benzyrnill, set to fly, like dragon fly…鸠昱隆嘉











{February 11, 2007}   weak while pure sunshine in the morning,straight bright in the aftenoon
last night in the cafe being blocked heavily. i merely blogging
while costing 4 rmb for 4 hours.returning to the dorm i read awhile my
posts on my pda.the rats in neighbor room kept babbling and dirty me.so
i read awhile chinese traditional poems on my pda. i went to bed at
1:06 am.soon in the dream i sensed ur pains of ur love and ur penalty
to me of migrating to us.i wet dreamed then and woke up.i was heavily
upset,and saw quite some omen of the effect of ur giving up to our
love.i can’t judge what’s illusion and what’s omen, even sure dog
around exerting their coldness and dirty will.i got up at 9:23 am and
washed my bed rob then went to see my baby.he was near the 2 sons of
the aunt watching tv with their mother.he was told by them to pick me a
pair of slippers.i held him then till went to receive his mother who
now underwent normal teaching scheme at 10:40 am.i was in sincere low
spirit that i seldom talked.my baby directed me entered the sports yard
where lots of skaters even the sunshine melting dirty snow.then we
moved to the south park,where he asked for some candy.his nose running
and the vendor lend us tissue to mop.my baby very glad to play on the
mini plaza in the park and laugh and babbled a lot.later he walked to a
nearby grocery market.then i suggested to prepare to receive his mother
and we headed on.we entered the school later when the students
leaving.he then turned irritated and even worse after returning home
and was milked to sleep before lunch.lunch was fried beef which they
ate last night as the feast of the festival of lunar little year(xiao
nian in chinese).my pda’s calendar still indicating today should be the
festival and i also remembered the day in my hometown was right the
day.after lunch i dozed aside my baby and his mother soon left for her
school.my baby soon woke up while i sleepy.when he played on his own i
started to retouch my portable suit.then the aunt family left to fetch
their booked ticket from the railway station.my baby cried a lot not to
let me operate on  the pc,and i knew hacking around concentrated. my
baby even powered down the pc just when i copying the archive to
udisk.however, i didn’t scorn my baby after all my wrong scorns to my
baby while he is always right.later we mix some drink of juice powder
and beer to drink and he liked it very much.then i bathed him.he
enjoyed it very much,only when he can’t breathe when water covered his
face he need my caress.when i wrapped him with quilt sitting in the
sunshine on the balcony the aunt family returned and left some fussy
comments.i turned normal in spirit,and sang sometimes.near 4:20 pm when
went out to receive his mother.he again entered the school yard for the
gate was open.i sensed cop in the outpost of the gate spying closely
all time.my baby asked to walk on the dusty field track till his mother
approached us.then i went to public bathroom to shower.the bathroom
changed its boss.and a man before i arrived there being massaged and
continued that after i left.another man arriving when i leaving.my
baby’s mother tutoring a girl student and soon finished and dinner
ready.before dinner my baby ate a bowl of wheat food with spoon on his
own and felt glad.after dinner i recited some strong phrases and let my
baby stay in high spirit.when he asked his mother’s milk and slept,i
left.in the dorm i dozed awhile,listening radio.after 9 pm i came here
to write u.

bye.i love u,no matter how u treat me.i
admitted i can’t judge ur decision upon our love right now, and i
really care about my life ahead with u together.i need true love,but i
would suffer misery as the stories of artist.i broke my heart one time
and i think i don’t want ruin my soundness any more.

i love u,in every tiny sense it bares.love u in sunshine.kiss u with beer.



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