setting by God to see u r led to the brighter. i know i am exactly the
brightness and i can rid my beloved agony with my vision. i know all my
beloved in their happiness and live without anxious, all of them, including
myself, forever with their dream out, with the fruits they like in their
reach out of the tunnel of blurred interleaved wish list.sunny day after the
3rd and the most heavy snow in Qiqihar, China since 2008 commenced
yesterday. i stayed in peace but omens still haunt me and let me pain. i
decided to follow the bright but still i see the wrong love let some persons
mad and self-destructive. God sees they r essentially a passing&fading echo
in cold invisible universe. they born to suffer and live in scar and in tomb
since their birth, like dogs, like hooligan, like cult magician. they doomed
to tomb since their birth and die in scars and wound. in any time they just
a shadow and shake, anyone can kill them and do kill them.
its a bright sunny morning. the company i worked once now dispatching rice
their associated farm grew.i and my baby son live with *the grow of my
kingdom*, so did my arms and my staff, and my people. i live with what my
grand father prepared for his offspring and constantly producing and
reproducing with the wellbeing God grants. God *never let his son and his
creators suffer*, except the evils, which is exactly a void, just remind
human their home in God’s shine.
that’s my message in history. all my beloved share the fountain of holy and
live their way with leisure and harmony, except distress.

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last 3 day almost means hell for me. i saw lots of omens about mafia and the
insane in China authority exerting sufferings onto my beloved, in which
situation i encountered several times when i was in panic and dumb and each
time broke my heart and forced me into asylum. however now with even strong
link with God, i know that’s *illusion cult persons manipulated*. God never
fails me, and never fails the appeal of his beloved and all plight just a
setting by God to see u r led to the brighter. i know i am exactly the
brightness and i can rid my beloved agony with my vision. i know all my
beloved in their happiness and live without anxious, all of them, including
myself, forever with their dream out, with the fruits they like in their
reach out of the tunnel of blurred interleaved wish list.sunny day after the
3rd and the most heavy snow in Qiqihar, China since 2008 commenced
yesterday. i stayed in peace but omens still haunt me and let me pain. i
decided to follow the bright but still i see the wrong love let some persons
mad and self-destructive. God sees they r essentially a passing&fading echo
in cold invisible universe. they born to suffer and live in scar and in tomb
since their birth, like dogs, like hooligan, like cult magician. they doomed
to tomb since their birth and die in scars and wound. in any time they just
a shadow and shake, anyone can kill them and do kill them.
its a bright sunny morning. the company i worked once now dispatching rice
their associated farm grew.i and my baby son live with *the grow of my
kingdom*, so did my arms and my staff, and my people. i live with what my
grand father prepared for his offspring and constantly producing and
reproducing with the wellbeing God grants. God *never let his son and his
creators suffer*, except the evils, which is exactly a void, just remind
human their home in God’s shine.
that’s my message in history. all my beloved share the fountain of holy and
live their way with leisure and harmony, except distress.

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et cetera