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{February 7, 2007}   pale sunshine, chill day

last night i spent more than 5 hours in cafe to try to let my thunderbird working.dog likely blocked localhost’s some ports needed by web mail function of thunderbird and let my all attempt failed.when i left its after 3 am.dog bit heavily during the time i surf.they besieged me after i chose a far seat.they r dog or gay from cop or arranged by cop.they let me irritated and felt cold in my leg.dog now bit again heavily around.after returned to the dorm i read my blog on my pda till 5 am.i can’t sleep but just dozed.i got up at 8:10 am and ate breakfast in the canteen.then i went to see my baby.i ran upstairs and my baby was in the arms of the aunt when i arrived.his mother tutoring 2 girls students and the kid son of the aunt.the elder son,the liu reading in the room they now occupied.i told my baby how tasty a breakfast with pickle and porridge can be and soon the porridge was served.my baby ate some.after breakfast i murmured to my baby a lot,till his mother lost her temper and almost slam onto my face and startled my baby into cry.i got a view why she preferred to tutor students at home,just let her being on center stage of the family,in the guise of being busy and earning and righteous business and also avoid herself engaging anything of chores.its a long time tradition of her family life,and she succeeded to bring it to my family,let her dominating and sustainable,but all her did just in fact rubbish,like the rubbish system of china nowadays.dog ran its way everywhere and felt assured.robber and thief felt they doing the most common job on the earth.her dominating role over the students she tutored just as boring as what she taught and earned, and fragile as she sensed it,that’s why she so dependent and crabbed.dog in nowadays china beset in the same situation,inevitable,they doomed to lose for themselves losing the ability and inspiration to sustain the boring its exerted on the whole citizen.there is nothing new ,nothing original,nothing productive.they bankrupt the world with their rotten corpse.that’s their fate,till they bing buried.when the grandma arrived,my baby’s mother felt glad to let me to fetch some package of washed clothing the grandma brought.the grandma surely empowered with something recharged and her presence quickly let me doze and slept.i slept till after 2 pm,or so,at least i missed the lunch.my baby’s mother glad to let me sleep and covered me with quilt of my baby’s.my baby approached me sometimes and wanted to play with me but i can’t woke up.after i got up the grandma chatted with her sister family in the room for my baby.i soon decided to bath my baby.his mother opposed it and my baby also disagree with it,but i arranged it.his mother then enjoyed to bath him while i busy with holding the water jet and shot with camera.after bathed our baby,his mother showered herself.i played the shot on the tv to let the grandma and other member at home watch.then i went to shower in the public bathroom.there i enjoyed the whole bathroom with my own alone.returning to home,dinner soon started.after dinner i asked for my baby’s mother’s permission to operate on her notebook to backup shots and the os again.when i busy with pc,my baby played with the kid son of the aunt and bit him.his mother lean aside the aunt.after i finished backup,we played with our baby in our bedroom.my baby turned more and more to be less agile,but i felt dozy,so i left.and just arrived the dorm i came here to write u.here i updated my youtube and picasaweb.bye.i love u.in dim and in dream.lunar new year can be ur shopping march. i will spend my holiday with my god.kiss u with beer

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From baby in shower before lunar new year.


{February 6, 2007}   benzillar blogroll 02/06/2007

sunny day,eaves dripping yesterday.sunny morning  Annotated(1)

  • last night i surf overnight in the new cafe.i registered myself and my baby with some other email account with google,netease and yahoo.dog kept close monitor and stole one of my account.they bit heavily in the process.i spent most of time on setting webmail account within thunderbird.when dawn descended i barely finished letting thunderbird working.returning to the dorm i ate my breakfast and rested on bed for awhile then returned the cafe to write my blog.
    the night before yesterday i spent 3 rmb or 4 in the cafe to blog.when i surfing i heard the wife of the boss likely saying it indeed charged 1 rmb for an hour.if so the boss had guilty to accept my expressed obligations many times.indeed i knew all these under dog’s arrangement,but also in god’s set.i needn’t care anyone on the earth after all.returning to the dorm its already after 0 am.i read my blog on my pda till after 1 am.i dreamed the pave way around the lake of qrrs covered with plants and grass.i was asked to bring some boxes of book to the liibrary and on the way met one of my once qrrs colleague,wubaohe,a girl graduate from beijing normal unv. .i was blocked by the gatekeeper of qrrs.i got up at 2:24 pm.i then went to the library of qrrs,there i read some mags not lend.namely china garden.then i went to read newspaper.but the newspaper “cankaoxiaoxi(world reference digest)” was taken by an elder there,so i read pictorial.then on bed i listened radio till dinner.i asked for 4 rmb food but was allowanced 1 rmb.on bed in the dorm i started to doubt if i can surf overnight and felt right to do it.after 8:30 pm i walked about a mile to surf the cafe allowing me to down with emule.ftp now blocked deadly,let my ftp client downloaded some files but all of them broken or incomplete while the ftp client was cheated to have finished.dog likely manipulated router’s filter rule to maltreat my internet traffic.
    bye.i love u,in these new year in brink.love u like candy in mouth.kiss u with beer.
     – post by benzillar


{February 6, 2007}   sunny day

the morning in the cafe was just make use of a pc, not the internet.p2p download was heavily tempered.a man in my age likely a cop nearby biting heavily.i merely prepared thunderbird for my baby’s mother,and that cost me 4 rmb.when i left its near 11 am.i went to see my baby at once.my baby was in the waiting room when i arrived.the aunt today very domineer and ordered my baby to eat a lot.my baby’s mother had lecture in the morning.when she returned she looked glad.my baby rushed to pick her her slippers.my baby ate less for lunch.at lunch i told what i valued email client and suggested her keeping good behavior to make good use of email client.she likely half accepted.i also told him how cop in the morning stole my domain of email with yahoo and gmail and 163.com of a speedy domestic hostsite.she agreed to let me operate on her notebook to move thunderbird portable onto it.but the backup made in the cafe likely infected and i spent a lot additional time trying to avoid it.in fact the whole afternoon i busy with rebuilding a portable working environment for myself.downloads from the cafe infected heavily and let my pc hanged quite sometimes.my baby and the kid son of the aunt and the grandma all urged me to eat dinner but i just busy with finishing it before dinner.when i ate my dinner they finished and my baby’s mother got angry and refused to offer me meal.after dinner i soon finished backup of download and shut down pc.the aunt family gathered in the room they occupied now.i waited for my baby playing with the kid son.later we moved to our bedroom and my baby first played with his mother hide-and-see in curtain and laugh a lot.later i laid him on the pile of quilt and let him sliding to ground.the risk let him laugh quite a lot and let his mother uncomfortable.she told me she will file divorce tomorrow with me and let me waited on the ground of the home building in the afternoon.she even inquired how i care my baby if she left my baby with me.i admitted her request.after my baby slept i also dozed on the edge of the bed.i kiss her forehead and left.she also shown her care for me.its a painful moment,but i m afraid more severe pains to arrive to tear our hearts apart. i rested on the bed in the dorm for awhile then i arrived here. today quite some graduate employees of qrrs leaving for their holiday.in the morning and in the night people leaving.but i saw the wife of the hunan couples with their child son.i don’t know what a pain ahead but i know god’s training just sweat and meaningful. sunny son before lunar new year in new clothings.

shot by his mother.
no words can express my love for him.

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baby near lunar new year



{February 4, 2007}   sunny day
last night i spent 3 more hours in the cafe ,costing me 4 rmb.i tried to post to www.digg.com .returning to the dorm i read the biography of Russian president Vladimir Putin then read my blog awhile .i went to bed around 1 am.i got up at 9:52 am and went to see my baby at once.i ran upstairs and his mother tutoring a girl student when i arrived.the aunt held my baby playing on the edge of the window of the bedroom.my baby immediately asked my caress.then with him on my shoulders i sang and recited memo.later his mother rebut my performance and let me calmer.when the aunt and his elder son started to cook,i powered pc trying to retrieve my email accounts book from dreammail to thunderbird but failed.i delayed awhile to have lunch when they were eating.i ate a lot of bone of the brand "quanjude" duck with its juice.before i started to eat my lunch i asked for pickle,and my baby asked a lot and ate a lot of pickle,let his mother and the aunt in a fuss.they tried to stop but i let my baby eat what he liked and drank sweat milk his mother bought to dilute the saltiness.after lunch his mother suggested haunting outside,and we haunted the cult dragon supermarket nearby,where his mother bought a barrel of edible oil and some grocery.i bought my baby some milk candy.his mother suggested to transfer surplus in my salary book to my baby’s deposit book and she did with my admission.she transfered 1000 rmb while my finance book indicating only 900 rmb left while i had to spend another 200 rmb as my monthly expenditure.returning to home i soon decided to fix the notebook which can’t play movie fluently as result of being infected by virus and malware.later i decided to reinstall the os and working environment.his mother constantly opposing my operation,by delay or refusing to care my baby.she also urged me to leave before dinner.after dinner i continued installation and backup.the system surely infected,whose symptom including undeleteable folder in the recycle bin.however,this time the movie can be played in normal speed.dog also changed the logon avatar to a dog into my backup, just boast their hacking utilities as their used behavior.the aunt family went to bed early,and played on bed.my baby don’t want to sleep and asked me to hold him to hang around when the notebook let me free.i finished backup near 9 pm and his mother seemed happier.we played with our baby awhile on the floor in bedroom.she checked my finance book.i waited my baby milked to sleep and left. i also picked an apple.
the road connecting to suburb decorated with string of lanterns.holiday atmosphere everywhere.the couple from hunan prov. lived temporary in the dorm also absent when i returned the dorm,let me even lonely.i felt i was ditched in the eccentric corner on the earth.however,i don’t lose my hope and my faith in my responsibility.
bye.i love u, in near time and far coincidence.the moon night so clear and cool in the universe.kiss u with beer.
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{February 3, 2007}   benzillar’s blogroll 02/03/2007

The Best Hacks on Flickr  Annotated(1)

  • addons for flickr,maybe i will try some of them.
     – post by benzillar
The Best Hacks On Flickr



    {February 2, 2007}   cloudy day as i saw

    last night i spent 3 hour and spent 3 rmb in the cafe near the dorm zone.a chinese girl within facebook.com blacklisted me let me at a loss.i registered my account with www.digg.com and found its attraction mainly on the news voted,not handy tool for personal posts management.returning to the dorm i read my blog on my pda till after 2 am.in the nightmare i dream something crept onto my bed from what it hide under the bed and i can’t speak or scream even startled.then in a building likely in a campus,there r some bed berth only with a layer of straw and some shit on it.i was in a corner and felt threatened heavily.later i found a group of young muslim in a near building snipper me through the large window of the building i stayed.an alumnus of my senior middle school,raojiawang(family prosperous), appeared and slept on the bed adjoin mine.then i was in the campus of the senior middle school,huanggang middle school,where i stayed temporarily in a small cabin used as the radio station of the school.my elder brother appeared in the campus.and the building where i was taught when i was a student there was ditched and its ground floor was supported by wood.i woke up at 2:58 pm and got up at 3:02 pm.then i traveled through the open space in front of qrrs.after returned to the dorm i listened to the radio till getting up for dinner.qrrs now hosting a birthday ceremony for its graduate employees tonight and set up a huge balloon outside of the canteen.i ate 4 rmb food without any meat as my only meal today.then i jogged some time in the room.then i buzzed my baby’s mother,less her buzzed in when i was in the cafe later.when the qrrsers leaving for the party,i arrived the cafe i had been charged favorably to surf.ftp again was set to unable to download even its connection with servers succeeded.some pests around me bit heavily,including an by appearance boyish person just aside me murmuring all time,but i just wondering if he is normal.
    the atmosphere of celebrating lunar new year turning thicker now,but i still beset in the misery of missing u.i need u,in every meaning it can bear.love u like a cheese in the cold basement.i love u.kiss u with beer and feel.

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    {February 1, 2007}   bright sunshine all day

    last night i spent 3 more hours in the cafe to blog,and join some friends with www.facebook.com. i was charged for 3 rmb with favorite price.i saw some beautiful faces in facebook.com and tried to make friend with them.returned to the dorm i read awhile my blogs on my pda and went to bed after 1:00 am.i slept very sound till 1 pm,and forced myself to got up at 2:08 pm.when i arrived my baby and his mother went outside.the aunt and her sons watching tv.i busy with sorting what i got from the overnight surfing in the new cafe the night before yesterday.his mother asked where i was when they returned,but my baby later approached me and was held away by his mother.his mother threatened me to shift the pc out of her home.after i finished backup,i asked if i should install media player on her notebook for her recently complained a lot about missing the soft to play movie she got from her colleagues,and i was told did it.near dinner time and i was told by his mother i’d better eat dinner first for yesterday they ate the brand ’quanjude’ toast duck the liu brought from beijing and i was left with some.i enjoyed it and made some appreciations.after dinner i played with my baby while his mother started to tutor the son of her colleague and the son of her aunt.i talked to my baby to let him stay on the pivot.when he asked to play with tap water his mother came to care him and let me continue my work broke by dinner.when i tried to find a backup cd to restore some baby songs my baby got impatient with his mother’s care and being kept away from the notebook,and soon milked to sleep.after i found the cd lost i quit my task and slept aside my baby to accompany him in sleep.her mother urged me to leave.soon my baby woke up and want to play.his mother got anger with me, complaining each time i was here my baby got agile,and i accompany my baby when he is sleeping is absurd.i held my baby watched the city night landscape on the balcony with window open.when i found the mops laid on the rim of window to prevent water leaking from window all sucked,i shift my baby to his mother and squeezed out water of the mops.my baby still don’t want to sleep sometimes when i slept aside him on bed,even i sometimes felt sleepy.when his mother got again anger i left.the aunt and her sons kept babbling and giggle on their bed.the liu went to waiting room watching my leave.
    its a nice day.i don’t know why i recently slept so sound.but i saw more girls with their mates.when i leaving the dorm to write u here,a tall girl washing her hairs in the washing room of the dorm,let me felt so near and so far from what i can and privilege to have with u.
    bye.i love u.like sheer bubble on the seashore of the south china sea.kiss u with beer.



    {February 1, 2007}   benzillar blogroll 01/31/2007

    snow overnight and morning.shine in the afternoon  Annotated(1)

    • last night i first time tried peer downloading in cafe and even dog’s pest hindering me getting quite some enviable warez,i reaped almost 2 gb stuff.they resolved to prevent me getting any av soft or its definition database file,so as let its terror on my pc prevailed it way.the left side neighbor first play some music and let me felt quite relaxed.but he soon left.the right neighbors likely a couple engaged,kept babbling and later the male read loudly what he typed in instant message cursing from time to time.they let my right leg chill.when i left around 7 pm a car ported outside just launched to leave.i ate 2 rmb for breakfast,and rest on bed for 3 hours dozing.after 10 am i woke up but don’t want to get up and stayed on bed after 1:30 pm.my brain today full day stuffed in dorm.then i went to renew my borrowed mags.only a new issue there,so i read some mags don’t lend there.the sun was bright and large in the sky when i left the front gate of qrrs and went to read newspaper.the ‘cankaoxiaoxi(world referencee digest) always left few pages there,tentatively avoid my learning more about the world.returned to the dorm i finished reading the borrowed mag and again rest.there r likely a couple in neighbor room,chatting,even its working time for qrrs.they let me cold and dozy.i ate my dinner some time earlier,with 4 rmb for additional food.a guy left qrrs for his master degree ate there,in his vacation,acquainted me.i ate an apple my baby’s mother offered yesterday.then i again rest on bed listening radio.when i turned awake after 7 pm i reviewed our relation and felt proud and touched on our own.i was weak in front of u,otherwise i should took u directly as my wife,but i always regard u resourceful than me,i don’t think u should be more experience in love,but i think female nature plenty than men.so i entreat u to pick me,to ensure me that u choose me,follow me.i might insecure in front of u,but i always value trust and pledge more important than anything in love and in marriage.i lost in love before i headed here to write u.
      bye.i love u.like deer in grass slope,without any shelter.kiss u with beer.

      by the way,my web chat available now these days,even sometimes unstable under pest of dog.on any blog of mine with meebo im box,u can leave me message or chat with me if i m online.i will kept online when i write u.
       – post by benzillar

    snow overnight and morning.shine in the afternoon

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